Chapter Thirty-Four

“Yes very much.” He walks over to me after he’s chosen the cherry blossom oil and sits behind me.
“Where would you like me to start?”
“Could you start with my shoulders? My right shoulder mostly.” He tells me to lift my arms and he slips my nightgown off and a chill runs through me as the air hits me. He leans down and whispers in my ear, sending another kind of chill through me.
“Don’t worry, I’ll have you warm soon enough.” Then he puts some cherry blossom oil on his hands and starts to massage my right shoulder. It feels absolutely heavenly.
“Mmm yes baby.”
“You like that?”
“Yes, it feels amazing baby.”
“Good.” He keeps massaging my shoulders making sure to get all the tight spots. I moan even more enjoying his touch. It’s been a long time since he’s touched me.
“Mmm God that feels good baby.”
“I’m glad you enjoy it Doll.” I blush embarrassed. “Aww is that a blush I see?” I blush even more.
“Uh, no.”
“Aww my baby is blushing, so cute.”
“Oh hush you.” He chuckles and keeps massaging my shoulders and I’m still blushing like a schoolgirl.
“Can you please do my lower back now baby?”
“Of course.” He moves down to my lower back and I instantly start to feel the knots untangling.
“Mmmm ohhh yes.” I close my eyes feeling his hands massaging my tight muscles making them looser. I can hear him start to hum quietly and it soothes me and I feel myself start to drift off to sleep. His arms lift me from between his legs and he lays me down carefully next to him and covers me with a blanket.
“Good night Doll.” I snuggle closer to him.
“I love you. Good night baby.” He wraps his arms around me and holds me tight.
“Good night my love.”
“I hope you don’t have to work long tomorrow.” I bury my face in his neck and lightly kisses him then closes my eyes and starts to fall asleep.
“I’ll try to work quickly for you.”
“Oh no baby, don’t worry about me. Just make it back home no matter what time and I’ll be happy. I have a thought and it makes me blush. “Umm baby?”
“Yes doll?” I don’t know why but I start to mumble and thankfully he hears me.
“Uh well, if you want to of course, do you think that some time this week we could have sex?”
“Of course doll.”
“Thanks baby.”
“You’re welcome Doll.” We both smile and I turn in his arms so my back is to him.
“Mmm hold me tight please.” He pulls me closer to him and holds me tight.
“Mmm feels so good in your arms. Good night baby.”

The next two days come and go and we’re talking more but we still haven’t had sex. I’m okay with that because I know now that he isn’t opposed to the idea. We talk mostly about how losing the baby made us feel. We knew that we had blamed ourselves individually for what happened but not how much and I still believed that he blamed me and vice versa. I told him everything that I had been feeling and he did the same and it was a very sobering conversation. I felt like I was alone but it turns out that I made it that way because I wouldn’t let him in so he felt that I pushed him away. The constant gaming was him giving me space and an outlet for him. Though from what his friends told me, he was a serious gamer before we got together. He talked to plenty of people in those games that would listen to his problems as he listened to theirs. He also went to the game that we met in and talked to them about things that were going on. It seems that I have missed a lot in these past months but I’m happy that we’re getting close again.
Now it is Friday and we are getting ready for our movie marathon tonight. I’m baking his cookies and he keeps coming in and stealing dough from the bowl. I hit him on the ass once with the wooden spoon and he ran out of here laughing. Sometimes I swear I’m dating the world's biggest toddler, but that’s my cookie monster. I laugh and keep making the cookies then realize that I need some more milk and eggs from the store. I won’t need them for the cookies, but I will need them for breakfast tomorrow morning. I think I made too many cookies. Someone is going to be very happy with that fact, but I’m going to hide some of them so he doesn’t over eat. I’ll have to send him to the store otherwise the cookies will magically disappear while I’m gone.
“Baby come here please.” He comes flying into the kitchen with a huge smile on his face. I don’t know what I’m going to do with him.
“Yes doll.”
“You are such a big baby behind these cookies.” I burst out laughing and he pulls me close to him and kisses me gently.
“Did you need something my Queen?”
“Mmm yes I did. Can you go to the store for me and pick up some milk and eggs for breakfast?” While I’m talking his hands are going up and down my back then he squeezes my ass and starts kissing down my neck. I moan softly and he slowly pulls away.
“I’ll go to the store for you doll. Anything else you need from there?”
“I can’t think of anything but if I do then I’ll call or text you. I do not want you to go to that store though.”
“Aww doll you know that I hate driving and that store is closer.”
“Baby please just do as I ask. I don’t want you bumping into her. I need our night together and don’t need to hear that police were called again only for you this time.”
“Alright doll I understand.”
“Thank you baby. Now hurry up so you can get back and I’ll have some cookies ready for you.” He kisses me again and hurries out of the house.
While he’s gone I finish baking the cookies and put in the first movie so all I would have to do is press play when we’re ready tonight. I go and take my shower while the cookies are cooling then get dressed in my nightgown and grab a blanket so we can cuddle on the sofa. I grab my candy and put them next to the cookies that he’s allowed to eat tonight and got myself comfortable on the sofa. Thirty minutes later he comes back and mumbles the whole time he’s putting the groceries away. I giggle as he goes to the bathroom for his shower and then he comes and joins me on the sofa when he’s done. Once he’s comfortable, I cuddle next to him and start the movie. We eat candy and cookies with milk and we enjoy the movies. I manage to make it through two of them until I pass out. When I wake up the next morning, I’m lying in bed in his arms and that makes me smile. I get up quietly and go to the bathroom then wash my hands when I’m done and climb back into bed next to him. Automatically he pulls me close and wraps his arms around me and I fall back to sleep.
Later that day, I get up and do the laundry while he sleeps in a little longer. I know that he’s been tired from staying up and then working all those long hours. The hours were to make up for the time lost after the baby and the staying up was from his insomnia. I knew that he has insomnia but it was never this bad until now. He has been sleeping though since we’ve had our discussions about everything. Tonight I think I’m going to give him a massage. That should help him sleep better tonight.
Around two o’clock he finally wakes up and I have some smoked turkey and cheese sandwiches waiting for him for lunch. I’m going to make sure he’s up for breakfast tomorrow. Monday is his long day at work and I hate it but there’s nothing I can do. He leaves to go to work for two in the evening then doesn’t get home until well past midnight. Once it was almost five thirty the next morning before he came home. That had me very pissed off because it was a day that I had to be to work early in the morning and wasn’t getting off of work until eight that night. I can’t sleep without him so that messed up my rest for the night.
I’m pouring some milk for us to drink when he enters the kitchen and comes up behind me wrapping his arms around my waist and lightly kisses my neck. I smile and subconsciously leans into his chest then turns my face up and kisses him lightly on the lips.
“Mmm you taste good. Now go sit down and I’ll bring you something to drink.”
“Okay doll.” He removes his hands then lightly smacks me on the ass as he goes to sit at the table.
“Keep it up mister and you won’t get anymore cookies.”
“Doll, that’s not fair.”
“Oh quit pouting. You can have your cookies but please don’t eat them all at once. I know you love them but I’m not making you anymore if you can’t control yourself.”
“I promise I will control myself. What do you want to do today?” I sit at the table as he starts to eat his sandwich and think about his question.
“Well we could go for a walk on the beach or in the park would probably be better. You could also take me to a movie.”
“How about we do both?”
“Are you sure? I mean I’d love to but only if you want to do both.”
“I think we have a date then. Why don’t we finish our lunch and see what is playing?”
“Sure baby.” I smile as I eat my sandwich and chips and drink my milk. When we’re done he washes the dishes and I look online for movies that we’d both like to watch. I finally found a good action movie, then we purchased our tickets online then relaxed on the sofa watching crime shows until it’s close to the time for us to leave. Two hours later we’re in the bedroom getting dressed in jeans and t-shirts for a nice casual date night. I can’t remember the last time we did this so going tonight was greatly needed. When we finished dressing he gently kissed my lips and grabbed the car keys as I grabbed my purse and we headed to the movie theater. The movie was full of action from beginning to end and I loved every minute of watching. I believe that the way it ended there may be a sequel. If so, then that will definitely be another date night.
On the way out of the theater we throw our cups and popcorn bags away then head to the car and he drives us to the nearest park. The sun is still up for another hour so we park and quickly get out and head to the little trail that goes around the entire park. There’s a light nip in the air and it feels wonderful against my skin. I’m smiling and he must have noticed because when I tilt my head back slightly and close my eyes feeling the wind against my face, I feel his lips on mine as he kisses me gently and pulls me in wrapping his arms around my waist. I wrap my arms around his neck and run my fingers through his hair. After about a minute I think we both realize where we are and pull away from each other. When we look up there’s this old couple sitting on a bench smiling at us and I start to blush. Jameson leans down and kisses me again but not as long and he waves and says “hello” to the couple before we continue on our walk.