The Talk

While the hot water cascaded down our bodies, I couldn't help but feel a sense of peace wash over me. Jason's strong arms held me close, his touch gentle and loving, a stark contrast to the pain I had endured just moments before. The marks he had left on my skin were still tender, a reminder of the intense BDSM session we had just finished. I wasn't sure if I would ever be able to participate in something like that again, the experience was both exhilarating and terrifying, pushing me to my limits in ways I never thought possible.

But as Jason continued to gently scrub my back, his touch soothing and comforting, I felt myself relaxing into his embrace. The hot water helped to ease the tension in my muscles, melting away the ache that had settled into my bones. Once we were both clean, he dried me off with care, his movements slow and deliberate as if he were afraid to hurt me. I appreciated his gentleness, his concern for my well-being evident in every action.

He led me out of the shower and into a different bedroom, one that looked inviting and cozy. He tucked me into bed, pulling the covers up around me before climbing in beside me. His arms wrapped around me, holding me close as he pressed a soft kiss to my shoulder. I felt his warmth seeping into my skin, his presence calming me in a way I hadn't experienced before.

I closed my eyes, allowing myself to relax into his embrace, to let go of the fear and uncertainty that had been clouding my mind. I knew that there was still much to discuss, that I needed to talk to him about my feelings and fears, but for now, in this moment, I simply wanted to bask in the peace and comfort he provided.

I couldn't help but think about Nathan and Sebastian. I knew that I wanted to include Jason in our intimate sessions, to explore this new dynamic together, but first, I needed a break. The intensity of the night had left me drained, emotionally and physically, and I knew that I needed time to process everything that had happened.

I layed in Jason's arms, my heart racing from the intense emotions that had consumed me just moments ago, I couldn't help but feel a sense of peace wash over me. The man I had hated so fiercely only hours before was now holding me close, his warmth enveloping me in a way that was both comforting and unsettling.

I closed my eyes and let myself drift off to sleep, the gentle rise and fall of Jason's chest lulling me into a state of relaxation that I hadn't felt in a long time. But as the sun rose the next morning, I knew that I couldn't avoid the inevitable conversation that needed to take place between us.

Sitting up in bed, I gathered my thoughts and took a deep breath before turning to face Jason. His eyes met mine, filled with a mixture of concern and understanding. I knew that he was waiting for me to speak, to finally address the elephant in the room.

"Jason," I began, my voice barely above a whisper, "I need to tell you something.

He nodded, encouraging me to continue, his hand reaching out to grasp mine in a silent show of support.

"I love Sebastian," I confessed, the words hanging in the air between us. "I love him in a way that I never thought possible. But I also can't ignore the feelings that I have for you and Nathan. I don't know how to make sense of it all."

"Nathan already knows, and the three of us decided to all be together, that's why you found us that day" I continued. For a moment, there was silence between us as Jason absorbed the confession I had just made. I watched as his expression softened, his eyes meeting mine with a mixture of emotions that I couldn't quite decipher.

"I don't know what to say," Jason finally spoke.

"I understand if you're upset," I said, feeling a wave of guilt wash over me. "I just needed to be honest with you."

Jason shook his head, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "I'm not upset," he said, his voice filled with warmth. "I'm just surprised.

I felt a rush of relief flood through me at his words, a weight lifting off my shoulders. Maybe, just maybe, I had made the right decision in telling him the truth.

I didn't know if it was a good idea to tell Jason about any of this, but the words spilled out of my mouth before I could stop them.

"I begged Nathan to help me seduce you," I confessed, my heart pounding in my chest.

Jason's eyes widened in surprise, his expression a mix of confusion and curiosity. "Why would you do that?" he asked.

I took a deep breath, trying to find the right words to explain myself. "I did it because I knew that bringing you on board was the only way you would let us be together. I needed to show you that our relationship wasn't wrong."

"I guess the four of us will need to sit down and have a conversation,"he stated. I felt a sense of relief knowing that he was open to discussing things with us.

I was just relieved that he was willing to talk to us.

We both sat on the bed, the room filled with a tense silence before he broke the quietness with his next words.

"I'm sorry for torturing you, but I need you to know my world," Jason whispered, his voice filled with a mix of remorse and desperation. "I needed to make sure you are strong enough to be with me. I wanted you to know my dark side, what I showed you today was not even a third of my dark side."

"I know this must be hard for you to understand," Jason said, his voice soft and pleading. "But I needed to know if you could handle that side of me."

I looked into his piercing blue eyes, searching for some sign of the man I thought I knew. But all I saw was a darkness that still scared me, taking me back to what he did to me. How could such a gentle man be capable of such cruelty? And why did he feel the need to test me in such a brutal way?

I admitted in a low voice, 'I don't know whether I can manage your dark side.' “But I want to try. I don't know why I even said I wanted to try. I wasn't certain I could handle him.
'Thank you,' he said, his voice conveying sincere gratitude. “I know it won't be easy, but I'm happy you are willing to try.”