Chapter 10

After Johan left my room, I felt more free than before, when he had not finished the task I had given him. Actually, he wasn't in this room before either, but I wanted to be more careful in case he suddenly entered this room.

I began to think that Johan and Gerry were not normal people because they suddenly appeared and disappeared like a vampire. I laughed for a moment, thinking how ridiculous my thoughts were, this must be an effect, because I was too tired from the various dramas I had gone through lately.

I opened the document that Johan had given me and read the contents bit by bit, paying close attention to all the summaries that Johan had included in the document.

For some reason, when I hear or know something about Samuel, it's as if something comes back to me. Whether I could pick it up as a memory or not, because I was also doubtful about that.

I doubt what I thought about Samuel because I wasn't sure if I ever knew him or not, because everything felt so vague, but my feelings were so sure that something had happened between me and Samuel.

"Ouch, my head hurts."

I stopped reading the document. I felt sick and sore as I kept trying to remember something about Samuel. I don't know why he and I seemed to have something in common, but I couldn't remember anything about it.

If I could just go back to my old house, maybe I could find something. Unfortunately, there was an explosion in my house some time ago. It sounds strange, but there was actually something that happened in the past, but I'm not sure what it was, because when I woke up, everything that happened before that time just seemed to disappear from my mind.

I had an accident and to make me wake up in the hospital, there was a reason why I had that accident, but no one explained it to me. When I asked the doctor, the doctor and the medical staff just said, "Oh, someone brought me to the hospital because I was already in an unconscious state. I don't remember anything about the cause.

"Johan!"

For the umpteenth time I almost fell out of my seat because I was so surprised. Johan's arrival was completely unexpected, he kicked down the door quickly like a soldier preparing for battle. From the looks of it, he was probably waiting for me at the door, but he didn't make a sound.

I had to hope that Johan wasn't doing stupid things like Gerry, which were both equally annoying and tiring.

"What is it, sir? Can I help you?"

I tapped my forefinger against my elbow as I crossed my arms and gave him a displeased look.

"Can you come to my room the normal way?" I asked.

Don didn't just grin, he scratched his cheek with his index finger. "I'm sorry, sir. But I want to be your fast assistant, so I'm always in a hurry."

I sighed and tried to forget this discussion. It was such a rhetorical sentence that I should have already known the answer, as stupid as I was trying to have a fair discussion with Gerry.

"Well, forget it. I really want to get out of this house because there's something I want to find. Can I leave the house today?"

Johan thought for a moment and held his chin. "I'm sorry sir, the message from Mr. Gerry says that you have to stay in this house for your safety. At least wait until Mr. Gerry returns and then you can ask him directly."

I was sure that if I argued and forced him I wouldn't get the results I wanted, I would try something else and hopefully it would work.

"Please, I'm really tired of being at home for long periods of time. Besides, I have a tendency to worry excessively when I'm locked in the house for a long time. I'm afraid that if my anxiety come back, it will be troublesome for all of you. I'm so afraid that when I feel it, my whole body hurts and I can't control it.

This is just a silly story I made up. But I hoped that Johan would fall for my charade and comply with my request. I couldn't force him, so I had to force him in a different, gentler way.

He doesn't look at me with a look I can't describe, but judging by the look in his soft eyes, he seems to be quite affected by my charade.

Come on, at least he believes in what I'm saying, it's rare for me to show a face that pretends to be cute like right now, it's really terrible even though I'm a Uke. Because even though I'm the okay or submissive party in a gay relationship, I'm actually still acting or behaving like a normal man.

"You have anxiety? Well, I will consider it first. But before I decide that you can't leave this room. Wait for me, I'll be right back," Johan said as he left my room.

I just stared at his back as it moved further away and then disappeared behind the door. I returned to my sitting position, casually leaning on the bed divider. I looked at the pile of documents beside me with a sad look.

My hand unconsciously touches my own waist, the part that Samuel had embraced a few days ago. What exactly is the hidden meaning of all this that I feel is bound between me and him?

I really want to know all the secrets behind it right now. But even to reach that part, just to trace it, my head is already very painful, like something is stuck there, this is very annoying and makes me very angry, angry with myself.

"Ah! sorry Mr. Zharies."

Suddenly Johan came into my room and looked at me seriously.

"What's wrong Johan? Can I go outside for a short walk?" I asked.

"After my consideration and coordination with the bodyguards sent by Mr. Gerry, you are allowed to take a walk outside the premises of this house, but you must remain under our supervision. But I have one condition for you and you must abide by it."