Chapter 28

"Right, we can eliminate that by eliminating my feelings for you. I'll try hard so that I stop loving you either permanently or quickly. It doesn't make sense but I'll try my best. I'll keep doing that so that I can help you and be by your side until our deal is done," I promised Gerry.

"No, I won't," Gerry said.

"Huh? What do you mean?" I asked.

I didn't understand what Gerry meant by unwilling. What did he not want? Did he not want to continue my deal with him anymore after learning about this jinx?

For a moment my chest felt like it was being rained on by a boulder that was so painful. I knew I would receive this much rejection if I was honest about my fate.

I wouldn't be surprised if Gerry did that, who would want to bear the misfortune of someone else? No one wants to be at such a disadvantage.

"I understand, I'll leave immediately so that you don't get affected by my jinx," I said trying to be strong.

I didn't want to show that I was fragile. That Gerry had indeed openly not wanted me to be with him anymore, that power was indeed a very good decision taken by him.

Being hurt by a loved one is also one way to get over love in a faster way. It would be better than me trying to struggle alone to forget this love.

"Tsk, you insist on talking more while I'm enduring the pain. Don't you understand what I'm saying?"

I tilted my head and looked at Gerry with a surprised look. "I still don't understand. What is it that you don't want? Didn't I think it was right that you wanted to break our deal so that you'd stop getting bad luck from my jinx?"

Gerry rubbed his face roughly. "You're still as stupid as ever. I don't mean that, but the last thing I want is for you to stop loving me."

I was gaping and still with the same expression. "Don't you understand? My Jinx will eat away at you if I continue to love you. I know it's related to our agreement to continue acting as lovers. But there are repercussions if I continue to love you. So the best way is for me to stop loving you---"

"No! I don't want to!"

Gerry seemed to be so upset that he suddenly tried to sit up and get up from where he was lying. He had forgotten that there were still wounds on his body that hadn't dried up, and he groaned in pain from the sudden action.

"Gerry! Calm yourself down first. I'm sorry, but please stay lying down and don't move much," I said.

I helped Gerry to put his body back to normal slowly.

"Then what do you mean?" I asked.

"I don't want you to leave, I don't want you to stop loving me," Gerry said.

I still couldn't wrap my head around it, even now I felt weak from dealing with Gerry's stubbornness that I couldn't overcome with my emotions.

"It'll put you in danger---"

"I don't care," Gerry said.

"But why---"

"Because I love you too."

I was silent and stunned. For a few seconds I tried to understand what I had just heard from Gerry directly. I wanted to make sure if my hearing was fine or if it was having problems, I wasn't sure about what I heard earlier because it seemed impossible.

"You've got to be kidding---"

"I'm not joking about that at all and joking about feelings of love is not a funny thing to do. I have a principle to be serious about things that should be taken seriously," Gerry said passionately.

Now I didn't know how to respond to Gerry's words with the right answer. I seemed to have trouble breathing for a while. My head was suddenly dizzy and my body suddenly lost energy for a while.

Did this good news make my body too shocked to react like that?

"Gerry, I didn't expect to hear this from you," I said.

"And I didn't think I'd be saying this to you either. All my life I have always believed myself to be someone who has a straight sexual orientation. And I've never loved anyone before because I was too focused on my business life," Gerry said. "And you so damn easily came into my life and took my heart away."

My face was red, I could see it in the reflection of the mirror not far from me. I didn't dare to look at Gerry's face because I was too busy trying to regulate the rhythm of my increasingly irregular heart.

Gerry gently took my hand and held it. He seemed to be trying to convince me even though before he did that I was already convinced by his words.

"Zharies, don't leave me, no matter what."

"But that means I'll lose you forever," I argued.

"No one can do that to me, I know God will love you and give you a happy destiny at the right time. And this is that time. Even though I've never believed in God."

I was stunned. "Gerry, it's not that easy. I've failed so many times, and I don't want to fail again, especially to you who I love so deeply."

We both then fell silent.

"You know, I suddenly changed and didn't want you to carry out your plan to annoy Samuel by pretending to like him because I didn't want you to get close to him. Every time I hear his name but my jealousy flares up so much because I know he is the biggest threat for me to get you. You guys have a past together, right? I know that, but I want to hear it from you."

I gasped in shock but it was too late because the person who wasn't supposed to know about the secret already knew about it although I didn't know to what extent.

I lost, I chose to be honest. I told him everything in detail about my past memories with Samuel. Every now and then I saw a jealous look on Gerry's face, it was funny, but also scary because he looked like someone who was about to devour hellfire.

Luckily Gerry is more understanding and wants to understand that my past with Samuel is just a past and will not be repeated in the present. Either I should be grateful that he still wants to be with me and loves me after knowing about this jinx or I should complain about it.

"Stay with me, Zharies. I predict that soon we will face a great test together. But it will be a challenge that provides the answer to break the curse. I believe this biggest challenge is what will break the jinx, after this we can live happily together without you having to worry about the jinx," Gerry said.

"Challenge? What's going to happen in a minute?" I asked.

"You'll find out in a minute, and until that happens you have to stay with me. I'm going to prove that I'm much stronger to break the jinx that's been holding you back," said Gerry. "I swear, for the sake of our love."