Chapter 29

A few days later Gerry was finally able to be brought back home after completing his treatment at the hospital.

I'm quite happy with his recovery, although it may not be complete, but at least Gerry's condition is now better than when he first entered the hospital.

The security at Gerry's house has also been tightened so that there are no more intruders who enter like Samuel did a few days ago when he broke into this house.

I also focused on Gerry's condition while I felt guilty for Gerry but I also wanted to pour out my love as Gerry's lover so that Gerry would be more enthusiastic in his therapy to recover quickly.

"Thank you for giving me a lot of your attention and time. But you also have to pay attention to your own condition because if you are too tired then you can get sick," Gerry said in a worried tone.

We were both now in Gerry's room, I was taking care of myself and we were both sitting on the bed. So he had just finished his lunch with me, we both spent our lunch together quite romantically there although the fullness in Gerry's food could not be adjusted to Gerry's liking because it had to adjust to the doctor's recommendations.

"You don't need to worry about my condition because I'm used to doing a lot of activities even before we've met. You should focus on your current situation so that you can recover quickly. I can't sleep well and eat well if I still see you lying weak like this," I said.

Gerry snorted and laughed amusedly. "This is the first time I've been worried by someone who's even more frail than I am. You're so adorable when you're worrying about someone. And I promise that I'll make you only worry about me and no one else, because I would never want to see your attention directed to anyone else but me. Unless we have children together and you're concerned about our babies," Gerry said.

My face immediately felt hot and my body felt different than usual. I'm sure every area that ran through my body was rushing because my heartbeat was pumping much faster.

Those words really painted a picture of what my relationship with Gerry would be like once we got more serious. Getting married and having children together was a very beautiful thing, but I always realized that I was a man. How could I and him have a baby that came from our combined DNA?

"Why? Are you worried about having children in the future? I have tons of money and did you know there's now research developing that men can now get pregnant? So anything is possible if we want it and we have the money. Don't ever worry because I will continue to fight for your happiness," Gerry said.

Gerry's hand stroked my hair gently and then down to my cheek. He touched my face like touching a very soft silk cloth, the more Gerry's attitude got gentler towards me. Who treats Kok with great affection, I feel very happy to be treated by Gerry like this now.

"You know, this behavior of yours makes me even crazier and I fall more in love with you," I said.

I admit that this is the first time I've ever admitted that my love isn't so clear and obvious like this. Usually I'm a shy person and can't express my feelings clearly to others in any form. But only in front of Gerry could I do this.

"Isn't that right? But as long as you know that my love is much greater than yours," Gerry replied no less romantically.

This is how we got into the habit after we expressed our feelings to each other. Everything is colored with love and warmth and there are no fights like before. It was such a beautiful picture that I was even afraid that it would suddenly disappear and I would be met with sadness that I couldn't predict.

"Hey, why are you gloomy?" asked Gerry.

I suddenly changed my expression. I had been thinking negatively about the images of sadness that could suddenly appear. I rarely feel happiness because there are so many factors that make it appear in my life, but with Gerry now I can feel happiness with peace.

But no one knew how Gerry's condition would be in the future, I was very worried about my jinx, the one factor that I feared the most in my life and would probably always haunt me.

"No, I'm not sad, I'm just thinking about something," I replied casually.

Gerry looked at me with a probing gaze. Surely he wasn't the kind of guy who would believe what someone else said that easily. If he believed other people that easily then he wouldn't have lived this long because a mobster is always surrounded by bad people who always lie to gain an advantage.

"You should have just told me everything. Is there still a reason for you to lie to me after everything we've been through until now?" he asked a little disappointed.

Hearing that, I felt guilty for lying to the man who was my lover. Indeed, what he said was all true and I shouldn't have covered up anything from him. The more I cover up something, the more it will become a problem in the future.

But there are times when I should hide something as long as it can be assured that it won't cause harm in the future.

"I wasn't really thinking about anything else but it's just that I was thinking about what you said at the hospital a few days ago," I replied, changing the subject.

Gerry raised his eyebrows and looked confused. "Something I said at the hospital a few days ago? Please remind me of the things I promised you. I'm forgetful about some things, I apologize profusely and you can be angry with me for that. I was so careless that I forgot important things that you should know from me, I'm sorry."

I chuckled softly and rubbed the burly arm of the man beside me. He's so afraid of hurting my feelings while I'm still doing so many things that make him feel hurt, I'm really too much.

"No, why are you apologizing like that? You didn't even do anything major wrong. Don't say things like you just killed someone."

I then leaned on Gerry's field chest. Trying to convince him that nothing serious had happened.

"Actually, I was just thinking about what you said in the hospital about the big thing we're going to face soon. Can I know what that big thing is about?"

I rubbed Gerry's chest to channel my feelings for him and persuade him to explain it to me. I know Gerry is a typical person who has a love language of physical touch, so I always give him touches as a form of my affection for him so that he is happy and feels comfortable with me.

I don't think that's what you can give to Gerry because I don't have anything else other than love and affection that only I can give to Gerry.

"Oh! That thing. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about it and it made you so curious. It's not your fault for being curious because you should know that. This has something to do with you in the future and you should also be involved in this matter," Gerry said.

"Soon there will be a big meeting between several families including my family and Norine's family. And there, Norine's family will definitely push for an arranged marriage between my family and theirs," Gerry said.

I continued to listen carefully and gave him time so that he could explain his explanation well.

"We have to go there and we have to talk about our relationship. Plus I want to settle my issues with Samuel and Norine's family about this. I don't want to continue to be in the shadow of their families, plus Monica is very fussy about this and makes me very sick. Are you willing to help me, Zharies?"

I immediately raised my head and looked at her lovingly. "Of course, I won't let you struggle alone. Moreover, this struggle is to maintain our relationship so as not to lose to the arranged marriage."

"I won't let anyone hurt you while you're there. Stay by my side because I'm sure the Norine family's errand boys have already prepared this knowing that I will definitely take you there."

"I have understood that and of course I will always be by your side because it is only by your side that I feel safe and I feel sure that no one will be able to disturb me," I replied.

Gerry smiled happily. "Thank you, I love you very much, Zharies. We should have met much earlier than we are now. Why did you meet Samuel first instead of me? I'm so jealous of the thought of you being his girlfriend and accompanying him on summer beach days. I'd love to point at that damn guy's face right now."

"That's just the past so you better focus on our relationship now. Because compared to the past, our moments are actually much more romantic than that and I'm much happier when I'm with you than when I'm with him," I said so Gerry wouldn't keep nagging me.