23 - I want you to remember tonight

As soon as she revealed her secret, Helena regretted having done so, especially when she saw how her boss and now lover's face turned pale and his dark, desire-filled gaze disappeared.

She wanted to cry, she had ruined everything, but she believed that it was better to ruin it at that moment and not when the young man realized that she was terrible in bed because she had no idea how to please him like those women who came into his room at night.

Helena took her shirt that was wrinkled on the side and covered her chest in shame.

"I'm sorry for disappointing you," she exclaimed with a broken voice, swallowing tears full of shame. She got out of bed, about to run away, if it weren't for a timid hand that gently but firmly took her wrist and didn't let her run away.

“What more do you want from me? "I just need a little mercy from her," she sobbed inside herself before turning to the young man and seeing that he was looking at her with a pleading look that she felt was only in her imagination.

"You haven't disappointed me..." she said softly. - It is just that…

"I'm not enough for you," she interrupted him and bit her lip hard.

"No Helena!" She exclaimed alarmed, taking both of the young woman's hands and making her stand right in front of him, who was still sitting on the bed.

Ivan observed her in silence for a moment, how she looked beautiful and imposing in front of him, she was perfect, if it weren't for her look full of sadness of insecurity that he himself had caused and she would never forgive him.

-You are more than enough for me, it's just that I want to hit myself for scaring you like that, I didn't know that you...

"I'm a virgin?" He repeated now, laughing ironically. "Yes, I'm an adult who's never been with a man. I'm pathetic, right?" A tear ran down her cheek and she felt even worse about the scene he was making. He knew his boss only wanted easy sex and now he was having to put up with an immature girl with emotional problems.

But Ivan was very far from it, instead he was worried and desperate to correct his mistake and for Helena to feel safe with him again.

"Listen, Helena..." he whispered as he caressed the young woman's soft, small wrists in circles with his thumbs. "I... I really want you, you drive me crazy," he admitted, looking at her with his deep black eyes. "But I don't want to do anything that you don't want to do." .

"I..." said the brunette with a congested voice. "I also want this," she said timidly.

"Are you sure?" she asked seriously.

-Yes... it's just that, I-I'm not like your other girls...

"And I will never ask you to be like anyone else," he whispered, bringing her closer and slowly making her sit on her lap.

Helena didn't protest and sat on her boss's firm legs. Now they were face to face, their faces were inches from each other and they could both see every detail like a work of art.

Ivan tilted his head to the side and leaned close to the girl's ear and whispered, "I just want you to be yourself and trust me." Can you do that for me?

Helena moaned shyly as she felt his hot breath against her skin and her thick voice penetrate inside her, making her vibrate completely. She suddenly felt small on top of that man, but not vulnerable, rather protected and safe. She nodded and hid her face in the man's neck.

"Honey..." Ivan murmured, gently taking Helena's chin from her, forcing her to look him in the eyes. "I want you to say it, I want to be sure that you want this."

"I want this, Ivan," she exclaimed out loud.

-What do you want princess?

Helena blushed hard and not only because of the cute nickname that her boss gave her but because of the fact that she had to tell that man, who she was having inhuman patience, to say that it was what she wanted.

In her mind and in her dreams everything was easier. But put it into words? She felt like he would die, but the young man didn't seem to care that she was about to collapse right there before even a word came out of her mouth. He appeared serene, with his gaze dark and full of light at the same time awaiting her response and her consent.

"I-I want you to m-make love to me... please, please," she said embarrassedly in a low voice, but loud and clear enough so that a dimpled smile appeared on the beautiful face of her lover's face. melted it.

Ivan took the young woman's small hand and kissed it devotedly.

"At her command, my princess," he said chivalrously and Helena thought she could get used to that nickname.

Suddenly Ivan got up from her and carried her in her arms to carefully place her back on the bed and then climb on top of her with all four of her limbs on the sides of her small body.

The young gangster admired her in silence, recording every detail of that beautiful body of hers in her memory. Her curly hair covering the bed and framing her small
blushing face, her lips still swollen from the wild kiss, her eyes half-closed in two lines, her chest rising and falling erratically from her heavy breathing, and her legs closed but trembling waiting for him to do the job. next move and he was the one who opened them.

Ivan couldn't wait, he had never been so nervous and euphoric about sleeping with a woman. But this night was different and special, he knew that if he made love to that girl with honey-colored eyes and a defiant character, he was sentenced to fall on his knees in front of her and worship her all her life as if she were a saint. it was about her.

Ivan knew that the moment he saw the impatience on that face of hers, he wouldn't mind doing it. He didn't mind leaving everything and even dying for that body and the love that woman could give him.

"I'm going to go slowly, okay?" He exclaimed with a hoarse voice full of desire.

Helena nodded her head.

-If at some point you want to stop, just say yes? -She said seriously- I don't want you to continue just for me, I can wait all the time in the world if necessary.

Helena thought that was not true, that over time she would get tired of waiting, but she wanted to trust in that look full of love and she nodded her head again this time with more desperation. She was starting to get impatient too, she was afraid, but she was also eager to see how far they would go.

Ivan smiled victoriously, with the most radiant and beautiful smile that Helena had ever seen, with her dimples that drove her crazy and the wrinkles on the sides of her eyes that confirmed that it was a genuine smile.

"I want your first time to be perfect Helena, and I want you to never forget it," he purred as he leaned down to seal her lips in his deep, wet kiss.

Helena closed her eyes and let herself go, they had just begun and she was already sure that she would never forget that night.