CHAPTER 36:

I know last chapter ended with Jake not being there but we will see what happens. Make sure you have read chapter thirty five first cause wattapad has been glitching

No one ever warns you of how easily it is for someone to break your heart. No one ever warns you of the consequences of not going back to someone you love. Well, no one ever warned me.

The trees sway with each other, I stare at the countless of leaves blowing through the air from the harsh wind. I haven't been in my spot in ages. Even though the forest has helped me in my darkest moments, I didn't want to come here and think. Thinking hurts. Thinking of all the mistakes I've made and looking back just makes me feel like absolute sh*t. I tried. I really did try.

Then when he wrote me a letter with a few truthful worlds, it feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest over and over again. I had refused to open it and if I hadn't of refused to open the letter then maybe I would have gotten there on time. But I didn't. I was too late.

Knowing Jake, he probably left on the dot. He's probably gone now. But I saw the girl there. I saw and it made me think that he had moved on. Maybe I was looking too into things but it's Jake. He does stupid, irrational things. Now he's gone. I regret ending things with him. I know he hurt my father and wasn't there when Brock died, but my father did kill his father. I've just been blind sided the entire time.

He loved me and I loved him, I really did. Now his baby rests inside of me and somehow I feel more connected to him than ever. He doesn't even know that I'm pregnant, I didn't have the chance to tell him. I scream so loud in frustration, I cry and I throw rocks at the trees.

"Someone's a bit aggressive."

I sit up straight, the hairs on my arms raise and my heart beats incredibly faster. His deep voice that's a symphony to my ears, echoes. I don't want to turn around, afraid he isn't really there. I sit there, stiff and pinching myself- wondering if he's really there.

"Are you going to speak?" He asks.

I turn around, seeing him in all his glory. He's in tracksuit pants, with an adidas jumper on. He looks real suss. He has a noticeable stubble and he has a bruise on his right eye. I exhale a deep breath and jump off the rock, running to him with so much excitement. I jump on him, wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He holds onto my right, clearly not wanting to let me go again. I breathe in his scent and start crying harder. "I love you. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for ending things and not trying to understand, Jake."

He squeezes me tightly and kisses all over my face, I pull back and he drops me to the ground carefully. With one hand he wipes the tears away from my cheeks, then kisses me on the lips. "I didn't think you were going to come, I just got in the car then I saw you. But you were already driving off so I followed you," I smile. He waited longer and that's why he's here now.

"Jake, I do need to tell you something," I nervously say.

Jake shuts me up and shakes his head, "I'm sure it can wait. Why don't I take you out for lunch and we can talk about things?" He offers. I swallow, I want to tell him that I'm pregnant right now but I just nod. He grabs me and lifts me off the ground, hugging me tightly yet again and kisses me.

I giggle and hold his hand instead, we both walk out of the forest hand in hand. "I can't leave my car here," I say.

"I'll get someone to pick it up, don't worry," I sigh and he drags me to his car. Jake opens the door for me, I thank him and get in. "We need to talk about everything," he quietly says making me nod as a response.

We arrive at a restaurant and we walk in hand in hand, he can't seem to keep his hands off me but that's okay because I can't either. Jake pulls a chair back for me and I sit down, he then sits across from me. Both of us are quiet for some time, I don't know where to start and I don't think he does either.

"Why did you do it?" I ask.

"Do what?"

"Proceed to use me, even when you knew that you loved me," he sighs and I know he may feel like I'm just repeating things. But I just can't understand how someone can do something like that to the person they love.

"I've told you this already, Faye. I clearly wasn't in the right headspace and my mind was still set on the fact that your father killed mine. I was blinded with vengeance and revenge, I didn't care who would be hurt in the process. It's one of my biggest mistakes now, I would never hurt you or your family like that again," Jake puts his hand on top of mine from across the table and squeezes it.

"You know it's going to be hard for my family to forgive you, right?" He sighs and nods, understanding that he has a lot of ground to make up. I'm sure dad doesn't appreciate getting shot.

A waitress appears at the table, smiling in a friendly matter. "Are you both ready to order?" She asks.

"Yes, I'll have a steak and chips with a Canadian club," Jake responds.

"And you?" She asks me, smiling. I look over the menu once again, I'm absolutely starving. They are both going to think I'm some extremely obese person.

"Can I please have the garlic bread stick, actually make it two- one covered with cheese and one without. Then I would love the bacon deluxe burger, with large chips and don't forget the aioli as a dip please. I also wouldn't mind some calamari rings and prawns with the sauce," they both look at me, stunned. Jakes mouth is dropped open, I've never eaten this much in my life before. But I have a baby and myself to feed, f*ck, should I be getting a garden salad or something for the baby?

"Any wine with that?" She asks me.

"No thanks, I can't drink. Make it some cold water please," she nods and finishes writing everything down. She then repeats the order back and walks away after we confirm it. I look back down at the menus, already thinking of dessert. I sense Jakes eyes on me making me look up, he still seems stunned.

"You've never eaten that much food before. Please tell me you're sharing the garlic bread sticks? You realise I'm the legal age to buy alcohol so you can have some too?" I giggle at him. He says this in a exasperated tone, he's not hating on me for ordering so much food- it's just not normal for me.

"I wasn't actually going to share the garlic breads, but you can have a piece if you want to and-" he cuts me off.

"A PIECE! Should I just buy another one or something so you can have two sticks for yourself?" He questions. I simply shrug, he should have just let me tell him the news at the forest. He was too adamant on getting food, which I'm not complaining to.

"Whatever tickles your fancy," his mouth opens wider and he leans closer.

"What is up with you?" He inspects me and I roll my eyes, crossing my arms over my chest and huff.

"I'm pregnant," I answer truthfully. He goes silent, then proceeds to burst out laughing. I scrunch my eyebrows up, confused as to what's funny. Why are men incapable of showing emotions and actually being sweet?

"Y-you're pregnant, what a joke. That was a good one, really," he even fakes wiping a tear off his face. My mouth drops open and I shake my head at him, is he actually serious? When he sees the serious look on my face, he stops laughing and coughs. "Wait, you're not joking?" He panics.

"Why the f*ck would I joke about this? Why are you so dumb sometimes? You think you would have some intelligence for your age," he pouts at me and I even lean over to flick him. Maybe that will knock some sense into him.

"Faye. May I remind you that I just turned 20 and you're 17 and considered a minor." When I dont burst out laughing, exclaiming that I'm joking and I'm not pregnant he stands up. Everyone's looks over to us and I sigh, I was expecting this. I know the seriousness in all of this but there are girls younger than me getting pregnant. Does he seriously think I want this at my age? I don't want to have to look after a baby, I'll be 18 in two months so I'll spend most of my 'fun twenties' with a child.

"Yes I know. I didn't mean for this to happen, I guess it happened the night I called things off and we had a lot of rounds. You'll be fine, be a man and grow up and just be there for me. I need you, I didn't want this happening either- I'm not even 18 yet and don't get me started on what my parents will say," his eyes widen and he pulls at his hair.

"Your father is really going to kill me. If he wasn't then, he definitely will now," he sits back down with a plop and groans. I hate how his groan has some sort of effect on me. Stupid pregnancy.

"Oh trust me, I have already considered the amount of ways he could murder you. I've come close to about 40 ways," his mouth drops open and he glares at me. He's about to open his mouth again, but the waitress appears with the food. She even had to put it on a tray because I ordered that much. I thank her after she places it all on the table, she smiles then walks away.

Jake grabs some of my garlic bread and shoves it in his mouth, "is this a bad time for jokes?"

"What sort of jokes?" I ask. "Also, don't touch my garlic bread."

"I'm paying for this sh*t, I'm going to eat it if I want. You will kill me if mention them," I huff and cross my arms over my chest.

"I wasn't expecting you to pay for my food. Also if you were going to make some sort of sick joke about drinking alcohol or some shit or an abortion to get rid of the baby, then leave right now," he opens his mouth and shakes his head at me.

"You think so little of me. I wasn't going to joke about that," he is just trying to save his ass.

"Jake, you're not seeing the seriousness in all of this. I'm not going to kill my baby so how could you even think of that?" My stupid eyes even begin to well with tears.

"Babe, I'm sorry I never said anything about that. Please don't cry, I'm sorry I'll buy you the biggest cake after. Wait.You can't eat cake you have to eat healthy."

"Oh shut up, what if I wanna eat a cake? You're gonna be there right? Through the whole process..." he smiles at me, turning serious.

"How could I not be? I love you and this is our baby, we were going to have children some day anyway probably. It's just happening sooner rather than later," Jake winks at me and I smile. "Okay but in all seriousness, can I have some of those prawns?"

"Why didn't you just order the things when we were ordering?" He gives me a look with puppy eyes and I sigh. "Fine, have some prawns."

"I'm paying remember?" He even has the audacity to wave a handful of cash in the air. All $100 notes.

"I don't expect you to."

"But I want to. We are in this together, okay? I promise I won't ever do anything to hurt you or your family again. Faye, I've realised after all of this that I just can't live without you. Being with another woman would make me sick, it's always been you and no one else."

He lifts my hand and kisses the back of it. I then recall how I drove to his place and saw a woman, my insides fill with jealousy and I jerk my hand away from him. His eyebrows furrow together, "I drove past your place and saw a woman. Were you with another woman while we weren't together?" It's funny because I couldn't even go near a member of the opposite sex other than family and Brandon. I was too hung up over Jake, I always have been.

"Why would I be so stupid to ruin things with you further? I would never do that, I knew I was gonna get you back. It was probably one of Tyler's lady friends," he shrugs.

"Well, that's good to hear," I smile.
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The stars are bright in the sky, the wind picking up making howling noises. I was always scared of those noises. Jake and I lay on the grass, me in one of his shirts and tracksuit pants. These moments are so special and need to be remembered. I spent too much time sad and I can't live that way anymore, Brock wouldn't want any of us living that way. Life is too short to be stuffing around. If you love someone, tell them. If you think someone is pretty or handsome or worthy, tell them. Moments can be lost in an instant. Forgive the person that ate your last slice of garlic bread (aka Jake). Someone can be gone in a minute, why waste life anymore?

Because of Jake, no one dares to tease me or hurt me anymore. He saved me. I look at him, he's so incredibly beautiful. In every way. The way he points to the shapes of the stars and smiles so bright. I intertwine our fingers together, he looks to me and smiles brightly. There's going to be no more wasted moments.

"How long have you been pregnant for?" He asks suddenly.

Now that I think of it, I don't really know. I just assumed that I had some sort of stomach bug and it would disappear within a week. I guess I should probably go to the doctors and check if everything with the baby is okay. He or she is still mine and Jake's. Even if this was caused from a night of pain.

"I'm not exactly sure about that question. We need to go see a doctor to check everything is well and how long I am along," he nods and doesn't say anything.

"Do you think your family will attempt to kill me?"

A bubbly laughter erupts and I slap him lightly, he really is afraid. I would be too, but it's funny to witness. "I'm sure everything will be fine, I'll talk to them all."

"I love you, no matter what happens," Jake pulls me close after saying this.

"I love you too, Jake."