Chapter 48

Not able to get the answer, Sean glanced at Athena, with the street lights, he could be able to see that her eyes were closed and he wondered if she was asleep, he leaned a little closer to her and gazed on her beautiful face, she was more beautiful than the first time he had seen her, and with that he wondered why she couldn t see the fact, why can t she see that he is the only man that can take care of her, why can t she be like other women and go where the money is? But that little difference was what attracted him to her in the first place, how she was different from every other women he had known.
Many women would admit to loving him now but only he knew that more than half of them were interested in his money, they love his money and not him. And when he had seen her that night in the club, while a lot of women would have jumped into his arms on first glance, she didn t even know who he was and had treated their first night as a mistake while someone else would have used it against him if he didn t agree to go out with them again. Just why is she so different? Why was it that what attracts other women can t attract her?
Even if he doesn t have the looks, he has the money, why can t she stay with him for that fact alone? He has always hated the women that were after his money but he knows within him that if his money can charm Athena, he would gladly spray them on her feet. Even if someone should come to him and tell him that she was only after his money, he would make more to keep her by his side forever.
He closed his eyes and reprimanded himself, you have got it really bad Sean, for the fact that you are willing to accept what you have always hated, you have got it really bad. He opened his eyes once more and gazed on her face, her thick lashes that were enhanced with the help of the black mascara she had on, her red lips which was so tempting that all he could think of was kissing them. His eyes went down to her breastbone that was being revealed by her gown, he wanted to run his fingertips there, to see her shudder at his caress, he wanted to place wet kisses there and order Smith to take them home faster so that he could bury himself inside her and feel her warmth which he has so longed for and can t wait to feel again. But he knew the outcome, she wasn t drunk and there was no way she would even let him kiss her, talk more of making love to her.
He sighed and fought his desire, then he shifted back to his space, he closed his eyes and wish that she was just like other women: materialistic, then he would gladly win her over with his money.
Athena slowly opened her eyes when she couldn t feel his warmth anymore, she had felt when he shifted closer to her, she had felt his gaze on her lips and she had waited, and waited but she didn t feel his lips on hers. Nothing could amount to the disappointment that washed over her, why was he doing this to her? Why would he make her feel that he wants her and at the end he would just let her go? Why was he confusing her? Making her doubt herself? Most importantly, why was she even bothered that he didn t kiss her? Shouldn t she be happy? After all, Frank is the only for her, she said so herself, why is she sad and disappointed that Sean wasn t showing attraction to her?
She closed her eyes and turned her face to the window just as a tear slipped down her cheek, seriously, she needs to get herself in check, he doesn t want her means he doesn t want her and she needs to stop hoping and wishing that he would kiss her whenever he was close. She pretended to sigh heavily in other to hide her sniffle; the last thing she wants is him knowing that she was crying and acting like he cares and was worried about her.
She secretly wiped the tears away and forced him out of her mind, she tried to think about happy thoughts, anything that would make her not aware of the presence of the man sitting not a meter away from her.
When the car finally pulled over in front of the mansion, Sean was ready to get down and carry Athena in but to his surprise, she sat up and got down from the car even before he could. He followed her immediately but she didn t even look back to know if he was coming along, he could almost say that she was trying to get away from him and being in the car was the highest she could take.
But what could be the reason? Yes she has been a little distant of lately towards him but she came around tonight, what could he have done again to trigger her? Could it be the Frank incident? Is she angry with him because of it? He didn t even bother to close the car door again and rushed in after her. "Athena," he stopped her on the stairs, he approached the stairs and stood beside it to see her face, "if you are annoyed because of the issue with Frank, you should know that I am not intentionally making things difficult for him," he lied, "but," he gulped and sucked in a deep breath and let it out almost at the same time, "if you want, I can call him now and offer him the money without the interest or carrying on with my terms, anything that would make you believe me," what the hell are you doing, Sean? His subconscious asked him but he knew that he would do whatever it would take to make her not to hate him.
Athena was surprised when she heard that, she looked down at him from the stairs, "you don t have to do that for me, Sean, Frank brought whatever happened tonight to himself and if I am to be angry, I wouldn t have agreed to play along when you asked me, so it s not necessary giving him the money on the platter of gold."
Sean licked his lips when he heard her answer, "Then why are you angry?" he had to ask.
Because you are toying with my emotion, one minute I would think you want me and the next, you would just push me away as if I am nothing and I hate it and hate myself more for wanting you to want me, I hate it that I am feeling this way, I hate it that I am confuse and you are not helping the matter. I hate it that I don t know who I want anymore, you or Frank, I hate it that you are not even helping me to decide, you give me hope and then you quench it within the blink of an eye. Why didn t you kiss me tonight, why didn t you kiss me after leaning closer and making me feel like you want to do so? But even though she screamed that in her mind, she still shook her head and said, "I m not angry, just tired," she forced a smile at him, "goodnight Sean," she turned and climbed up the stairs and Sean could do nothing but watch her leave.
Deep in his heart, he could feel that she wanted to say more, and in her eyes, he had seen that she wanted to yell at him, to scream at him or even possible hit him, but what he doesn t understand was why she pushed everything down and claimed to be tired, how was she able to do that? To smile despite the fire he saw in her eyes? Guess he had thought her too well that even he was finding it hard to read her. Frustrated at himself for teaching her how to conceal her emotions, he turned and strode over to his mini bar; he fetched a bottle of whiskey and poured himself a glass. He drank it in one go and poured another, he was regretting teaching her so much, it was so easy to tell what she could do before and how she was feeling but now everything has changed and he cursed himself for being such a good tutor.