Chapter 41 ANYTHING FOR LOVE, ANYTHING FOR DAWN.

SAME DAY
The wolf had told us to come back once say had gone halfway through. I had pointed out the fact of the sun but it, or should I now say she reassured me that it would be cloudy day. I didn't have much to say after that except for the task given to me by the higher court and the wolf thought to me that it would arrange for our visit to its tribe. Of course Tia couldn't hear what we said to each other so I had to tell it to her once I finished a statement and got a reply.
The white wolf had been staring. It had stated back at me unblinkingly. And even as we departed I could still feel its gaze burning into my back.
We got back home at day break and my smile I had put on by my success was immediately inverted when I met the irate expression of Dawn as I walked through the door.
I paused. I hadn't gone through the window because i knew that if she was still asleep, she wouldn't be as engrossed in it as before and may wake up as I got into the room. I didn't want to disturb her sleep but I also didn't want to her see me return either way.
"Where were you? And why are you with her?" She asked, throwing a glare at Tia who returned one as well. I saw Jereum, he had a big contented smile on his face and it was very obvious that whatever was going on was his doing.
"It's not what you think Dawn, I'm yours and your forever," I said, trying to sound as earnest as I could.
"Oh, I know that." Her anger melted away and was replaced with deep hurt.
"I just wanna know why you didn't tell me?"
I was more confused than Tia who looked like she had just seen a dog fly.
I saw the glint of liquid at the corner of her eyes and just then I realized that she was taking about.
"So you were actually just going to leave me? For what? To go and die in some war?"
At that moment I felt mixed emotions, one was deep, deep hatred for Jereum who seemed to be have only been enjoying himself so far and the other a rising guilt and hatred for myself. She was emotionally hurt and it was my fault.
There was no point of lying that I would have told her, I needed to get it off my chest and fast before I end up hating my very existence for my eternity.
"I didn't want you to be hurt. I saw the way you looked at me and I didn't want to tell you that I would be going off to die."
"So now I'm what? Not hurt?" Her eyes held a mixture of anger and pain.
'The most painful part was figuring it out from him." She pointed a shaky finger at the elated Jereum who was sadistically deriving good pleasure from this. I glared at him but that only seemed to make him even happier.
"We can't talk here..."
I didn't give her a choice I dragged her by the wrist up stairs and once we were in my room I locked the door.
"Dawn… please—"
"No Kaldar! I'm not going to let you sweet talk me and then kiss me till I forgive you."
I was disappointed, that was my last resort and she had just put her foot down.
"I'm sorry okay. I should have told you, I know that. But when I heard you say that stuff about your parents—"
"Don't!" She said warningly.
She had been holding back from crying ever since and I could see that she could not hold it back anymore. Drops of clear warm salty liquid flowed down her cheeks.
Her lips quivered as she spoke. "The situation with my parents is different. I'm trying to protect them from getting into something they do not want to get involved in while you are just selfish. All I've done is love you but everyday you seem to be drawing farther away from me."
Her words were like katanas that sliced at my heart each time she spoke. She was killing me without even trying.
"I'm sorry." Was all I could say. Was all I could think of. Was the right thing to say.
"Do you even love me?"
And I couldn't believe she was asking that question. I loved Dawn with my life. I loved her to the point that I was ready to die for her when the crazed old man had almost killed her, and I had even almost spilled out Leya's name in exchange for her life.
"Of course I love you Dawn. Your are my life..." I focused my gaze into hers. She always seemed to be entranced whenever she looked me in the eye. I stepped closer to her but her expression hardened and she stepped back. I guess there was really no getting to her that way.
"Now I don't even know who to trust… You have just proven that I can't trust you again—"
"No."
I dropped to my knees in front of her. She was completely taken aback by this.
"Anything... I'll do anything for you to prove my love. Just say it and I'll do it!"
I mean, what possibly could she want that I couldn't do for her.
"Anything?" She asked.
"Yes, anything Dawn." I confirmed, looking steadily into her gaze.
"Then turn me to a vampire..."
She had just passed a hot knife through me chest. One that was also burning me from the inside out. For a moment I could feel my heartbeat pause and no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn't breathe.
Of all the things to ask, I could have tolerated sunlight for her, killed Jereum for her or probably just decapitate his arms, I would have brought the head of the red wolf for her, I could have even ran away with her yet she had to ask for this?
She looked me in the eye. Her expectation turning into doubt. I stood up with the heavy load of guilt on me for what I was about to do. I could feel my canines getting longer and soon enough their white tip was protruding out from my lips. I pushed her back, until she got to the bed and she laid back obediently, the expectancy returning to her eyes.
I laid on her. And I parted my jaws to reveal the inch long fangs. She looked into my eyes. I looked into hers, I was about to break one of the biggest rules in the vampire society, punishable by death.
"Slowly Kaldar..." Her voice trailed off.
I lowered my head to her neck, getting closer by centimetres. My nose was filled with her warm, living scent. The tip of my fangs touched her skin and I heard her gasp softly, her heartbeat speeding up. I was pushing my teeth deeper into her neck, just a moment from now and it will all be over, irreversible. I could feel the very surfaces of her skin break and my fangs had now dug into her—
"Wait..."
I paused, unmoving. Just a little nudge I would have penetrated her skin and impurified her. Turning her to a vampire forever.
I raised my head, my fangs retracting back into my gums but they were always still visibly enlongated.
"You actually would have done it..." She said, sounding rather shocked. "You would have done against the rules of your government and died, for me..."
I knew it was Jereum who had put her to this. He must have talked his way into her mind and used the fact that I had not told her about the war to brainwash her into thinking that I didn't really love her.
Anger flused through me. Taking away the guilt I felt and I frowned at her as she lay below me.
"How could you even think I wouldn't? I would do anything for you Dawn. I'll do anything even die for you to protect you. As long as it would make you happy I'll do it."
Her lips were slightly parted now and she looked at me slightly in shock.
"Your love is obsessive..."
"What?! No, no it's not..." I defended myself.
She looked straight into my eyes. Finding the truth behind all what I had said. And I realized it myself that my love for Dawn was indeed obsessive love.
"Wouldn't you die for me?" I asked her. She seemed to think for a while.
"Yes... Yes I would." I could sense her aura. It wasn't of fear or deceit, but of pure honesty.
I brought my head slowly down to hers. She kissed me once, slipping her lips from mine slowly at first before she began to kiss me with more animation. I kissed her back, my lips tilted against hers. I rolled over so she got on top of me. She kissed me again and again, changing interlock. I paused and sat up straight. I removed the new jacket, I had got from Jhan the night he brought me back home from the higher court, and threw it aside.
She took off the singlet she wore and I realized that she was completely bare under it. I rolled her over and kissed her. I kissed slowly down her neck, nibbling at her skin and kissing my way to her chest. I took her breast into my mouth and I heard her moan my name as she gently pulled at my hair. The slight salty taste of her skin filling my mouth and used my tongue very creatively as I circled it around her nipple before, very slowly and gently biting at it. The stiffened bead on the peak of her breasts could only mean she was lost in pleasure. But the feeling was mutual; I was enjoying this as much as she was.
I heard her heartbeat increase to an accelerating gallop and I lightly grouped and squeezed on the other while I sucked at her other nipple and bit at it softly. Her heart was beating so fast now and her breathing came in steady quick inhalations and sighs. She had one hand on my back, gently stroking a sinuous line up and down my skin and her other hand in my hair. I didn't stop, I was just getting started. I pushed a finger down under the loose jogger's pants she wore to the golden spot of pleasure right between her legs. Gently, I stroked the wet area repeatedly. Unable to support her own hands again, they fell to her side. She flexibly writhed her body under me slowly, like a snake and she arched her head back as she lowly moaned repeatedly.
Her body was here but her mind was not I could tell by the way she moaned my name over and over again. Her eyes were tightly shut and I kept on stroking upon the moist sensitive area until I found the right spot and she was sent into oblivion of pleasure.