Last Goodbye

Rose' POV

I walked accross an empthy land, there is no light in the darkness can even enough to bring happiness into my path. Step by step of my entire life becomes useless to reach.

"What I am suffering for? Even my family betrayed me."

No doubt, I feel so betrayed with what my family done to me. For all this time, there i sno one tell me about the truth. Now, all of my family is already gone, I don't know where to ask to answer all of my question in my head.

One thing that I want to know is about reality. Why don't they tell me about this history. Why shoulf they lie to me?

"Rosie...."

I hear that, someone call my name in the dark room. She bring herself close to me and I am sure what she get is to know me in well condition.

"I bring you some meal, are you feeling okay right now?"

She is true my bestfriend even though I hate her for some reason. All of my life is about being left or lefted. No one can stay by my side forever. There is no one except myself.

"I will be okay," I said.
She gives a hug, warm hug as usual. This is the first time we talk after I know the truth that she is a lover from my lover one.
She is my bestfriend, she is Cherie.

"I am so worry about you, Rosie. There is no light in your house. You even stay at home, you don't go for work. I am sure you already know that I always stand by your side, right? It doesn't matter what situation happened between us. We fight, we love, we share to each other. There is nothing happened changes between our friendship, Rosie. That's what I've thought. I don't know if you had diferent thought, but I don't care about that. I still with my trust, I still love you my bestfriend."

"Let me know about your prespective about my life, Rosie."

"What do you mean?"

"Did you know about my family history? Did Lyly told you about my grandma love story?"

"I am so sorry for hear that, Rosie."

No doubt. Lyly told her about my  grandma love story. I believe she got shocked too like I do. That's story is never told before by anyone. However, I don't know about the elder. They must know something about this story right?

"I don't know what should I do. I feel so mad with my family that never told me about this story."

She sits on my bed while watching the monlight.

"I am here for you, Rosie. Even, I can't help you, but feel free to bother me. Is not about my romance relationship, is about the truth. We must reveal the truth Cherie."

I know that she love me that much. So do I love her. However, the more you love someone, the the scariest hurt you will got. That's a risk for love.

Sometime you got pain, love, patience and hurt. However, we still looking for love, right. Because it was addicted. No doubt.

"I may to leave, right? You need to take a rest."

She gives me a kiss, on my forehead.

"Feel free to call me everytime you need me on your side," she said while walk away to my room and I say to her, "Stand by my side tonight, Cherie."

I can hear her foot walk getting closer to me and at that night I cry on her arms. I am so frustasted and tired with all I got. The reality, the truth, even for the little thing I got. That's hit me like a roallercoaster.

"I am so tired. I got sick of my life."

I wake up still like that night I fell a sleep. I watch Cherie is till hug me thight. She is sweet.

"Good morning," she says.

I need get work today, so she helps me to prepared all of stuff that I need to work.

"Thanks for everything. I weill call you later, see you again."

"Anytime, Rosie."

In the work time, of course I met him. Someone I loved. You already know that I killed my love to him. However, reality hits me back. I do love fall in love again to him. The more, I have to deal with the reality that my bestfriend is his lover. Oh, what the heck.

I can't stay to them to wish a happily ever after.

Definetily not, because I feel my heart is broken again for second time.

"Rosie... I wanna talk to you, are you free?"

I know Zack must be ask me some question, I let him to brings me into rest room.

"What do you want to know about me, Zack?"

"It's about your family, Rosie. It might make you feel uncomfort with this question but I need to make it clear about this. Lyly, she must be telling you something yesterday. Yes, I wanna confrim that I and Cherie went to her place first. We all know about that, when she doubt to tell you the truth, I asked to tell you the truth. I am so sorry if yu get hurt about this fact, Rosie."

"Thanks for say that, Zack. I will be okay. Now, tell me. What do you want for me?"

He must be feel so sick with me because I won't to help him and Cherie. In contrast, I need to fix myself before I help them. It's difficult to fix it. I need to help the person that I loved with his lover. In the same time, I have to recover my broken heart.

I know that Zack wanna know the truth, the way I am. So do I want to know the truth hidden of us. However, every time I remember that Cherie and Zack are lovers, I hate it. I want help them.

"I can't Zack!"

"Rosie!" he shouted.

I know he must be very upset about this, but I have to do this for myself. It's okay if I get really selfish, it's for myself. I don't want to get hurt anymore. I hate to see other people happy, but I am on opposite way.

"Only you can help us, Rosie."

I...

"Sorry, I can't Zack. I've lost my whole family, they're already dead. I can't ask them anymore, they lied to me too, Zack. What do you expect for? Do anything that make you happy, but don't bother and with my life. I'm tired of everything."

I don't care if he is angry and disappointed with me. I am also disappointed and angry with him. Right now one thing I want to do is recover my broken heart.

I decided to leave Marvierra, this time I also decided to resign. I will return to live in the forest with the elders. I think it's better for me to forget about Zack.

I do have to separate from Cherie. I am sad to have to leave her, but this time I chose to go far away. As my mother once told me, people come and people go.
Now, I need to go to other place, new place.

"Thanks for everything... Sorry, Cherie..."

I left a letter in Cherie's room. So do I say goodbye to Grim.

I will leave this city that has given me so many happy and painful memories and moments. In the forest later, I will focus on myself and read more books.

"Goodbye, Marvierra. Goodbye Cherie and... Zack."