CHAPTER 24: IN MY THOUGHTS AGAIN

Aria

I was so angry with both Fred and Aiden that I couldn't think straight!
Why is this world so cruel? What did I do to deserve this?
The situation I was in wasn't helping either. Too many questions were running through my mind and I couldn't control them. My consciousness left me alone to fend for myself for a while after that incident happened with those two idiots!
As I sat on my bed with my head in my hands, the only thing I could do was shake my head and cry as I thought about Fred. I thought I knew him, I thought we were friends!
I thought he was someone I could confide in.
I had told myself numerous times that I liked him and that just maybe, he could be my knight in shining armor. Hmph! I couldn't have been more wrong!
Aiden...Aiden was no better. How many times had I told myself to stay away from him, because he was dangerous, or because he wasn't right for me? Right, hundreds maybe even thousands of times and now look what I've gotten myself into?
God, how could I have been so naive, so blind to not see the truth? Or maybe I didn't want to see it. Nothing ever went my way and I could never figure out why? Was it that my luck was terrible or was it just that fate was never on my side?
I couldn't keep a relationship long because the guys that I always dated either turned out to be jerks or just sex-crazed. They either wanted me to submit to them or they wanted me to do something absurd in bed, which I was never used to.
Of course I declined, which only made them just befriend me, which was rare, or they never spoke to me again, but not Aiden.
Aiden caught me off guard. He never judged me for anything, and if I wasn't used to something, he always took his time with me. I didn't realize that I started to feel so deeply for him until just a few weeks ago.
Yes, he may be hotter than a Greek God but from the moment he told me to call him 'Daddy', little did I know he had me wrapped tight around his fingers, if I wasn't wrapped around anything else.
Aiden has made my body suffer from pain just to bring it back alive with pleasure. He has my body under his control to the point where I can't say no, to the point where my body wouldn't be able to survive without the pain he inflicts on me...to the point of no return.
He owns every inch and crevice of my body, but I will not allow him to own my heart and soul.
I did whatever he asked of me, presented myself on all fours at his request, always fulfilled his desires, gave him power over my body and became weak at the knees for him from a single glance and let him dominate me.
Of course he never disappointed on his end. Every time he touched me even in the slightest, I would lose all of my senses.
I could scream and thrash and cry all I wanted, but he would never stop giving my body all of his attention, all the pleasure and pain he could inflict. Devouring my entire being until I was extremely exhausted.
And believe me when I say, his wrath knows no bounds.
There were so many deeds he committed to my body, so many unthinkable positions he would put me in. He would make me smile, then make me laugh, and then he would make me cry, and after all that...he would make me cum.
He would touch me, finger me, eat me, choke me, whip me, and then he would fuck me, but only after he denied me to cum the whole night.
I am not one to complain. No, I am not one to refuse, for he has me completely torn, and completely bound to him.
I didn't know how or why fate decided to put Aiden in my life, but even so, I couldn't deny him. He made me experience every pleasure that was unknown to me, and through it all he always took his time with me.
What I didn't know, was that for how long this dream of mine would last? Would he break my heart before I even had the chance to find out? Or was he willing to not only allow me to experience pleasure, but experience the possibilities of love as well? Of loving him?
Or will I end up only regretting every decision I've made up until now?
The thought of what the future could bring, of what the outcome would be at the end had only made me cry more.
Would I be ready for anything that came my way? Would I let Aiden break me and rebuild me? Would Aiden let me love him, and for him to love me back?
There were so many thoughts going on inside my head, so many things going on in my life right now that has made me such an emotional wreck.
God, could I wish for all this to be over, or is that even too much to ask for?