Chapter 30 Gina's world

Shirley's eyes were open, she was looking at me, I was holding her body and could feel her body heat fading away, I didn't know what I should do, my heart desperately wanted what was happening now to be a dream I had! I pinched myself hard, hoping to wake up from the dream as soon as possible, but the scene in front of me did not change.
Sure enough, it's not a dream!
Shirley was dead! I looked down at her face, tears kept dripping down her face, my hands trembled, stroking her wounds, I could feel the wounds were inflicted by a flat long sharp instrument.
With my right arm supporting Shirley's body and my right hand touching the wound behind her, my heart was extremely sad and I could be sure that Shirley was killed by someone who hurt Shirley twice and informed me to come here after killing her.
But how foolish I was to receive the letter without a hint of suspicion. Now that I think back, why didn't Shirley come to me directly after knowing my current address? Shirley must have heard about me and appeared here, and the murderer must have known that Shirley would come here to look for me!
Then, the murderer is most likely Ambow!
I was firmly sure of my innermost thoughts because, in the Red night clan, my only enemy was Ambow! Although Katie would also work against me, she had no power that could defeat Shirley.
I clenched my fist, upper and lower teeth clenched, the hatred for Ambow has penetrated my bone marrow, but I carefully considered, these can only be my guesses, I do not have enough evidence to prove, if I directly accuse Ambow now, I will get William's punishment, I am so powerless.
I picked up Shirley again, she was the only person in the world who would believe in me without any conditions, but she has since disappeared completely! Tears blurred my eyes, I felt I could no longer see everything in front of me, there was nothing left in this world worth cherishing!
Is there any point in my living?
Suddenly, I heard voices coming from downstairs, and I thought, perhaps extreme sadness had sharpened my hearing, and I became alert, and I put Shirley gently on the floor and stood up.
Countless possibilities flashed through my brain, but of course, my best hope was probably that the killer would reappear in front of me!
I could feel the man had appeared on the stairs, I opened the door a crack and could vaguely make out the figure of a man who looked a bit like William!
I don't know why my vision became so good at this point, but I didn't have time to think about that anymore. When I confirmed that the man was William, my brain felt like it was being hit hard with a hammer.
Could it be that William was also involved in the killing?
I turned to look at Shirley, I once again felt that it was because of me that Shirley was killed, the inner feelings of guilt, guilt, inferiority complex, anger, and other emotions rushed to my brain all at once, my mind became disoriented, I rushed out of the room, I felt that my body was no longer under the control of my brain.
I just want to die now!
I kept running, in the same direction, the wind was getting stronger and stronger, I didn't know where I was now, my head hurt, I was holding my head and felt it was about to explode!
I came to a very high place where I could feel the wind was comfortable and it was able to relieve my pain. I stood here remembering the wonderful things I had spent with Shirley and I was happy.
I could hear the sound of water flowing next to me, loudly, and I loved the sound of it as if it was calling to me, wanting to take me with it as it ran free.
I want to be in them, they are so free, I love freedom, how nice it would be to be a drop of water in the ocean!
"Did you kill Shirley?"
A voice appeared behind me, a voice I was somewhat familiar with, but when I tried to remember whose voice it was, my head ached and wanted to explode.
"Does your silence mean you're the killer by default?"
"Shirley is Red night clan's most precious military expert, if you are the one who killed her, I will make you suffer the worst punishment!"
"I will catch you, even if you jump, I will find you!"
He kept talking, I didn't know what she was saying, I tried to remember, but I didn't know anything, he was talking about the murderer, what murderer, Shirley's killer?
Shirley is dead! I don't know! I don't know anything! I'm trying to remember, yes, Shirley was my favorite sister! She died just now! All covered in blood! I held her and she stopped breathing! I called her name desperately! She was looking at me like that, smiling at me! My head was about to explode!
So, who is this man?
"You turn around, and if you voluntarily admit your mistake, I may make your punishment lighter."
I remembered! He's William! Yes! It's my husband! He abused me! He cheated on me! He fell in love with another woman! He beat me, cursed me, and even tried to drive me away for her! I wanted to see his face because I seemed to have somewhat forgotten what he looked like.
I slowly turned around, but a voice in my heart told me that I didn't want to see him, that if I saw him again, I would return to the painful life I had before, and I didn't want to go back! My sister was dead! But who is the murderer? I stopped turning my body, I was remembering, who the murderer was.
"Don't worry, I will make your punishment lighter, of course, you need to explain to me why, and it won't involve your family."
He was talking to me, he was talking over and over, and I felt like his voice was making my head hurt and I didn't want to hear him anymore.
I remember now! It's that woman! The woman that William fell in love with! She's really bad! She's the one who killed my dearest sister! Then why is William here? Did that woman say something to him again? She said that I killed my dearest sister? She would even say that William should kill me!
I felt scared, my tears kept flowing and I could feel my body trembling.
"You don't need to cry, what I said is true, I am the Alpha, please believe me, of course, killing is not a simple matter, I will reduce your punishment, but you also need to accept the punishment that you deserve."
I was shocked that he was saying something to mitigate the murderer's crime! Why, why would he say such cold and heartless words! That was my dearest sister! I was so angry that my body was no longer under the control of my brain, it was shaking, incessantly and violently!
Suddenly, I was somewhat sobered and wondered what he would say if the real killer was in his presence.
"William, why should you forgive me? I'm the one who killed Shirley," I told him.
"Because ...... If you confess, it means you possess a contrite heart, and I treat prisoners who possess a contrite heart with leniency."
What a ridiculous statement! So he can forgive anyone! He can be gentle with anyone but me, I don't understand why he hates me so much, I don't know what I've done wrong! I laughed aloud at the misery of my fate, at the patience I'd been enduring without knowing why at the cowardice I'd been!
I turned completely around and looked at him, and I saw his shock and panic. It turned out that the high and mighty Lord Alpha would have such a side to him, and he seemed overwhelmed by my reaction.
"Gina!" he shouted out my name in shock.
"So killing a man can be mitigated by confessing! Alpha William! It was my sister who died! Why would you say such a thing! You are a very cold-blooded man! The thing I regret most is meeting you! If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't have had such a miserable love! If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't have been punished so much! If I hadn't met you, my sister, wouldn't have died!"
"You're the one who made me unhappy, and me falling in love with you is the most ridiculous thing in this world! You disliked my ugliness, hated my thinness, you even scolded me and beat me just for the sake of another woman! I tried my best to cooperate with you to maintain my position as Luna, but why did my sister die! I've tried so hard!"
"No one can be born with the finest of conditions... I am indeed a cripple! I don't deserve to live in this world! Without my sister, my world has no color, and I have long since stopped wanting to live! Alpha William, you've never loved me, have you? If I could be reincarnated, I only wish, God would keep me away from you."
After saying these words, I could see the change of emotion on William's face and I felt that I had won, that I had won at the end of this endlessly pulling love affair.
I felt so relieved that I turned and plunged into the rivers of freedom and couldn't wait to be one with them, I was free and I was happy!
The cold river embraced me, but I felt the long-lost warmth, I closed my eyes to try to feel the happiness now, I vaguely saw William's face, he was so painful, he was in tears, calling my name, I smiled, this man seems to love me at last!
But it doesn't matter, I'm free, for the first time, for the first time, and I don't have to care about his feelings anymore, it's great!
I flowed with the river, I felt my body relaxed, I saw a field of flowers, all golden yellow flowers, I could not tell what kind of flowers these were, but I could see Shirley standing in the flowers very clearly, she just smiled and looked at me, her smile was still so charming, I walked towards her.
"Oh! Shirley, you are so beautiful, no one in the world will ever be more beautiful than you! I will love you forever and I would like to live with you forever!"
I took Shirley's hand and together we walked deeper into the flower fields.
"Honey, please open your eyes, this is the most beautiful kingdom of heaven." I heard Shirley calling me, and I opened my eyes to see the gilded houses around me, and a group of men I didn't recognize.