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"You left me like I meant nothing to you, Kara." James whispered, his voice held agony, "what more do I need to do to make you mine? How much more low do I have to stoop to get to you?"
"I never asked for this." Kara snapped angrily while trying to push him away, "Don't blame me for your distrust. Don't blame me again for breaking this relationship. Don't blame me when things go wrong, you accuse and insult me to the edge of my patience, and I run instead of staying with you to hear more painful words because it FUCKING HURTS ME, JAMES!"
Her last words came out as a quivering shout. She pushed at his chest but could not move him away. All she could do was glare up at him with glossy eyes, "Every time. Every fucking time, how do you manage to gather up this courage and blame me? How can you do those things that hurt me and then blame me for breaking our relationship when I don't stay?" 
"I said sorry! I apologized to you over and over and over and fucking over!"
"And I am supposed to take that apology and shove it down my throat instead of feeling hurt?" Kara asked furiously, "I am supposed to not feel? I am supposed to feel grateful when you apologize for your wrongdoings? I am supposed to not feel hurt? Not feel any pain? Only you are supposed to be the one who carries the pain inflicted by this harsh world? I am not someone you should cherish and respect?"
James eyes turned soft as he put his hand on her cheek softly, "I do. You know you mean everything to me, Kara. How am I going to live without you?"
"You figured out a way to RIP my dignity apart in the mere five minutes of Damon leaving our home with a mere kiss that you did not even give me a chance to explain about, then I am sure you will figure out a way to live without me, Mr. Sullivan." Kara shoved his hand aside. All of the words he had said and all his actions were rushing back in her heart like black water staining a white sheet.
"Don't do this to me." James' voice had dropped to almost a whisper. His eyes had turned guilty and the fear she saw in his eyes was as almost excruciating. He suddenly fell in front of her on his knees, his face falling forward in her stomach as he whispered with a shiver in his words, "I will do better. I will try to be better. I swear."
Tears fell from Kara's eyes but she quickly wiped them with the back of her hand and looked away. A few moments passed in silence between them before she put her hand on the back of his head softly and murmured, "Your promises last as long as your mood, James. They disappear when you feel like it, they turn sweet when you feel like it and they turn sour, and painful when YOU feel like it. I can not put my life in the hands of your fake promises, I am sorry."
"I will hurt you." James' voice turned resentful and angry while his fists tightened on the back of her dress on her waist, "I am going to break every fucking dream of yours if you leave me."
"See..." Kara scoffed ironically, "did not take you even a second to prove my words right."
He pulled his face up from her stomach and looked up to meet her eyes. But she had turned her head away and was staring at the wall emotionlessly. His anger flared at her indifference. Did he mean nothing to her? How can she do this to him? How can she break his heart so easily and marry someone else? Did she even love him or was it only him who had fallen in this deep depth of love he could not come out of?
He stood up from the ground. His jaw was clenched tight when he pulled both sides of her dress' sleeves up on her shoulders, covering her upper body again. His hand then grabbed her chin and turned her face to himself, 
"Do whatever the fuck you want." he said emotionlessly, "You are going to marry Damon, right? Fuck him every fucking night? Go do it." 
Kara did not show it on her face but she knew that behind his calmness he was angry to the level that she had never seen him ever have.
"I am not going to let you go this easily." he murmured and took a step back. His eyes stayed glued to hers when he continued, "I will make your life a living hell. You think you can have an happily ever after after burning my whole world to ashes? You will come back to me begging me on your fucking knees to take you back, Kara Marvel. Mark my fucking words."