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Kara felt a hand slipping in her own as she stood in front of the tombstones of her mom and dad. Her hand shivered and she immediately snatched it back, away from James' grasp. She then proceeded to take a few steps and bend down on her knees to place the while roses on the stone. Her hands slid back to rest on her knees as she guiltily tried to not break down in tears. She did not want James to be here right now. This was the first time since their death that she had come to see them. She felt ashamed.
In her heart, she prayed for her mom's forgiveness for breaking a promise that she should not have. A hand was suddenly on her shoulders, pulling her sideways. She resisted and put up her hands to block him but he forcefully made her head rest on his shoulders until she was finally not struggling so hard to breathe and stop the tears from falling down. Her breaths broke into small sobs, her hands clutched the end of James' t shirt, wetting his shoulder with the tears that slid out.
"It is alright," she heard his whisper in her ear, "I will be here for you."
"She... she did not want you to be here." she murmured within the sobs, "it was never supposed to be you."
She heard a loud sigh leave James' mouth before he was gently pulling her face up so she was looking up at him. His hand then rested on her shoulders, the other one rested on the stone of her mom's resting place, "Do you think your mom cared more about you or about the promise she wanted you to fulfill? You knew your mom better than me, Kara. She loved you more than her own life. Do you really think she would have cared more about a promise that would keep you miserable than your own happiness?"
Kara pushed at James hard angrily, making him fall down on the ground as she shot up to stand straight. Her eyes were filled with rage when she spat, "You do not get to say anything! You ruined everything! Do I look happy to you right now? I AM MISERABLE! You forced me into this marriage!"
James had also risen from his place, he was not angry, but the calm one instead this time, "You are in love with me. You will be happy with me. I will make you happier than you would have ever felt with Damon."
"The fuck you will!" Kara shouted and tried to find something to throw at him in frustration. When she did not find anything, she just ripped off some grass and threw it in his direction hoping it will hurt his damn stupid little head, "I am not in love with you! You ruined love for me, you fucking selfish bastard! You ruined our relationship, you ruined me, and you ruined everything that would have ever been a happy memory. Now all that is fucking left is problems and shame because you could not handle a fucking 'no' from my mouth."
"You are just angry!" James tried to grab her hand but she pulled back, her whole face was red while James was as calm as a duck in the lake, "you would have regretted that marriage your whole life. I saved you! And I saved myself and Damon."
Kara felt like she needed something right now to smash on Damon's head. A bottle, or a bomb would be better.
"You.. YOU!" she could not even form proper words because James was behaving like there was nothing more important for her than him in the whole wide world, "YOU ARE A FUCKING ASSHOLE!"
"And you still love me!" James repeated while rolling his eyes.
Kara's patience gave out and she literally ran to him to grab his head and smash it on the ground. And as soon as she broke out in a run, James turned around and sprinted from there. Slower than his actual speed intentionally to just keep her on his feet but never getting caught.
He knew it was a bad situation right now and everything was a mess but the smile that covered his lips was a mere replacement for the laughter that was trying to escape his mouth. He knew he was going to make it right one way or another. There was never anyone else made for him and he was never going to let her become someone else's love. As long as they had each other, the world felt less pathetic and more happy. Even if not for her, because she was the perfect one, she can get anything and everything in the world she ever desires, she can become happy with someone else even if it had taken some time for her to devote herself because whenever she loved someone, she gave everything of her to that person. If she had married Damon, she would have dedicated herself to him wholeheartedly and given herself to him but for James, there was never someone else. He could not love everyone that walked into his life, he could never love someone else in his life. He could not even come to understand his own family. But Kara... she was his whole world. And if his world had collapsed and become of someone else's to adore, that would have been James' last day of staying alive.