Chapter 57 Life In The Rearview Mirror

I need to remind myself to stop and remember…I cannot be with Trinity Stone.
Do I care?
No fucking way.
She has played me for the past few days now, and I finally have her right back where I want her to be…In my arms. But we still have a problem. Not only does Vic still want me fucking dead, but Trinity is about to step up, and then she is as good as Karlo s.
But not only that, let us not forget that I have just signed up as detail for Sloane s daughter. A small little fact that I can not just look over. Unless I get my ass signed back over to Trinity, I cannot just break off a deal without good cause.
Ya, I am once again fucked. Guess where it comes to Trinity Stone, I just love digging myself into a hole. But yet I need to ask myself why?
"Princess, why the letter? Why did you go back on what we always said that we would do?"
"Colton, daddy, will hunt us both down for us long as he lives; he would never let us be together."
"Princess, the sad fucked up things is that, this, what we have now, that is the only way that we are ever going to be together. I just signed detail with Sloane; now more than ever, I cannot be with you."
"But why not? Why can t we have this?"
"I am not going to hide around corners and look over my shoulder for when your dad or Karlo is going to come. And if I move in with Sloane, then I can t be running off to meet you. The only way we can be together if we leave."
"I cannot leave Colton; I cannot leave daddy like that to do this on his own. I understand now that it is time for me to step up, but I don t want to do it if you are not there by my side."
"Princess, you do not understand; your dad will never allow me in his home. I betrayed him; I am fucking lucky I got out there with my fingers on. We can still do this. We can still leave all of this behind?"
"Colton, I don t want to run away. I love you, but I don t want to run away."
"Then I don t see how we can ever be together. Tomorrow when I walk into Sloane s home, I would have made a commitment. I cannot go back on a deal just because I changed my mind."
I roll her closer over to my chest and find those depths in her brown eyes that always bring me the most comfort, "I want us to do this; I don t want to go to Sloane, princess."
"But where will we go, Colton? Daddy will find us."
"Princess, I am the best; your dad won t find us unless if you want him to find you."
"Karlo is going to fucking kill you."
"Karlo can t fucking find himself in his fucking hell room; he will never find us. Princess, this is the only way that we are going to be together. Please, I ask you again."
When she looks at me, I can see the eager in her eyes, yet I can still see the fear. Ya, we are fucking crazy to do this.
In front of me is the woman that fucking means the world to me; there are tears that are dropping like waterfalls down her cheeks. She is deeply pained, and I understand it; she is being faced with losing me forever.
The way I see it, we have three options here. I either crawl back to Vic and ask him to take me back on as his detail just so that I can be closer to his daughter, or I can work for Sloane and run around with Trinity in dark corners, or I can be fucking miserable and alone for the rest of my life. Which three of these options would I say is best? None of them will do.
The next three words that I choose to say will be the most important words that I shall say in my life, "Princess, I love you."
"I love you too, Colton."
Those weren t the words; this is one of those defining moments that you make in your life. What I say next shall not only define my future but that of my princess. My next actions are what shall shape whom we shall become as a couple. My only concern now is not for me but for us. And I can say for certain that I am making the right choice here.
"Princess, let's do it."
"Are you serious? You are not shitting me?"
"Yes, princess, I am serious."
"Leave all of this behind? Our lives? Our families? Everything?"
"Yes, everything."
"But when are we leaving?"
"We will leave now, tonight. They cannot know we are running. You want to do this?"
"Yes, Colton. Let s do it. I have not been so sure about anything ever before. I won't make it without you."
For what seems like an eternity, we just stare into each other s eyes.
She looks down at my slightly parted lips, and I know what is about to happen. We both lean into each other in slow motion, never breaking eye contact once. My heart skips a beat, and my knees get wobbly, even though I am not standing on my feet. I curl my hand around her neck and tangle the other in her long wavy hair.
Our lips brush softly against each other. Her lips are soft and delicately. They dance against me like butterfly wings. I pull away, hesitating for a moment. She felt new yet oddly familiar. Her lips seemed molded to the shape of mine. My hands curled around her so perfectly as if they were made just for her. She tastes like passion, like pure, unrestrained passion, and I want more.
Then we begin to close the gap even more than before. What begins as a small peck becomes more passionate. The rest of the world spins so fast it becomes non-existent. I lean even further into her, and my body melts into hers. It is as if I can feel a fire blazing within me, out of control. We are completely and utterly in sync at this very moment.
Everything about her is perfect. The sheer softness of her hair as I run my hands through it. The taste of sweet cotton candy that lingers on her lips. Her breath that warms my cheek. The way she plays with the hair at the back of my head that tickles my neck.
She presses her lips against mine even harder. Lightning passes through me. I feel lost in a different universe, and she is slowly taking me away. Her cold hand creeps from my neck down my spine and pulls me closer. Her touch makes my body shiver. Her delicate, innocent kiss makes my heart flutter. Then it races. My body surrenders. I let her kiss me for as long as she wants. Every time I let go, I go back and kiss her again softly.
After what seems like being away for hours, we part and put our foreheads together.
I know that I am making the right decision. Yes, her family is going to be furious, but they will understand. We have been through so much together, they will see that, and they would want us to be happy. And think about it this way, now is a good time to get out of this lifestyle.
There is something I never thought I would do, leave my life behind. Yes, in the line of business I use to be in, we had a very exact backup plan like this.
"Princess, this is going to be the hardest thing you are ever going to do in your life. Are you going to be okay?"
"Colton, I have been through worse shit in my life; this is easy."
I look on over to Trinity; her eyes are all puffy from all the crying. I take her tiny little hands and look into her beautiful brown eyes
"Princess, are you sure you want to do this?"
"Yes, Colton, let's do this.
Without having another minute to hesitate, we grab together what we need for the next twenty-four hours and throw what we can of our belongings into the back of my car.
Then it happens, what has been threatening for the past forty-five minutes has just snuck his ugly head up…It is time to go
She pops off her shoes, pushes the seat as far back as she can, crumples my jacket into a little pillow and lays down next to me in the passenger seat, and closes her eyes.
I flick the key in the ignition and bring the car to a thundering start. I lay a soft kiss on her sweet lips and slam my foot down only the pedal. In a fraction, less than two seconds, the car reaches sixty, and we are off onto the open road. With one glimpse in the rearview mirror, I can see my old life slowly fading away. In front are the open road and a brand new start.
I have just signed my own death wish.