Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

"Joanna, son, what's going on with you? You don't want to leave the house, you barely eat anymore and you're always here in your room. You didn't do anything else but cry and whine. Son..." Mommy held the my hands
"What happened to you in Baguio? Ever since you got home, have you been like this?" He asked me more. I didn't even bother to answer. I'm not in the mood. I don't want to talk to anyone and all I want to do is cry and cry.
Three months... I haven't seen Justin for three months and every day I wake up from sleep, I get weaker and weaker as the day goes by without seeing Justin. I have really neglected myself, if I was sexy before, now I look like skin and bones.
There are no words that are very sad to describe what I feel right now. I miss Justin so much. I can no longer contact him on his cellphone and even on his social media accounts, I tried to ask his friends but I didn't get any answers that would help me find Justin.
"Joanna, son please let's talk about it." Mommy told me to be careful. No one told me what I was going through, not even Katastrophe. When he texts me, I talk to him like before - as if everything is fine until now even though the truth is not.
Until I felt the back of Mommy's hand on my right cheek. I just didn't notice that I was crying again. Mommy hugged me and accompanied me in crying which made me cry even more. Even Mommy is affected by what happened to me.
That's why when I was very careful, I took off the necklace from my neck where I was hiding my rings from Justin and then I gathered everything that was left if I had the strength and told Mommy the news that I knew if never
he will like it.
"Mommy... I'm married." And then I showed him my rings.
I was brought back to the present when I heard Justin's car engine start. He has finished fastening the seatbelt on me. I remembered Katastrophe again, so I hurriedly removed the seatbelt that Justin attached to me.
"Joanna what are you doing?" He asked me. I didn't pay attention to him, because we would probably just answer each other and that would kill just kill time, Maybe that's what's going on with Katastrophe while I'm fighting here with Justin.
Fortunately, Justin didn't lock the door with his controls, so I got out of his car right away, but I was about to run back into the club when Justin caught me by my waist, he hugged me from behind.
"You are not going anywhere but with me Joanna." Justin told me angrily. He loosened his hold on me and then held me tightly by the arm again.
I also looked at him.
"What's wrong with you? Why are you interfering with what I'm doing?! What are you doing?!" I asked him annoyed. It seems that he was not moved by what I said, because he even tightened his grip on my hand. I winced again from the pain of his grip.
"What the hell Justin, I'm in pain!" I complained to him and then I tried to take my hand back from him again but I couldn't get away. And when you're lucky that's right! Not even a single person came here to the parking lot! It seems that they are all still busy partying and have no intention of going home.
"You're asking me what you are?" He answered me. I didn't pay attention to his question, because I was more focused on his speech! Just now Justin went down again! I bit my bottom lip to stop myself from smiling, because it's more appropriate for Justin to speak English than English. I didn't answer Justin because I was busy staring at Justin's face.
Suddenly I feel like I really miss him. If I hadn't clenched my fists, I might have hugged him tightly while crying on his chest and then I would have told him how much I miss him.
I also want to ask him why he left me. I also want him to know that I am ready to forgive him and if only... if only we could be together again.
"I am your Husband, Joanna. Don't you date to forget it!" He told me crying. It was like a bubble that lost so many things I was thinking about and suddenly my full attention focused on Justin.
"You, as my Wife have responsibilities and one of them is to do what I say!" He added. Annoyance immediately enveloped not only my heart but also my whole body. This time I really gathered all the strength in my body to get out of it Justin's grip. I glared at him, but it was a waste of effort because he didn't move, but at least I got my hand back.
"Now you're talking husband and wife!" And then I bit my lower lip to somehow stop myself from crying. I'm in pain again! It's like I was just hoping ah!
"I hope you didn't just remember my wifely duties! Because as far as I remember, my hubby duties you should also be with your wife! And the first thing is, don't do that to your wife!" I can't take it anymore! I feel so bad, so sick. My heart is beating so fast in a painful way, even my stomach is hurting! It's not just Turns out the heartache hurts in the chest as well as in the stomach, it hurts too!
I don't want to talk to Justin! I'm getting tired! That's why I just walked out, I heard him calling my name one after another, but I just took a breath and I walked even faster. I also took my phone from my skirt and then looked for Katastrophe's name in the contacts.
Why did I just now think of calling him? It should have been a while ago, I wish I could have found him easier. While Katastrophe dialed the phone over and over again, but no one answered, it just kept ringing. Geez! Maybe his phone is on silent?!
Until I heard one horn after another, then ng I looked at where I was, what I saw was a dazzling light at the same time I heard Justin's name called.
"She just broke her hand Mrs. Montemayor –" I don't mean it but now that you call me Mrs. Justin's Doctor Montemayor, I really can't help but wince. Because I'm not used to being called Mrs. Montemayor!
"But his doing good now, all you have to do is make sure he rests and take good care of him. And then you can he went out today." And then he said goodbye to me. I nodded and said goodbye and then sat down in the waiting area.
Jusin got hit by a car last night because of my jealousy. Sigh. I didn't notice that I was already on the road while trying to contact Katastrophe and then my Pajero was coming, I almost crashed but Justin pushed me, so the ending was him who crashed, it's a good thing and the collision with him wasn't that strong so it just broke in
he got his left hand.
I panicked so much last night, I don't know what to do. All I know is, suddenly the ambulance came and Justin got in and I didn't want to go with him. I was so scared because I thought Justin was going to die!
"Ma'am, how is your patient?" The nurse asked me. I was about to say he was my boss when he spoke again. "Because we need to talk to the patient's relatives." Even against I just said that I'm the one
"Wife. I am his Wife."
After the nurses and doctor treated him, when I entered his room, he was asleep. I just let him rest and of course, I didn't want my conscience to swallow me up all night so I didn't go home and watched over him while he slept.
I thought I was okay, I thought the only problem I had was Mommy. I thought what I should think about is how I can ask for forgiveness him because of my early marriage. I thought I was ready to break up with Justin once we meet again, but why is that? Things are different than I thought.
I thought that once I see him, all I will feel is anger, but what does this fast beating of my heart mean, those butterflies in my tummy. The one that hopes if we can be together again, the one that my mind says if I'm ready to forgive him. Sigh. The mess. I'm a mess.
Suddenly, the nurse came out of Justin's room, which startled me. I thought the doctor was the only one with him inside. He smiled at me and said –
"Mrs. Montemayor, your husband is calling you." I winced when he called me, I just nodded and then nodded and entered Justin's room.
When I looked at Justin's bed, he was awake - probably! Will he call me or not? What should be done or said? Sorry and Thank you, I'm fine, then say goodbye and leave –
"So, Mrs. Montemayor..." He grinned at me, I bit my lower lip and immediately felt embarrassed! I really wanted to say to his face that I had no choice so I said if we were married, he spoke again.
"You ready to do your wifely duties?" And then he looked at his hand my cast. W-what does he mean?