Chapter Forty-three

Chapter Forty-three

"Are you jealous?" He asked me softly but it was enough for me to hear. I slowly walked closer to him while he stepped back until I finally cornered him. He leaned his back against the door and I held both of his hands on either side of him and no matter how hard he tried to avoid looking at me, I found and still find a way for our eyes to meet.
Until he sighed and stopped looking away from me. Now I was the one who smirked which turned into a soft laugh. He immediately hit my chest because of my reaction.
"Don't laugh at me!" He said to me a bit annoyed while his whole face gradually turned red.
"I'm just laughing, are you excited?" I asked him teasingly. His eyes widened and I thought he was going to hit me he said to me again but he just covered his face with his two hands.
"You're really cute when you're pikon, wife." I whispered to him and then hugged him very tightly.
"Especially when you're blushing because of me." I'll add more. I felt him press his face more on my chest so I laughed even more. I just kissed him on the top of his head and then I led him to sit on the bed. I sighed before starting to talk. We both know that we need to talk and now is the right time.
I took both of his hands and then put on his ring finger the engagement ring that I gave him before and our wedding ring when I looked at him, I saw his shocked reaction.
"How...?" He asked me in disbelief. I smiled at him and then kissed the backs of his hands.
"You know I am not Justin Smith Montemayor for nothing wife." I told him.
"Justin-" Before she could finish what she was going to say, I cut her off.
"I love you. I love you so d amn much wife." It's emotional to say to him. "As years pass by, even though we are far apart, my love for you never fades, it has never diminished, it has even intensified. I know the word sorry is never enough for all the lost years, for leaving you without even a single d amn word, at least hoy but from the button of my heart I'm really sorry, I'm sorry not only for you but for myself."
And that's when my voice finally broke. Oh my! I know this sounds so gay but I can't fucking help it. I cried because of all the stupid decisions I made.
"Believe it or not, Lenita and I have never left the Philippines. I miss you so much. I even told myself several times not to go, that Batman will take care of it, that I don't care if I'm left behind It's our company as long as I can go with you. Mommy doesn't want me to take you to the US. The first day of our marriage life I don't want to leave you but I can't help but to think about my parents but I guess I made the wrong choice but the funny thing is like my magnet pulling me to their house. So, in the end I decided to pay them a visit and tell them about the great news that finally I am married to my dream girl, to the girl that I f ucking love so d amn much, I thought they would be happy for me but it's the other way around." I sighed as I remembered what happened years ago and my heart can't help but to feel being in pain.
"I hope I never left you that day, I never make it going back home because mom threatened me, she will ask our family lawyer on whatever case she could file on you and your mom for us getting married without our parent consent and she'll withdraw our marriage contract at the city hall making our marriage invalid. I never wanted that to happen. She even wanted my decision right away but she left me with no choice but to do what she told me to do so. Our company is on the verge of falling, my Dad was accused on something he was never involved but no one believed him and the worst part, three of our biggest investors sued him then the next thing I knew he was behind bars. That's why I didn't talk to him when I was in the US and after a year I found out everything..."
I don't really want to tell Joanna because I'm afraid of her reaction. I don't want her to get made at me but it's obviously my fault. I just held my breath as I mustered up the courage to tell him what I needed to say.
"Mommy keeps telling me that only Lenita's family can help us with our problem. My grandma can't do anything she's too old for all of those problems and we don't want to wrist her health so we didn't say what happened to Dad was his. The only way for Dad to be out, is me being in a relationship with Lenita." When I looked at Joanna, she was just looking at me intently, she was obviously listening.
"Babe..." I called her and she smiled at me.
"I'm listening, Babe just keep going." And then he came closer to me, and leaned his back against my chest. I rested my chin on his shoulder and then wrapped my hands around his waist.
"At first I really hate the idea but I realized that no matter where I go in life, who I am with, no matter how much time I spend with Lenita, you will always be my number girl. You are my one and only Joanna , you're the only woman I want to spend that rest of my forever with, you will always be the one and only love of my life. I love you so much wife." Then I kissed her neck then took her left hand and kissed my rings on her finger. Then I continued telling her what happened to me with Lenita in the US.
"It always been Lenita who always asked me out to eat and as time goes by I had learned to be friends with her but for on her point of view it as the other way around, she had mistaken my generosity as love. At first I didn't mind it then that night came, she confessed to me I was so eager to say no and remind her that I am married to you but my conscience won't just f ucking stop reminding me of a picture of my Dad behind bars. I don't know if it was just a co-incidence at some point of my life for the second time I was left without any choices but I guess it was really meant to be my choice. I just keep on praying on my mind that one day, if we meet again and explained to you everything you'll understand but of course! Who did I fool, of course no matter what explanation I say, you will never understand my reason, it was a mistake that I chose. There's a lot more that can be done, but I just settled for what's on the table –"
I was cut off when Joanna cupped my face with her two palms on both of my cheeks and kissed me passionately. I was shocked at first but as her lips move slowly on mine I can't help but to smile and kiss her back with the same intensity.
"I understand everything now." Later he told me that we were both slowly recovering from the shortness of breath. He pressed our foreheads together and returned his grip on both my cheeks.
"You're not mad at me? Joanna I left you years ago without saying anything and how about Terrance?" I asked her wondering. She sighed and moved a little for us to have a little space that's enough for us to have an eye to eye contact.
"If you really love someone, no matter what sin they commit, you will be forgiven and you will forgive them." He said to me gently.
"Like I said earlier, I understand why you did the things you did before, your relationship with Lenita is really a mistake but has a valid reason, maybe what is in your place is what I would do as well." He said with a little laugh. My eyebrows immediately drew together at what he said.
"Haha! It's just a joke Babe! You're so cute!" He said immediately and then he pinched my cheek. I can't but to smile hiring how happy she is when she laughs, while I was staring at him and I didn't even notice that he stopped laughing and was just staring at me.
"Joanna –" And the nth time I didn't finish my sentence again. Not because she cut me off with a sentence but because of her hard slap on my left cheek. Oh my! When I turned my gaze to him again, there was no joy on his face before, there was no emotion left on his face.