Terrible Shiver

Hunnie











I woke up feeling cold. 



With the amount of quilts and furry blankets over me, you'd think I was sweating out a fever, but it was freezing this morning.



My body didn't want to budge, or face the reality just outside of these blankets that kept me so warm.



Sensing Anna wasnt  around or near me meant she must've been out grabbing breakfast as usual.



"Hunnie! I brought you some tea!" Her voice is heard at the far end of her room. She sounded to calm and enthusiastic for someone who's wedding got ruined and for someone that doesn't see the happy ending she deserves.





I couldn't face her or her people. I'm sure I've let them all down, they probably looked at me as a conniving backstabbing whore!





"Hunnie come drink some tea sweetie. You'll feel better, I promise." Anna sits down on the bed next to me. Ugh!!! I hated how loving and sweet she was!







I didn't understand how she was able to last so long around Bahm with the way she is. She's too submissive, but has tremendous amounts of love. Her spirits may not become crushed so easily, and I remembered what Hiliana said about her. 



"The woman whom brought him sanity" it all made sense, especially seeing the way she is with me. She was his opposite and still able to handle him. An empathetic person.





I slowly sat up, sliding the covers down from my head and onto my lap. Anna held the mug closely to her mouth and blowed on the tea while I got situated. She smiles at me generously when I grabbed it from her hands.





Feeling  the hot and soothing honey and ginger liquids running down my throat felt warm to my chest.



"Hunnie, let's talk." She says and I dreaded this moment. Afraid to hear her real feeling and how stupid and naive I was to forgive Bahm all over again!





"You hate me, don't you?" My lips quivered . Her face changes and she lowers her head before sniffling. I lowered mine out of shame as well. 





What ever have I done?





"No Hunnie." She places her hand over mine that held onto the mug tightly. "I don't hate you Hunnie...I actually....envy you."



She chuckled and I didn't understand. How could she envy a dark witch that has a demon wolf for a mate, or one who ran from her mate because he mistreated her?





"I know what you are probably thinking about. It's because you brought some kind of balance and peace to Bahm just by existing." A nervous smile breaks to her face, along with many tear drops. I hoped she wasn't mad at me.





"You opend his eyes to see there are always consequences in this life cherie. No mater who you are, fate chooses our path, not us. I am glad it was you, something he used to hate dearly, that he's so in love with now. You seem even tougher than me.” 



She caresses my face and a tear falls down. She swipes the tears away, "I don't hate you Hunnie, not at all. I think you are an amazing and talented, young, Dark Witch and I believe you to be protected for life with a mate that'll even go trough the lengths of Hell to show his love to you." 





She kisses my lips and pushes the mug up to my mouth. I smirk through my tears as I admired this woman even more. I can tell Bahm means so much to her that I too did as well.



"Thank you for everything Anna. I really needed someone like you in my life and I would totally understand if you did hate me.”





"No Hunnie, I don't. Not at all.... You know..." She starts thinking to herself.





"Bahm may not remember or taken me seriously when I told him I'd make sure he got to treat his mate right, even if it meant running away with her. I told him I hoped the time he does hurt her, I'd be there when she punishes him. He needed to know there was more to being a mate then just sharing a bond.”





A thought came to me. "So did you really want to marry me?”





"Hunnie do you think Bahm would let me live forever with you, and not hunt us down forever? I already lived that life and I don't want that for us... I do have feelings for you, but I could never take someone's mate from them and I knew you'd always choose him cherie, it didn't bother me." She takes the tea from my hand and brings me into a hug. "I want to tell you something too, but after we eat, ok?" I nod and we both hop out of bed and made our way towards the shower.





I pull my tank top over my head as Anna gets the shower ready. The air still feels cold, even colder against my breast. I hold them together with my somewhat warm hands and slide my pajama bottoms down. 





"Look what I got!" Anna exclaims, startling my wondering mind.





"Aloe!"





I smile brightly. My curls have been dying for a deep aloe conditioning.





We both hop in, washing each others hair and back before Anna parts my hair in sections so I could lather the aloe vera on my scalp. I get out of the shower first, throwing a shower cap over my head, trapping the heat inside. I threw a towel over my chest and exited the bathroom, going into the room to dress.



Wearing a black halter top dress that ended by my knees, a silky and white shawl to cover my exposed shoulders and back, I still felt very cold and couldn't shake the feeling.





It started yesterday when Bahm jumped into the gates. Yesterday was such a blur to me. I didn't want to think about it, nor my actions.





The reality of sending him to actual Hell for 350 years hit me. Tears travelled down my face in a waterfall, soaking my cheeks and neck. Then seeing Kris's reaction next to the howling and distressed fox made me even more sad. What have I done!





"Hunnie are you ok?" Anna comes from around the corner of her bathroom in a towel. I swipe at my tears and nod yes, lying. "You know you can talk to me cherie. I'm old, but you know I listen." She smiles shortly with her gap front teeth.



I sigh distressingly , closed my eyes and inhaled roughly. "I'm just...I can't...believe I agreed to send him there for...350 years Anna." I ugly cried and her expressions changes. "What was I thinking." Whispering she comes and sits down next to me, helping me wipe the tears from my face.



"Hunnie. I promise you will see him again. You can put your self in a Cyro sleep magically, or Bahm will just escape before his time. But knowing the type of woman you are, you'd feel guilty if he'd never recived some kind of punishment for his crimes.”





What she says is all true, but I didn't now how to Cyro sleep yet. When I tell Anna that, she mentions that Hiliana knows and how I should be able to find some more information about it in books Bahm keeps in his library.





"Nyku did come by early this opening when you were still asleep, saying you could come by to their castle for your belongings, or you and I could stay their if you felt comfortable."









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Breakfast came by.







We ate fried octopus with steamed cabbage and rice sausages downstairs in the dining room. I was very skeptical and embarrassed to be around her people so soon, but they didn't seem to be angry at me. They only kept to themselves, shooting me greetings and bows still.







The dinning room wasn't full at all this morning either. We ate with Tommi and his girlfriends loli and a few more of their friends. As if yesterday never happened, everyone as filled with laughter and smiles. The King's daughter even joined us, Cyn as she flirted with all the guards openly like a wanton woman. She made them all blush in our presence as she took her seat so seductively across from Anna after coming over to kiss her on the cheeks. They began speaking in French to one another.





I felt so lonely and out of place all of a sudden. Not having any connection to anyone here anymore...





My mind was having a battle to decipher how bad and horrible of a being I was. Every few minutes Anna would place her hand on my knees, almost giving me a feel that she's still here with me.







We stayed at the table all the way to lunch time, not realizing how long I've been listening  to them all talk about their childhood that was a couple hundreds of years ago, to the many weddings they've attended here in this castle, and how iconic yesterdays wedding was.



"I can't believe  this whole tie Bahm was a Dark Fei Wolf-Demon! What a tongue twister!" Cyn states surprised while drinking a mimosa.





I wondered how old she was, she looked to almost be my age!





"I only hope his mother was alright." Anna sighs just as our lunch was being served. Roased pig shoulder, assorted vegetables and seasoned, brown, rice.





"She seemed very upset that Bahm left. Cyn says, saying Bahm's name informally unlike everyone else whoa dressed him as The King.





After lunch Anna volunteered to bring me over to the castle and retrieve my journal.





I haven't seen Kris since Anna kicked him out that one day, I wondered about him. How was he handling this all?