All Hope is Lost

Hunnie
















Bahm comes into the Dinning Room. He doesn't even spare me a glance when my arms at still wrapped around Kris.







"Kris.... The Pack needs you for a few minutes."








He lowers his head and walks out of the room. Fear from his actions still lingering around my body.





I didn't know Kris had a pack, I also didn't want him to leave me alone anymore.








"Do you have to go?" I look up from our hug, my eyes watering.







"Yeah...it's mine after Bahm changed me. I have to."







He kisses my head one last time, shoving a spoonful of brown jasmine rice into his mouth, and walks out the room.












Finishing my fried tilapia and sweet potatoes, I head outside for once. All alone, as I don't want to be around anyone. 











It was beautiful outside. Clay tiled rooftops, white limestone lining the outside castle walls, and even the large Koi fish pond surrounded by many cherry blossoms sitting in the middle. The scenery out here made me feel at home. Deja vu and goosebumps coating over my soul from another lifetime.















I pass what looks like an outdoor kitchen, smoke leaving the chimney and elegant maids running in and walking out with big pots and pans.











 Walking down a hill and ever farther away from the castle, and toward another small pond, I stumble upon what looks to be a barn house  filled of maids. They were happily chatting as their front swinging doors reveled their laughters.











It's much more lovely out here!











I begin to cry softly, thinking of all the things Bahm and I could have done on these lands.



Alone...







If I hadn't of left him in the woods, and rejected him...things would've been different. He wouldn't be the way he is now. 







I regret it.








Suddenly feeling a swoosh and a gust of air pass by me, I flinch at the coldness.











Bahm appears to my side, startling me while his face looked much more different than earlier.











He looks down at me, as I up into his eyes. They seem full of regret.His mouth pulled downward and his eyebrows quivering. I looked away, becoming scared that I might react or feed into that face unforgivingly.









"Why...Why are you out here alone? Are you alright?" Bahm has the balls to asked. What is he, bipolar now? He lost his damn memories or something? How can he ask if I'm alright!!!











My heart starts to thump loudly and rapidly. Not because I am scared, but it calls out for this, calls out to be with him painfully. 







A familiar voice is heard in the distance, looking behind me I see Azalea not too far away with her servants, waving at me. My whole mood changes, but trying my hardest to no let Bahm notice I just lower my head. The feeling of the bond goes away. Our small, almost normal moment, over. 











I try to walk away unnoticed when Azalea came closer, breaking Bahm's glare with me. He grabs me by my wrist and my bones jumps, expecting the worst.









"Where are you going?" He asked softly, my reply stuck in my throat as I look all around him but his eyes.








"We are all going into The Kingdom together." He says.











I don't protest. I just nod my head, avoiding any suspicions about my running away with Anna.












He lets my wrist go and begins walking ahead of us. We all walked in silence, except Azalea who kept trying to talk to me every single second. Asking if I ever ate this, or been to this place, or what I use for how curly my natural hair is!











I don't answer any of her questions, biting the inside f my mouth. I wasn't particularly fond of her existence, nor her fake bonding with me. She kept mentioning she was, "trying to get to know me" but I'd just smile and nod.  Giving her the exact same act she was around Bahm.











we arrived to the front of the castle with a walk that seemed eternity, approaching a large carriage led by two miniature, blue and green dragons. 











"Do you even want to be my mate still? You aren't even trying to get along with her." Bahm opens his mouth before I could get my feet on the first step into the carriage right after Azalea enters.











I was speechless, not knowing what to say and not wanting to say too much.




Act Hunnie! You must act normal!











I turn and face a sitting Azalea. Looking up at her inside the carriage, Bahm exhaling roughly behind me.











"I am very sorry for my quietness Azalea. I'm just not feeling well and didn't want to talk. My apologies." I go in, sitting on the seat across from her, eying her and she smiles brightly. 











"I hope you feel." She bows her head.















I couldn't believe this woman. After last night's events and this morning's atrocities she has the nerve to pretend that everything was just peachy! I could blast her into the dirt!







Bahm sits next to her, squinting at me. Searching my face, making me feel uncomfortable at his scrutinizing gaze. I hoped I didn't make him aware of anything...











The carriage starts to lift into the air. My body shifting in my seat as Bahm is still staring at me. Has he figured something out?!!!











"Wow I've never been high up like this before!" Azalea says like a little child, looking out the window and Bahm finally breaks his glare on me.















He begins telling a backstory to every architect and structure we passed under as they both stick their heads out, enjoying the scenery.











"That mucky and grassy area used to be where The Shape Shifters first migrated to before my father claimed the lands." He points behind him.











"Wow I never knew that! Growing up we always thought you brought The Shape Shifters to Your Highness's Kingdom." Azalea awes at the scenery below.











I was quiet, seething inside at how well they bonded.
That could of been us. 



Maybe in another lifetime. 







I lowered my head, fiddling with my fingers and I feel Bahm turn his head to watch me. My heart racing breaking at the sight before my eyes. 











We arrive to The Kingdom of Ghabaàr shortly after. Landing on a massive, green, open field next to an opened coloseeum of some sort with what looked to be some kind of tournament happening. What did we walk into?











Bahm got out the carriage first, holding Azalea's hands as she steps out first and then the same to me. I let go very quickly as his face begins examining me again. I can see him from my peripheral view and it made me feel uncomfortable again. Why does he watch me in this manner. Is he reminiscing?















He walks ahead of us, motioning for both Azalea and I to follow him. Different beings walking amongst us and towards the colosseum. I walked slowly behind Azalea, watching everyone with their interesting personalities.











A woman with three arms led a small group of what looked like infants, then a few shifters were running around and shaping their bodies. I accidentally bumped into one who was as skinny as a stick, unnoticed to my eyes.











"I'm so sorry!" I said to him, his body filling up to a normal sized man. He  bows to me before referring to me as his Queen.











"My Queen! All is well!"











 I smile at him and return the bow politely.







All of a sudden I'm in a dressing room with Bahm and Azalea. He must've teleported us.





A few maidens come in and begin undressing us to look more appropriate for the event. Bahm sit off to the corner, already dressed enough. He wore a silky yellow, baggy pants and a white long sleeved turtle neck with a black vest over it.











Wearing a lovely red kimono filed with white hibiscus flowers, and an all white cloth dress underneath , I felt beautiful for once around Azalea. The fabrics pressed neatly against my body. For she was only dressed with a plain yellow, long sleeved ruffled dress ending at her feet.











I begin smiling and twirling around in the mirror. Loving the elegant and beautiful look on me.







"Hunnie!" Bahm stands across the way and I turn to see his arms folded in his seat.







"Yes?"







"Why do you smile at another man, let alone to yourself...when you haven't even smiled for me in forever !"











I was confused as to what he was talking about. What man? I turn to fully face him.











Then it clicked in my head. He was referring to the man I bumped into outside.











I furrow my eyebrows, not being able to hide my response. 











"I didn't mean any disrespect by it. I was only being polite....You only hurt me now! Why should I smile?"











"Polite?!! I HURT YOU!" He raises his voice slightly











"Yes POLITE!!" I snapped back.











Within seconds he's right in my face, grabbing my jaw. My heart starts beating irregularly and I hold onto his hand around my face.











"Use that tone with me again. I dare you!" He squeezes my jaw, coming close to my face and I instinctively shove him away. He was hurting me again!















He didn't seem to like that one bit. I will not let him touch me in this manner.











 He grabs me by my throat with his other hand, pinning me up against a wall. My back crashing roughly. An uneasy look circling his eyes.











"Y-Y-Your Higness!" I hear Azalea cry only for Bahm to tell her to shut up.