Destined to loose

Eddie is Edward..... Edward is Eddie...

How?.... How can he do that..? What was my fault..? Why did he do this to me.?


Watching him here with William, was not shocking but hurtful..
I thought that his caring was genuine... I thought that he actually did wanted to be with me.
But it was all a lie.. A game .
He was doing nothing but playing me all along.

Yesterday only when I asked him, to take me away from here . He did not responded but asked me to wait ..
This is why he asked me to wait. !
To show his true self.! .when I was actually falling for him then he actually was just playing me.

How much of a fool I was to believe in him ,granted he is a good manipulator.

I can not fathom his tricks. I was too stupid... There were millions of clues for me to doubt him.....from him getting off from William's wrath to him spending time here in the palace with me in William's absence. Not even once I thought that he could be a deceiver but kept on believing in his white lies.
I was an idiot to ignore these signs, I just was falling in love with him oblivious of his ulterior motives.

All the moments I spent with him came flashing in front of my eyes.. How he cared for me.
How nicely he treated me.. Just to betray me in the end.

What did he get out of this..? I know William is unaware of our secret affair.. Then why did he do that.?
If he wanted to degrade me then he could have actually told William long back about it.
But clearly William here is totally oblivious to what has happened between me and his son.
In fact he thinks that I'm the reason , that his son is back.

I could not comprehend this all.
On top this Eddie / Edward stood there right in front of me and was constantly mocking me with his smirk.


I was well aware that William's son did not like to spend time with William and William thanking me was the proof that, he and his son doesn't share a good bond.

Then why did Eddie/Edward did that....? What he wants from me. ?
I can't even think anymore, one thing was way confusing then the other..

My heart was hurting. The man I thought loved me , just kept fooling me all these times while I foolishly was falling for him.. The man I trusted and gave my heart, destroyed it brutally..
I trusted him so much that I even thought of telling him about my mom..


I was too shocked after discovering the truth..
After William excused himself, Edward walked towards me.. I know he was expecting me to snap at him or create a scene.. After loosing this unfair battle with him.
But little does he knows that I did not loose to him but to my own heart..
I tried hard to keep him away.. But those emotions empowered over me and I lost it in the end.. I fell for the man who was the son of my enemy.
I fell for the man who was just planning my end. My heart never felt this kind of agony , the last time I felt death was better then life was when he shot mom..

But today, it is worst.. Back then I was a kid but now the pain in my heart in unbearable..

My mind stopped working , instead of taking a stand and fighting for myself , I ran inside my room.

Everything seemed like an end.. Nothing was making any sense to me.. I loved Eddie and he ditched me.. Now he can even tell William and then William will hurt my family..
Holy cow! May be this was what he wanted to do.. May be just like his father.. He too wanted to hurt me...
I could not save anyone.. Not dad.. Not even Danny..
It's better if I should die.. If I'd live then I can not endure this suffering.. This pain of betrayal and the agony of watching my family getting hurt. .. I was too blank to think rationally.
I took a bottle full of sleeping pills and swallowed them in one go..

After that everything was dark..



I don't how much time was passed but I could hear few voices around me..


" Give her this medicine on time and make sure she takes adequate rest. Rest everything is fine.. She'll get conscious in an hour max. " Someone said..

" Okay, doctor.. Here I'll see you off. " That voice... That son of a witch..

Holy shit... My body was aching.. Slowly I half opened my eyes. And saw I was in the same room where I fainted after the pills.. Damn... I could not even die. By my will.

I was slowly trying to get up from the bed by supporting my body on my elbow.. When I suddenly fumbled..

" Careful.. Liz! "

That son of a witch... How dare he still called me liz... He doesn't has any rights to call me anything..


All of a sudden my body was electrified with anger after hearing his voice.. I know my attempt to die just have been sabotaged by him.. But now I will not get tricked by him anymore.

" Don't you dare call me liz.. You bloody son of a witch. "I snapped at him.

" I would have behaved if I was you.. Liz... " He responded with a smirk.


" Behave.. You are kidding me right... You scoundrel.. How dare you do this to me..? Why did you do that.. Ha.. ? " I barked at him in anger.
.

" Stop yelling Liz... Someone can hear you. " ..

What the hell! If anyone wants to listen, they bloody can. And why is he behaving so caring all of a sudden..


" I'll yell or bloody scream, if anyone wants to listen they sure can. And stop calling me Liz.. And what is with you now...the bloody game is over so you can stop pretending that caring shit..I won't fall for it anymore.." I barked at him.




"I'm not pretending but warning you... You would not like the result if William gets to know about it.. And I'm not answering your any of the questions.. Of why and what I did... So you better stop asking " He snapped.


" Bloody hell! You kept playing me and have the audacity to talk to me like this.. You bastard.. " I screamed at him.


" Stop that charade, Liz... I don't owe you anything. If you'll keep behaving like this then just for once think about your family ..what Will happen to them if William gets to know about this... " He stated sternly.. With a warning .


Damn it... My family... They are the only person I have left with me.. I can't risk them.

No matter why he did so.. Even if I get to know then also nothing could ever change the fact that he betrayed me.. Played me.


Enough of his shit . I don't want his answer, at least now I know that he is more poisonous than William..
I have to be away from them. Far away.. For the sake of dad and Danny..

I can't bear watching him anymore.. I wanted to get away from him.. But as soon as I marched towards the door he grabbed my hands..
Now.. What is wrong with him.?

" Let go off me or I swear I'll kill you...! "
I stated angrily at him..

" Aha... I know you are wild. But you are this wild.. I didn't knew that... It would be so much of fun if we can take this wildness to bed like all the other times Liz... " He walked closer to me still holding one of my hands and said seductively nibbling in my ears..

How dare he tried to degrade me Like that... What does he think of me...? A prostitute..!


I have had enough of his insult.. Turning towards him, I slapped him tightly right across his cheeks.
Taking him by surprise.. And maddening him to hell. He looked like as if he was going to murder me.
His eyes were spitting fire.. I freed my hands from his grip and ran inside the bathroom to save myself from his anger. Not to mention wrong move..very very wrong move. But as soon as I was about to close the door he pushed it off and barged inside..

" So mature of you.!. I must say.. Alizeh.. " He mockingly said. And grabbed my hands and pushed me on the wall, attached to shower head.


" Leave me you bastard... " Yelling at him. I slapped him one more time. Raging him more..
Well I'm to mad beyond mad... He is worst than William at least he is what he is.. But this man is dual faced and now because of him.. My families life is again at stake.. And I can't do a shit to save them.

" Alizeh... I dare you slap me one more time.. And I'll show you what I can do.. " He warned me..
Making me more brave and bold.. I slapped him once more.
With a sudden jerk he pushed me on the wall and with our insane pushing and pulling the shower head was opened and now water was cascading down our bodies..


" Alizeh...! " He warned me with angry glares..


I slapped him one more time... Then all of a sudden he took me off guard by forcefully slamming his lips on to mine.. I pushed him but to waste.. This muscled up man didn't even flinched a bit.

My pushing him was just a waste effort but the way he was forcefully kissing me ignited the fire within me and I gave into his touch and started kissing him feverishly..
What the hell is wrong with me... How easily my body starts reacting in his touch... How did my anger ended up here in this... Turning into a kiss..
He is no more the man I loved, but an enemy.. And here I'm shoving my tongue inside his mouth
The desire was overtaking me.. And I was lost in his touch... We both were all wet from the pouring water from the shower.. Edward was kissing me passionately.. Now nothing looked forced..

Before my conscience could hit.. I heard William's voice coming out from the room..


Suddenly Edward broke the kiss and looked at me astounded.. I was terrified..


I was all wet inside a bathroom with Edward not to mention he too was drenched..
And William was outside.. Calling out for me..


I looked at Edward horrified...
What the hell will happen now...? And then.. Bloody hell!