It all began again..

I felt hollow.. Devastated.. But I could not do anything.. I could not blame Edward for whatever he did.. Cause initially I was the one who didn’t wanted this child.. But then why am I feeling so dejected.. Why my heart is cursing me.. ?
How in just a little time I got attached to that baby.... That I’m feeling his loss..
May be because more than William he was a part of me.. But now. .. I have lost that part.. And I got no one to blame except me... . .
I tried hard to forget that suffering and pain.. But it kept coming back.. . . I can’t endure the pain and the truth of killing my own child.. I became just like William.. Even worst than him... I killed my own blood..
Nothing was the same.. I haven’t replied or answered to Edward regarding his confession.. . . I don’t even have any idea... What I have to do next.. My plan to avenge is rotting in one corner of my mind.. How just within two days... Everything has turned around from me wanting to avenge on them.. To falling back for Edward after his confession... And now I have lost my first child....
For the next few day’s I kept my distance from everyone, cause the guilt of killing my own child was still eating me alive. .. I didn’t wanted to talk to anyone..
I’m thankful that Edward didn’t pushed me.. He too allowed me to have my space.. Somehow he understood my plight which was surprising to me..
Eric and Rita were again like the house servants, and didn’t intervened in my life.. I’m thankful to both of them... They have helped me a lot..
I didn’t got any closer to Edward, I kept my distance physically.. Cause I wasn’t ready after everything that has happened.. And still at the back of my mind.. I doubted that Edward, is in love with me..
I can’t forget the image of him and Emma... Though now I know that Edward did it just to save me.. Cause Emma has our recording which she was about to hand it to William. And her condition to cease that was one night With Edward...
But even after everything my mind was still not ready.. Though my heart was, screaming to believe him.. .. Emma was send to rehab as she was mentally ill.
Slowly everything was falling back into place.. ... But then after four days... William was back...
And my suffering began again..
First he questioned about Emma’s absence.. Somehow Rita lied and saved us all.. But the real disaster was the night...
The nights that I have to spend with him in his room....
And my fear came alive.... William.. Brutally assaulted my body... To have his fill ... The same day he was back..
Reigniting my fire... Of revenge.. I hated every second of his touch... It was burning me to hell...
In the morning when I woke up. I still felt his touch on my body... I hated it ... That I was smelling like his Cologne... I wanted to wipe it away.. After he left for his work .. I rushed to washroom.. And soaked myself in warm water to wipe his essence.. But I still wasn’t able too..
I know why.. Cause.. I hated being touched by someone else except Edward... And now only he can take it away... This pain.. And suffering.. ..
Tying my bathrobe... I went down stairs straight into his room... .. While heading for his room I saw.. Rita heading out of the house, she saw me and told me that she is going to pick grocery.. And told me that Eric has gone with William..
So it means.. It just me and Edward all alone..
Heading straight to his room.. I knocked... Once... Twice.. Getting no response.. I turned the knob and entered...
Damn... Man? when I did... Holy shit..!. I saw his glistening body... Wet from the shower.. He was stepping out of his bathroom... In just nothing but a towel... Hanging around his waist showing his V line and perfectly defined abdomen...My skin burned with desires watching him like this.. He was looking all perfect.. Like Greek god..
He was stunned to see me there like this..
“ What are you doing here liz...? Is everything okay..?” He asked in a worried voice..
Shaking my head.. I walked closer to him.. And when I was so close to him that we were breathing each other’s breath. I slowly untied my robe and gently shrugged it off from my shoulders...
I stood.. In front of him.. In nothing but my skin... He was mindlessly gawking at me...his face was holding a shocked expression..
Nibbling on his ears.. I said in an enticing way...... “wipe him off me...”.
And this was enough to unravel his animal... And desire..
He pushed me of on his bed... And then.. We were soon lost in each other... Finding ourselves..
Edward slowly was taking all the hurt and pain.. Away from his gentle touch that William caused me...
We were diving into each others body mind and soul.. I don’t know.. If this time I’m doing it for revenge.. I don’t know what I feel for him... I don’t even want to find it out... I just want to enjoy.. This.. Moment..
But all of a sudden I heard.. Twisting of the knob... .
Getting alert, I pushed off Edward from me.. He too was shocked to hear the sound.. Cause Eric and Rita were gone...and so was William.. Then who it could be..
I rushed for my robe.. And covered my body immediately...
EDWARD asked me to hide myself inside the bathroom and I obliged... He covering him self went to see who is the one trying to open the door of his room...
When he opened... The door....
Damn it..... What the hell is he.... Doing here...?