Heart breaking declaration...

I was lying on top of his bare chest, feeling the warmth of his skin . His heart was beating with a fast rhythm.. Although my motive to have him like this was something else but right now lying this close to him, being able to feel his heart beat. Being able to touch his warm skin was twisting something deep inside me. Something, that I was denying.
Deep down I know, even after whatever he did, I still feel for him and this truth was haunting me the most when I was this close to him. Making me doubt myself that what if once again, I get distracted from my aim and start dreaming about having a future with him...
No way... No chance... I can’t risk it now.. I have to focus only on my aim ... Aim to destroy William Henry. And to achieve that, Edward is the only option and weapon that I have. Even though I still feel for him, but the truth is that, he played me all along.. And now it’s my turn to avenge on them.
This vengeance of mine will be the death of them..
But when he said that, he doesn’t want to hurt William by being with me.. It raged me.. To hell....
How dare he rejected me like this.. Even after what he did.. I came back.. And he dare not lie saying that, I don’t effect him. Cause I’m hell sure I do.. Then what the hell is with him now...
Now what. . ? He wants to become a good son of his father... Damn it...
Once again everything is slipping out of my hands, if Edward actually is trying to mend his relationship with his father then there’s no way that I can ever succeed in achieving my goals.
Watching the fine thread of hope that I was holding being slowly destroyed by his words, raged me. Pushing him off ,I jumped out of the bed ,collecting my clothes and covering my self up. I Stomped out of his room after throwing some crude remarks , I headed straight for my room..
As I reached my room, I hoped on the bed, burying my face in the pillow I cried for long enough..
I was hurt not because that I won’t be able to destroy William but because I can’t be with Edward.. Even after getting my heart destroyed by him, even after being aware that he played me all along, still his rejection hurts me.
Not being able to have him was the worst possible punishment for me.. And the way he said that he can’t be with me because I’m William’s wife was way more hurtful..
The fact that he still want to give his father a chance but not me... Was dreadful to me. The fact that the only shot to save myself and my family was drifting away from me, the chance of making everything alright was slipping through my fingers.. And I wasn’t even able to do anything..
I can’t fathom that why after watching William’s brutality he still want to mend his relationship.
But enough of my pathetic crying, if Edward doesn’t want me, I know how to make him want me.. I have seen the desire in his eyes... And I can evoke them again... If I want to... And I definitely will evoke his raw hunger for me..
I have to... Enough of me being weak.. And crying over everything wrong that has happened In my life.. I have to fight it to make it work.. To save my family and myself I can’t just sit here and agree with the universe.. I have to manipulate Edward’s decision.. I have to make him agree with me.
This is the only way I can make it through this hell.
After crying for several hours and wasting my time by Overthinking finally I gathered the courage to try one more time to make Edward agree with me.
William not being in the villa is the golden opportunity for me, to make my plan work. I can’t ruin this golden chance over my heartbreak, I can keep my ego and issues aside for once.. Just for my family.
Opening the door of my room, I slowly climbed down the stairs.
I straight away headed for Edwards room the door was slightly open, just giving a glimpse of the inside,slightly opening it a bit more, I peeked inside the room, but to my surprise and horror what I saw made me sick...
Edward... With no one else but Emma.. The house butler... How can he stoop so low.. ?
She was kissing him feverishly in minimum bare clothing.. She was on top of him.. While Edward was lying below her without his shirt on.... Enjoying her touch..
My heart was once again broken into thousands of pieces.. The sight in front of me was hateful.. This was more hurtful than his rejection..
This was way more painful than the time I got to know he was playing me..
Not being able to endure this sight anymore
I instantly tried to run away, but accidentally I did made a sound diverting their attention towards me..
Emma looked at me giving a victorious smirk, while Edward looked at me in complete horror and shock.. Ignoring both of them, I ran away from there..
Edward immediately picked up his shirt and started following me.. Calling my name to stop me..
“ Alizeh... Stop.. Please let me explain..”

I kept ignoring him.. And walked out of the villa... And kept walking till I reached into the woods.. Edward too kept following me..
But once being tired of running like this when I halted my action, he said something that he never did... Not even when I actually expected he would... The words that I always wanted to but never got to hear from him.. Even when he was tricking me with his foul play he never said those words then why now......
Edward stopped at his place..
Turning around I yelled at him..
“ what the hell do you want...? Haven’t you hurt me enough...? Congratulations... EDWARD Henry.. You have finally destroyed me completely... Happy...” I didn’t realized that I was crying all the way to here, until I tasted the salty tears dripping from my cheeks entering my mouth while I was yelling at him..
I don’t know why.. I even said that.. But it was so hurtful to see him with someone else..
But what he said in response.. Sucked all the oxygen from my lungs.. And I stood dead in my tracks..
Edward on top of his lungs standing in the middle of the woods... Screamed....
“Alizeh,....... I LOVE YOU....”