Why did he do that?...

I can’t be pregnant, not with his baby... Every time he touched me I made sure, to down the pills to avoid this disaster , then how in the hell did this happened.
I wanted to die.. I was about to succeed in attempt to kill me.. When I heard him... Confessing his love brazenly in front of Rita and Eric... For a moment I was distracted, but soon I regained myself back, I focused on the thing I was here for. Looking at the pills in my hand I tried to swallow it all, to end the pain and the Miseries.. But Edward didn’t allowed me to do so. He kept fighting me, he even slapped to distract me but I was so lost case..
All I could think was to end this life.. I can’t be a mother of a child whose father has brutally murdered my mother. I don’t want to live. All along I have been living for my family, my father my brother... But not anymore.. I can’t endure this agony of being his child’s mother... No way.... I can’t..
I can’t bring a monster in this world...
Even after several efforts of Edward, I was still persistent to kill myself. Getting down on my knees I started collecting the pills, which were fallen from Edward’s slap..
Though I was too lost but still I could sense Edward’s presence around me.. He squat down next to me and was trying to calm me down.. But watching all his effort failing right in front of him..
So to distract me he used the ultimate weapon... He kissed me..
I hesitated in the beginning but... Soon eased in his touch... The freedom I felt in his arms were something that was bringing me back to myself.. The rhythm with which my heart started beating in his touch was making me realize that the fight is still not over..
I can free myself.. I can have this freedom with him.. If I want to..
Breaking the kiss slowly, he touched my forehead with his.
The way he was showing his concern for me broke my all boundaries... And I spilled the truth...
Sobbing I told him... That I can’t bear the child of my mums killer..
Hearing me out.. Edward immediately pulled away.. I felt a loss of his touch..
“ What did you just said.. What do you mean Liz..?”
He was looking quite puzzled.. Well I don’t blame him..
I kept sobbing.. He again held me in his arms.. And tried to calm me down..
Eric and Rita were still there.. Sensing it.. Edward slowly took me up in his arms and then walked back in to his room taking me along with him..
I could sense he was totally bemused but just for the sake of not freaking me out or putting a pressure on me.. He kept his calm..
Entering the room, he slowly put me on bed.. Then got a glass of water for me.
I was still sobbing..
“ here.. Drink it. .. First..”
He gently asked me..
Looking at him with my tears filled eyes.. I took the glass from him..
I was getting heavy hiccups cause of my crying, slowly I gulped down the water.
Taking the glass from me, he kept it on table and took a seat beside me..
Holding my hand.. He asked.... In a caring way..
“ liz.. Why are you behaving this way.. Look.. You know you were married to him.. One day or the other.. You would have got pregnant... So why.... And what you said downstairs... What do you mean by that..?”
I could sense the disdain in his voice when he mentioned of me being pregnant with William.. It was quite evident now that he hates William's claim over me in any way..

Slowly composing myself.. I decided to tell him all.. I want to see if his love is for real.. Of he is trying to play me again.
If he truly loves me... He’ll believe me..
Looking at him.. I slowly started unfolding the past.. “ I exactly meant what I said...”
I gave him all the piece of truth not leaving a single details.. From the time William barged in to my house in Scotland to kill my mother.. To the time he again came back for me...in Canada ,I told him.. Everything.
He was patiently listening it all.. I could see the discomfort he was feeling with every progressing details. But he didn’t interrupted Me ,all the time he kept listening my story...with understanding and concern .By the time I was finished.. He just said.. Three Words... And all my doubts evaporated.. Though I was still scared, that may be he’ll hurt me again but I had to take the risk.. Cause he is my only shot at freedom and saving my family... I have to take this chance.
He said... Looking me in the eye.. With care and concern... “ I trust you liz..”
I was really surprised.. And actually I made it quite evident on my face..
To make me really believe it.. He said it one more time..
“I can see that you don’t believe me.. But liz I ain’t gonna play any games With you anymore.. I do trust and believe everything you have told.. He has killed Christian in front of me.. I have no doubt that he must have killed before too.. I’m sorry for what happened to your mother liz..I never knew that. Trust me if I had .I would have never done anything like that but having said that you did told me the truth just the half but you did.. And I being under the devils influence.. Didn’t gave you a piece of my trust..... I’m so sorry liz... I’m sorry.. For how I treated you..”
I slowly nodded in response..
I was relieved once he made it sure it is not a game for him.. After clearing my doubt Edward starting to leave the room, I guess I know why cause.. Rita and Eric are still downstairs.. They’ll need a lot of explanation to understand everything.. So I guess Edward was heading just to handle them..
“ I don’t want this child...”I said in a low voice.. Casting my eyes down..
Edward heard me, looking at me. ..
He walked a bit close.. And brushing my hairs with his finger...
“ for now sleep liz.. I have got a lot to handle.. We’ll deal with this later..”
He said and bending down, he kissed my forehead.. And left.. I guess to clear the mess. Cause sure William isn’t here for now. But that doesn’t means he won’t be back..
I know.. I have laid out all my cards in front of Edward and I don’t know why but this time I believe that he loves me and won’t be deceiving me..
He is the only one who can help me now.. And I can’t loose like this... I’m sure I don’t want this baby.. I want nothing inside me related to William.. Nothing that relates me to him in any way.. Edward here is the exception.. Cause he’ll be the link who Will disconnect me from William..
I definitely have to be more careful from now on.. Edward knows all of my secret. And even if he said that he loves me.. I don’t think that is enough for him to hate William again.. Cause I have witnessed when Edward found out about Christian.. He repented every moment when he insulted William.. And since then he has been trying hard to make his relationship with William better..
I have to take every step carefully.. I have to make Edward mine... As in all mine that. There’s is nothing left in him.. To give to anyone..
My mind needs rest.. And I definitely need to think what I had to do with this new trouble... Growing inside me.. Soon....
I dozed of from the tiredness..
I don’t know for how long I slept.... But when I woke up.. I was feeling.. A bit.. Hollowness in my body.. My lower body.. Was feeling empty... And rest of my body was aching and I was feeling so low and lazy...
I tried to get up.. On my own.. But soon Rita rushed towards me... And helped me in getting up.... She gently placed a pillow at my back for better support.. I don’t know when did she got inside the room..
“ Thank you Rita...” I said.. Smiling a little..
She gave me a sympathetic look and then handed me a glass of water with few medicine..
What.. Why is she giving me these..?

Perplexed I asked her..
“ Rita.. What are these.? I’m fine... I just lost my mind and my calm over that thing.. Rest I’m perfectly fine.. I’m not sick that I need to have these meds..”
“ These are not for any sickness madam.. These are to give your body the strength back that it lost in the process.. The doctor has recommend it specially after the operation..” She said In a low voice.. Avoiding any eye contact with me..

Operation.!.. Did I heard her correctly.. ?
.. I was going to ask her.. When suddenly my eyes.. Caught a view outside the window.. The sun was rising from the horizon.. And if I remember correctly.. The time.. I started sleeping the clock struck 11 am of the morning..
Bloody hell..! How long did I sleep?

Getting back to Rita... I asked her totally bewildered..
“operation... What kind of operation Rita.. I’m totally fine...”

“ Your abortion.. Madam..” she said.. Casting her eyes down..
What the bloody hell... Abortion.. Who did this.. And why...? Without even asking me.. I agree that I didn’t wanted the baby... But abortion!.. Without my permission...! Even when I didn’t wanted the baby.. Why do I feel this sudden loss of something dear?... I felt like I lost a part of me..
I don’t need Rita to answer that.... I know who did this... .. Stomping out of my bed... I started to walk.. But suddenly the weakness took over me.. And I was about to fall ,I squeezed my eyes in fear but then suddenly someone caught me....... Him.....
Why the hell he did that.. Without even asking me... How can he control my body, my life...without my permission...?
Pushing him away... I slapped him hard...
In front of Rita...
Edward holding his cheeks that I slapped.. Looked at me seething..
Anger flashing in his eyes...
He grabbed my hairs in his hands and yanked them....
Bloody hell! Is he going to hit me......?

Really.... Was he playing me again... ?
Did he do this all internally just to get the truth out of me..?...