CHAPTER 44: Dating Mr. Elizar

EREVELL’s P.O.V.

The continuation...

“I don’t know how to say it... But just to make sure... One, four, three. Three words, eight letters. I love you, Erevell. Not just as a friend... But more than that. I love you. I love you more than anything else in this world. And I know what you’re probably thinking... That I just wanted to make you happy that is why I’m doing this... But no... I’m doing this not to make you happy, but to make myself so. I want to be happy, with you. So please, let me love you... Let me be your shelter even just this once...”

I shook my head several times, preventing to give into his confessions. No. I already promised to myself never to say what I feel about him. But now, he was the one who did it even though he know that I will be leaving him soon.

“But... Gab... You know that I will be leaving you soon...” I tried to remind him.

As I stared into his eyes, I feel worried, fearing for him. Is he really doing this right now? I mean... Isn’t he afraid of being left behind by someone he love? I could feel the intense hesitation invading my systems. If I follow my heart and answered him in a way that I wanted to, both of us could be happy for the mean time. But if I chose to use my mind and decided to answer him what’s right, then this... This moments could be my greatest regret.

“I will not be able to love you long enough.”

“I don’t care. I don’t care about the time. That is not what I’m asking you... All I ask is for you to allow me to love you that way... All your life... You’ve been so selfless. It was always me whom running into you, when in fact, it should be the other way around. Don’t think about me this time... Think about yourself... Tell me what you truly feel, Erevell... For how many times today... Let me tell you the truth... I love you. I love you so much–”

Before he could even say another word, I pulled him closer, before standing up to give him a quick kiss. That shut him up, before I smiled, with tears in my eyes. I held into his arms, afraid to lose my balance for I am too weak to stand up.

“I love you too, Gab. I love you so much...” I cried, my voice breaking down.

“You... You love me too?”

“For a long time now,” I whispered, my arms around his neck.

Helped me sit down on my wheelchair, before he kneeled down in front of me. Both of us dwelled into tears, unable to believe that we are now cherishing our moments together. I feel a lot better, as if the weight at the top of my chest is now lifted up. After telling him the truth and the way of how I feel, everything becomes so light... To the point that I am now finally ready to go any moment soon. But that doesn’t mean that I am not wishing for more time to spend with him... Just a little bit longer. I will hold on to life just to be with him... To love him even just for a short period of time.

“I love you, I love you, I love you. I will never regret taking this risk with you, Erevell. I will love you... Until forever ends...”

He gave me a hug, and I did the same. That’s when I just found out that each and every single one of the people in the park is now staring at us, their eyes full of tears as well. I never thought that I will gain a lot of sympathy... That this one single confession can change my life forever. People care... That’s why I learned. This world is still beautiful. They just doesn’t know that someone like me, someone out there is suffering that is why they can’t extend their help.

“I promise to take care of you, Erevell... I won’t live you anymore.”

“And I promise to love you until my last breath, Gab... You’re the only man I’d ever love... Until forever ends.”

And with that, we seal the moment with another kiss. I can’t believe that I am officially dating Gabriel Elizar. When Gab took me back to the hospital, he already informed my mother about our relationship. My Mom just nodded, seems very happy for me but a little bit scared for Gabriel. Maybe she already know what could happen because of our relationship. This might come to an end, just like everything else. The only difference is that I will be leaving earlier than them. When the night time came by, I finally got the chance to talk to my Mom, asking her if she truly had given her blessings to our relationship.

“Mom? May I ask you something?”

“Sure, dear. You can ask me anything,” she smiled me.

“About Gab and I... Do you... Are you mad at us?” I asked, revising my question.

“Of course not!” She stood up, before sitting at the edge of my bed. “Why would I? I mean, what kind of a mother am I if I tried to be a barrier to my own daughter’s happiness?”

“But Mom... I saw the look that you gave Gab earlier... It seems like... You’re giving him sympathy... Is it because I will be... Gone soon?”

“No, Erevell. That look... I just can’t believe how brave he is. For him to love you more than anything else despite the fact that you are... I can’t say it. I just couldn’t believe that someone can love you more than I do...” she cried.

“What do you mean, Mom?”

“Forgive me for saying this, Erevell... I don’t want to hurt you but if I have a choice whether or not love someone who’s dying, I would be running away... I just can’t... I can’t bear to watch you slowly dying, Erevell...”

“I can’t blame you for that, Mom. I will be doing the same thing... But just think about that... Everyone’s got a choice yet you chose to stay with me ever since I was a child...”

“It’s because you are my daughter... And I love you. I can’t imagine my life without taking care of you... Whom will I ever tell my stories soon? I can’t bear to lose you, Erevell... So please, stay with us... I’m begging you...”

After hearing he shattered voice, I began to cry too. All these time, my Mom is pretending to be strong as if she’s fine with the fact that I will be leaving soon. But the truth is, she loves me so much that she doesn’t want Gabriel to suffer the same thing that she’s been going through... She doesn’t want to share her pain, because she believes that as a mother, no one could ever love me more than she did. But Gabriel came... And I am so lucky to have the both of them. As realization hit me, I started to hyperventilate, before I completely lose my breath and everything went black.