Chapter 47

Andy's POV

“I know,” Jason said but none of us moved, we just kept staring at each other.

My body was so tense. I could not breathe- it was like I had forgotten how to. His eyes were dark and unreadable but I could tell what was going on in his head, I knew what he wanted. I knew he felt the same way I was feeling. It was written all over his face.

He looked away from me as he got up and came to sit beside me. Immediately he sat, his hands made their way to my waist and I didn’t stop him, instead I swallowed hard as his hand came in contact with my body- it was so warm and it seeped into me through my cloth.

I leaned into him and he did too like we were being pulled closer by magnets. My heart started racing faster as his breath fanned against my skin gently and I licked my lips in anticipation.

But just as our lips were about to meet, Jason hesitated. He took his eyes away from my lips and stared into my eyes again.

“Are you sure you want this?” He asked in a low and husky voice.

I stared at him blankly. I just wanted to eat him up. I couldn't even think clearly.
I nodded slowly before tugging him by his shirt.

I didn’t need to say anything and he didn’t wait a moment longer and he leaned in even closer.

His lips met mine in a haste- the kiss was slow and urgent and first but it soon became passionate and heated. Our lips molded into each other like they were meant to be. It was like he was pouring all his feelings into the kiss because it was so intense and within minutes I had forgotten how to breathe.

Jason was kissing me like his life depended on it and I kissed him back with the same fervor. His hand left my waist and snaked up to my hair as he pulled me even closer leaving no distance between us. I let out a low moan as he tugged on my hair gently while the other pressed against my waist gently. I felt ecstatic and I wondered why I had waited this long to finally lose myself in his kiss.

I really did not care that we were still in the library. I did not care that anyone could walk in. Frankly, my brain felt like jelly and so did my knees. All I could think of- all I could think of was the feel of his lips on mine and his hands on my body. My body was burning and I felt like it was consuming me whole. I carried my hands and placed it on his chest and I felt his muscles tense under my hands.

He let out a slight groan, I almost missed it, and the sound went through me and straight to my core, turning me on. I wanted more. I needed more.

Without taking his lips off mine, Jason tilted my back and I leaned against the sofa as his hands slid down to grab me by the hips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and drew him even closer to me as we kissed even harder than before. His lips left mine and I could see how red they were. He bent his head to the crook of my neck and pressed his lips there. He kissed me while sucking on my neck, he traced kisses down from my lips to my collarbone.

His hands didn’t stay on one place- it was everywhere, in my hair, on my neck, on my face, on my waist- every fucking place and my body burned under his touch. My knees were weak, I was moaning uncontrollably and I knew I was losing control too. It was both too much and not enough at the same time.

Just as Jason's hands trailed under my shirt and close to my breast, I heard the sounds of someone’s footsteps approaching and I froze.

Jason must have heard it too because he pulled away from me so quickly and we were both gasping as we tried to catch our breaths. I was still leaning back in the chair, my lips swollen and my hair a mess and I could feel Jason's eyes roaming all over my body.

The footsteps became louder and I knew whoever was coming was closer to us and as I tried to sort out my jumbled up thoughts, the door was opened and a woman walked towards us.
The librarian from earlier.
When she finally got to us, she eyed both of us suspiciously.

“How are you doing? Are you enjoying your time here?” She asked but I could tell that she was trying to figure out why we looked like that.

I quickly shifted away from Jason and brushed my hand through my hair to fix it- it was a complete mess thanks to hin running his hands through them. My heart was still beating wildly against my chest and I tried so hard to remain calm. Jason finally took his eyes off me and turned to face the woman that had interrupted us and gave her a tight smile, which was enough to tell me he didn’t like her intrusion. He had rented out the place anyways.

“We are fine,” he said in a controlled voice which was the opposite of how he made me feel. “Just… enjoying the books.”

The librarian's eyes narrowed and she looked between the both of us. I knew she had probably figured what was happening because with my swollen lips, scattered hair and flustered face, there was no hiding it even if I tried to act like nothing was happening before she showed up.

“I’m glad to hear that. If you need anything, don’t hesitate to call on me,” she said warily as she looked at us one more time before turning around and walking away, closing the door gently behind her.

As soon as the door shut, the room became tense and I felt suffocated. The air was thick with unspoken words and I just sat there staring at my hands awkwardly. I could still feel Jason’s lips against mine and his hands on my body and the fact that he was reaching up to my breast before we were interrupted. I wondered how his hands against my nipples would have felt, maybe it-

No Andrea! Get your mind out of the gutter, I said to myself as I shook my head while letting out a shaky breathe.

“What the fuck… what the fuck..” I muttered to myself under my breath.

Jason just sat there not saying anything but I could feel his eyes on me. My skin burned under his intense gaze and I started feeling uncomfortable from the whole silence and awkwardness.

“I don’t think I can pretend any longer,” I said to myself again as I ran my hand through my hair in frustration. “I don’t know how much longer I can pretend that I don’t like this man,” I admitted to myself as I let out a small groan.

Jason looked at me in confusion. “What? Did you say something to me?”

I shook my head in disagreement, my heart still racing. “No, I didn’t,” I said quickly as I made to stand up.

“ I- I um… I am going to get some books so we can finally leave”

I didn’t wait for him to reply as I hurriedly walked away from him. I could not bare to be in his presence any longer. I needed space from him so I could think. I could still feel his haves on me.

What the actual fuck?

I couldn’t believe we had almost crossed that line. The line we had been toeing for weeks. I mean, we actually did cross it. And as much as I hated to admit it, I liked it and wanted it to happen again. The way he had touched me… kissed me… ugh.

Could I really risk it all? No I can’t, I said to myself as I shook the thoughts away. I couldn’t let myself fall for Jason, not when it would only complicate everything. Not when Bree was his daughter and my best friend. Not when everything between us was already so precarious.

I found the books I wanted and let out a sigh as I picked them.

“Andrea?” Jason called, his voice drawing me out of my thoughts. I had not heard him walking to me. “Are you through?”
Oh the way my name rolls off his tongue…
God help me.

“Yes… yes I am,” I said without turning to look at him. “Let’s go.”

He didn’t say anything. He just nodded as I turned to him and we walked out.

After we had paid for the books, we headed to the car, none of us saying anything.