#18

“my dysfunctional family is one of my dark truths… right now I don't think I am ready to face those issues… how the decisions that my father makes keep coming back to bite me in the ass”
At this moment my eyes were glued to the ceiling while I fell with my back on my bed. Thinking about all these things and I realized there are things I wanted to do for myself. Everything felt like my life was already decided for me and I had no say in this matter.
“ I wish I was never born into this family” I exhaled as I mumbled,
“ maybe life wouldn't have been this tiring”. All this got me tired and sleepy. As my eyes close I am trying to imagine a better world for myself, Where I have a loving family and my life is very normal and easy but I know I might never have that.
I am in a dream again, this time I am in a small apartment. I seem to be all grown. is that my wife and kids are looking very happy. My mum is in the backyard trimming the garden. Wow, my father is sitting in the Porsche reading the morning newspaper.

“Children get ready for school” my wife smiled at me at the dining table. “ Yes, mother!” “Have you done your homework?” She scolded them for not picking up their plates.
This felt like a movie, something like summer, calm and peaceful. No worries in the world. It feels like all those American comedy movies where the family is happy and their issues don't seem so dysfunctional, even though they don't get each other there is still much love around.
I woke up to realize I had slept for four hours straight. “ ahhhh… look at the time, Emma is waiting for me” I paced around the room to try to find my shoes.
“ Are they under the bed?”
I searched and searched and found Andre's slippers, not my shoes. I went outside the door, then I looked down and saw mine too on the floor. It seems like it’s been worn for while I was asleep.
There were grass stains on it. I knew Andrew and most likely wore it. I was so pissed but it was a little time to think of how to Pissed I was Horse my phone was filled with missed calls most likely.
Emma had been waiting here for me. Andre was fast asleep. I didn't want to wake him. I had no time to wake him and complain. Raced to the toilet to clean my shoes with a rag cloth then I wore it. and jet out the door to go to Emma's dorm some blocks away.
Getting to Emma’s room I met the door open, I met Emma in her study area that faces the Wall. I moved closer to her and placed my hands on their shoulders.
You startled me, she said, reaching for the pen on her table she then threw it at me. “Ouch”
“Yeah, that serves you right… scaring me like that” “What are you studying for?… any test coming up” “not really but I have to be prepared always”.

Her face changed from a smile to a frown “ so why were you late I had been calling… you didn’t see my missed calls?`` She wore a sad face “ Was asleep, my day was shit and stressful.”
“ I was attacked by a Mob of protesters today “ moved her head backward in surprise. “Shit… I didn’t know that happened to you today. I am so sorry”.
“It ended up fine at the end of the day… someone helped me out of there”
“really,” Emma said intrigued “so I made a new friend today” I moved toward her bed “He is the son of a janitor in my high school” “Everyone in school loved his father,” I told her his story with so much enthusiasm.
“I never heard you talk about someone else this proudly” she smiled with her full attention on me. “like I said his son saved me from the mob today”
stared at the ceiling in silence for about a minute.

“ seeing as your day was so stressful. Let me make it better!” She moves closer to her music player and she starts to play some Marvin Gaye. she dims the lights. she done slowly walks over to my side dancing to sexual healing.
she slowly pushes me onto the bed then she climbs on top of me then lap dances me slowly. I was so anxious because I was still a virgin I'd never told her before. While she gave me a lap dance there was so much tension and build-up while she kissed me that I started kissing her back.
My hands slowly move over her waist, then down gripping her ass.

“Take it easy on me James”,
I felt so many urges rushing down from my head to my spine. All I could think of was how I wanted to be in bed with this girl and give her pleasure with every energy in me. I have never felt anything like this before. I reached to unzip her pants. She then took off my shirt and started kissing my neck then moved her lips closer to my chest, licking my belly down to my waist. She pushed me flat on the bed then went closer to my thighs and went down on me. I felt like I was in heaven as her mouth went up, and down. She perfectly performed what is called a blowjob on me. My jaw drops stuttering all through while she takes me from Heaven to earth and back multiple times all over again so many times.
She then proceeded to mount me and ride me as I placed one hand on her breast caressing it and the other holding her waist slightly closer to her buttocks. At this point, I had no hold on my urges. I wanted more of her.

“God damn it, you are so sexy”
I screamed out in pleasure as I moaned and took pleasure from hearing her moan as she bounces up and down on my manhood.
“Take me James… take meeee…yes James… yes James”
She increases the speed of motion. back and forth, up and down her pace is continuous and steady.