Chapter 21) His Tears and Her Pain

Six months later :-
Pashika was alone in the dark room. Six months had been passed from that horrible incident . Arjun was still missing from the house. That day was the last time when Pashika was him.
"Jaan ! I'm sorry"
Pashika remembered him saying these words before leaving her alone in the room .
"Could a sorry make things perfect ? ... ,, Pashika asked herself and got answer in big 'No"
"Why he always lost his senses?" ..... ,, Pashika sighed
She didn't know when he came and when leave the house. He made healthy meals for her. Gifted her flowers, chocolates but she didn't forgive him. Her hate for him was more stronger than anything.
Pashika's health was not good. She frequently feeling dizzy, sometimes she fainted and nobody knew.
Pashika was bored and nothing to do. She was watching TV and obviously the current sensational news was about her husband.
She was seeing him after six months . He was looking devilishly handsome in his indian attire while attending a pooja (prayer) for his business partner's baby at the lord Ganesha Temple.
Her eyes welled with fat tears and heart pounded fastly. Pashika had feared of Arjun and at the same time feeling relieved to see him safe and sound. She knew that what Arjun did to her was sin and became another nightmare of her life.
But there was an strange waves in Pashika's heart , especially the way he left her with only word 'Sorry' and disappeared from her life .
But what was making her uncomfortable was his doting nature . Arjun didn't stop doing household cores for her that showed how much he cared for her .
This small actions of Arjun forced her mind to think about his Possessiveness actions and dominating words . She was worried about him when he didn't appear infront of her again after that night and now Pashika was waiting for him to return to home.
Pashika was missing Arjun terribly. She didn't even know why she was thinking about him. Maybe because he was ignoring her or he was always around with beautiful women who begged his attentions.
"Can I forgive him ?" .... ,, Pashika asked herself and She didn't know the answer of her questions.
Arjun was determined to know about Karthik and Pashika's past. He was guilty of his behaviour so he was maintaining a safe distance from her to clear his jealous mind and heart.
He spends only night time staring at her gorgeous face longingly . At morning he made meals for her , kissed her forehead lovingly and left quietly from there.
ARJUN POV:-
I feel disgusted myself. How could I behaved so BEASTLY to her. I hurted her again and again , time to time. Obviously She would hate me . I vowed to protect her but I tried to snatched her dignity.
I know I am cruel BEAST but not for my Jaan. I am ashamed to go infront of her. I always see her in night. Whole night , I stared at her beautiful face. I kissed her forehead lovingly and leave her at the morning.
I take care of her meals. She looks pale and weak and that's all because of me .
I'm helpless . It's hurt to know that she doesn't like me . I am not the first man in her life and what pierced my heart is truth that 'KARTHIK' that man was her fiance.
I feel liquid on my cheeks and then , first time in my life I realise that I am crying.
I see my tears. I can feel Her PAIN but I can't show her MY TEARS
End Of Arjun's POV :-
Its been an another week now and still Arjun was behaving like an idiot to her. He didn't appear infront of him but doing each and everything like a doting husband. He cleaned the house, do laundry for her, Cook delicious meals for her and gifted her surprise gifts.
Pashika was Furious at him.
She knew he was wrong but he never properly apologised her for his scary , abusing behaviour.
Day after tomorrow was Haritalika Teej . (Hindu festivals that are celebrated by women for long life of husband). Pashika obviously saw the news at television because neither she left the house nor she had cell phone.
Typical Arjun never provided her any kind of communication. She was hell angry at him.
Angry Gorilla .... ,, Pashika murmured angrily
Pashika finally made her mind to confront him for his hideous act , beastliness and irresponsibility towards her .
"How could he leave me in the damn Ghostly pent-house and came late in midnight , stared at my sleeping face?" .... ,, Pashika said as She was well aware of his little secret that Arjun always stared at her like a creep while she pretending to sleep .
"Mr. Arjun Kashyap! Just wait and watch to see the real Mrs. Arjun Kashyap" ..... ,, Pashika said determinedly and waited for his return
Following his same routine , Arjun entered into the house very late at night . He took soft steps towards his room . He stepped inside the room and stood infront of his lovely wife.
Arjun admired her beauty. Arjun's heart saddened by the second he remembered his animalistic behaviour towards her . A pang rushed all over his body .
This six months was hell for him. He didn't sleep properly because he was addicted to her . Arjun took proper care of Pashika but forgot about himself. He looked grumpy and frustrated all the time . Even Porishma and Neil started to maintaining a safe distance from him and his beastly anger.
Arjun thought that Pashika was sleeping so he bent little bit and kissed her forehead lovingly and said "I LOVE YOU".
Arjun filled his eyes with her reflection and was about to move away from Pashika thn suddenly a hand grabbed his wrist caused him to got stilled . He turned around and found his Beauty was looking at him with her big brownish eyes .
Arjun was dumbstruck looking at her because it was the first time when he saw her angry . She was looking so furiously sexy with cute frowns and pursing lips . He understood that she was pretending asleep.
At other side , Pashika was angry at Arjun's misbehaviour and finally asked "Suniye ji ! Where were you?"
Pashika stared at him and Arjun didn't lifted up his head to look at her . That incident was still in his mind that made him guilty and ashamed.
"Why are you ignoring me? If you want to ignor me then why are you taking care of me? Don't make meals for me . Don't clean the house or anything. Its your house I am an outsider and I will do the household chores from now. If you're bored of me then told me. I'll never disturb you. And yeah give me my cellphone back. How would I contact you in the case of emergency. And please say something ji , dont stand like a statue"... ,, Pashika stopped talking and Arjun stared at her dumbfoundedly . Her statement confused him .
"How could she be so calmed talking to him. Did she forgive him or forget about his animalistic act ?" .... ,, Arjun thought
Say something ? .... ,, Pashika asked as her heart was beating abnormally faster than ever
"I'm not ignoring you . I am busy in office" ..... ,, Arjun cleared his throat and said to her
"This is your house . You aren't an outsider . You are the owner of this house" .... ,, Arjun said and his eyes were searching hate , disgust in her eyes for himself but found tiny bit of worry and anger
His words create a giddy fluttering feeling in her tummy . She immediately shook her head and asked "Ji suniye!
I want to go to the market for buying something tomorrow morning . Would you like to come with me?"
Arjun's mouth was sealed as his eyes were staring at her and mind was blank .
"And yeah I don't have any money with me because you didn't even gave me chances to took my salary" ..... ,, Pashika acted normally to him and there was a small smile was dancing on her lips when she talked to him
But , due to her normal calm self , Arjun was about to faint. Pashika smiled while talking him . His heart was hammering in his chest . He wanted to hug her tightly and kissed her senselessly but he calmed his nerves down and simply looked at her
"Arjun . . Arjun Ji" .... ,, Pashika called him . Arjun froze at that moment he heard his name from her mouth
"I want to hear a proper apology from you. Say Sorry to me Otherwise forget about to do anything for me ever . I'll start doing household work by myself" .... ,, She was shy at first and scared at the same time but trying to make a straight conversation with him.
She asked him to apologise for his BEASTLINESS as Arjun saw glossiness in her eyes . Arjun gulped down nervously and suddenly a single , big , lone drop of tear fell from his eyes as he opened his mouth to speak "I" and stopped again
"I'm. I am sorry Jaan for everything I did to you. Please forgive me. I'll kill myself if you ever hate me Jaan. I vowed to protect you but look what kind of husband i am ? Who hurt his own wife. I tried to ruined you. I feel disgusted to myself Jaan. I'm truly sorry" ..... ,, Arjun said and Pashika was staring at him
"I don't like when you give smile to anyone. I hate you when you ignored me. I wanted to kill you when you said that you like that Karthik. I want you only for myself. You're Mine and I love you damn much that I can even die for you without thinking anything or anyone. I have only you. You're my family Jaan so stop pushing me away. I know I am a BEAST but not for you. You're my everything Jaan. I can't live without you . Fuck I can't even sleep without you having you in my arms" .... ,, Arjun spoke without blinking in a breath as Pashika continue to stare at his teary eyes
Arjun's words showed his was Possessiveness for her and now she felt a new kind of BEASTLY OBSESSION in each and every words of him. Suddenly , She calmly smiled . Pashika was shocked to his tears .

Surprisingly , Pashika did tipped toes and planted a kiss on his forehead and then wrapped her arms around him in comforting manner.
Arjun stiffened by her sudden gentle gesture . That kiss and hug was enough for him to live his whole life without complaining to her that she didn't even like him.

Pashika was shocked as well by her actions . Smile, happiness and tears were filled in their hearts and minds as it was their first peaceful moment to remember.

"I forgive you Ji but please give me some time and space . it's my request to you. My past was not good so give me some time and I will tell everything specially about Karthik".... ,, Pashika said while directly looking at him . His heart was warm by hearing her reason but Karthik's name clenched his heart

"I know you like to be dominant but I am your wife so stop dominating me. It's my promise to you that I'll never betray you or leave you because I'm not like someone who broke their own promises. I can handle your anger and possessiveness but don't ever try to control me".... ,, Pashika said clearly and there was hint of threats too .

Arjun wanted to interrupt but she gave him a look that made him scared.
At other side , Someone was coming to took away Pashika from Arjun.

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