Chapter 35) Miserable

**"If you love someone,
Then you're willing to sacrifice
yourself...
If you hate someone
Then you plan to make sacrifices themselves"
Arjun Kashyap
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At the Hospital,

Pashika POV :-
I'm looking at my sexy husband. He caged me in his arms and ducked his face in my bosom...
Aah I can't understand men and their obsession with breasts. The more I tried to free myself, the more he tightened his grip on my body.
He is different, a totally different creature of God. The way he loves me, cares me, carries me , hold me , scold me and even his angered all are symbol of his obsessive love. His or his beast's possessiveness and dominance behaviour always scared shit out of me.
His beast is passionate. He and his beast , I love both of them equally. I love to wake up in his arms. I love to run my fingers in his thick black hairs. He is snuggling more into me.
I Still remember the day when I get a call from hospital about my dadu that he was fine and out of coma but my husband was not there with me.
He went to NY for emergency meeting. I rushed to hospital without thinking about anything. Thanks to heaven that Porishma di came with me. I met grandfather and lost myself in his warm homely embraces .
He enquired about me. I told him everything except the fact of my marriage. I didn't say anything about my marriage because I was scared that how he would react to the matter of me being married when he was in coma.
Doctors told me it would be shocking for him , so avoid informing him. After a few minutes of discussion I felt extreme pain in my lower abdomen.
I felt that my death was coming to take me and then suddenly I fainted. I woke up from the sound of someone shouting.
I heard so many familiar voices and I opened my eyes and saw Porishma di was crying holding my hands. Bhai (Neil/brother) and Mr. Davis was there too.
They were looking at me with concerning eyes. I didn't understand why they were reacting like this but my mind suddenly stopped when I saw him.
My husband.
Who looked like a wild beast, who was ready to kill anyone. His eyes were moist, red and puffy with dark circles. His hair and suit were messed up. He runs towards me and gave me bone crushing hug.
I was scared Jaan!!! I thought I would lose you!! .... ,, he panickily said to me.
I was simply staring at his eyes because I didn't understand the whole situation. Why they were all behaving like this. I simply smile at him.
"I'm okay ji ! I don't know how I fainted. But yeah I don't feel too good. My body feels different. Maybe because of the overexcitiment but My dadu is good now . I'm so happy" .... ,, I said to him but he hugged me tightly and started inhaling my hair.
But after this , slowly slowly, everything starting to change.It been a month now and I want everything to normalise but nothing is actually simple here. My sudden unconciousness makes my life different. I don't know why I thought that I lost something precious.
And most importantly, My husband is changed now. specially his behaviour not exactly but something is really weird. I felt that he is with me but not mentally.
His body is there but he lost his soul. In this one month, he distance himself from me. He cooks meals like asusual but something is off in his behaviour. He stop making love to me. He never come close to me.
He stopped touching me like I'm a fire and he'll burn if he touches me. When I fell asleep then he comes to hold me. It's irritating me now. I wanted to talk to him but he started to ignoring me and that's hurt alot... Hurts like a bitch....
Whenever I tried to talk to him. He makes a excuses that he is busy or has important meeting to attend. He spent most of his time in his office and at home , in his study room. I'm confused by his sudden change of behaviour. What he want or what he wants to do with me.
Today I am going to meet my grandfather and disclose about my marriage. I simply hope that everything would be going smoothly. I hope dadu would understand me. I wish my husband would go with me too.
Suniye !! I'm going to hospital to meet dadu. Will you come with me??? .... ,, I asked him. It was like a request
I'm busy and yeah I'll come late at night. So don't wait for me. eat your dinner at time and take your medicine. Good bye !! .... ,, He said without looking at me .
Suddenly, he turned and i was still processing his words.
He kissed my forehead and went away.
A lone tear fall down from my eyes. That's enough... I don't know what is my fault that he is behaving this way. I cried whole day without taking food and medicine. I'm hurt ......
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In the evening, i went to meet my grandfather in the hospital
Dadu how are you?? Missing me haa?? ... ,, I said to him
Mera Baccha kaisa hai?? (How are you my child?) See your dadu is all fit and fine now. ... ,, He asked me
Yes dadu you're doing very good. I hope you'll be able to walk on your feet Very soon.... ,, I said
Sure baccha.... Shikkoo you want to say something??? ... ,, He asked me
dadu .. I wanna say something important to you so please don't get me wrong and try to understand me okay?? .... ,, I was nervous to tell him about my marriage
Baccha what's wrong and why are you hesitating so much to share with your dadu. Tell me what do you want to say .?? .... ,, Dadu asked me
Dadu woh actually I am married and it's 1 year of my marriage. ... ,, Finally , i told him
Her dadu was staring at her keenly. She was getting impatient and badly missed the presence of Arjun. She wanted Arjun to present with her when she'll talk to her dadu but his cold behaviour makes everything hard for her.
Dadu please say something? Are you judging me again??
No baccha I'm not... I'm thinking about you. How lucky you are to get a husband like Arjun who loves so much. I'm happy Baccha very much that you found someone who loves you madly , protect you deeply and care about you passionately. ..... ,,
Her Dadu was smiling at her but she was shocked to listen to him.
What ? How ? When ? Who??
Her mouth was wide open and didn't form words to asked him clearly. Her dadu was laughing at her reaction. He cares her hair and said...
Pashika I know that you married to Arjun Kashyap, the youngest business tycoon of India last year when we got into that Crash. He was the who admitted to us in the hospital and took care of everything like our hospital bills etc etc...
Right?????
Pashika nodded her head.
And then you both fell in love and married.
Pashika !! Arjun himself told me everything about your marriage last week when he came to visit me . so don't worry. I am not judging you. Actually I am quite happy that when I was not there with you atleast someone else was with you to support you, protect you and love you. He is a good boy and loves you madly.
She smile at her dadu and left from there.Pashika was stunned at the revelation. Arjun supported her but not directly. She was not feeling well. Her legs were became jelly not able to stand on them. Her head was paining too. When she was about to fall two strong arms protected her. She inhaled a very familiar scent and closed her eyes. She felt that he kissed her forehead and said "I love you" in her ears.
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I'm feeling bored . There's nothing much for me to do. He did everything for me. It's one week now when I last see him clearly. I'm getting worried about him. I want to see him. Let's go to him and asked him about his problems.When I go to his office. All the staffs were looking at me with respect. No one dare to say something inappropriate to me. Di saw me and immediately hugged me. I asked about him . I saw some hesitation in her eyes but she said nothing to me. Bhai was in meeting and my hubby is in important meeting also so I decided to wait in his cabin so I get into his cabin without knocking and I saw my night- mare sitting so close to my husband. Rubbing her dirty hands on his shoulders. I was shocked and my breathing get fast and heavy. I was about to collapsed on the floor but bhai scoops me in his arms. What she is doing here with my husband and in his office.My days are miserable but here my past is infront of my present.
Fiona Jaiswal !!!!!!
Sitting so close to my husband and that jerk is enjoying the pleasure very much.
They got startled to saw me . Specially my husband. Tears were started to forming in my eyes but I was controlling them. Alots of questions were starting to come in to my brain.
What she is doing here?
Why he is so close to her?
Are they cheated on me?
My husband didn't love me?
Is this the end of my marriage?
Bhai is also there? What they're upto??
Why my pain never leaves me alone.
He saw my panicked form and quickly held me in his arms but I didn't. I was scared of everything. Is she here to stole him too just like she stole Karthik from me .. I pushed him and simply said "hello to her 'with my fake smile "have a nice day" to him and left his cabin. I don't know where I was going but someone pulled me and I crashed into his chest. Yes he was there, try to hold but I slapped him. No one, no one loves me.... He hurts me again. What and why she came back into my life... She hurted me too.
I hate them , Everyone . I screamed. But no one is there with me to hold me to support me.Why my life is so miserable. I hate myself.
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