WHITNEY

"We would be together until death would take us apart, believe me, I will never leave you, you are mine as I always said" Addams expressed with a sincere look, I knew he meant every word coming out his lips.

At those words, I couldn't help but cry louder, I tried to wipe the tears down my cheeks and retain the sob but it didn't work.

His words gave rise to all the guilt I felt, It showed me how cruel I was acting toward him, how heartless I was toward the man I desired.

However, I would succeed to make my heart accept it was for everyone's sake as I forced my mind to approve, it was just a matter of time.

I couldn't allow myself to kiss him, there was something that retained me, the way I let Mr. Wilson touch me.

A week had already passed over, I was now close enough to Mr.Wilson, and I could now execute my plan.

Throughout the week, I found reasons to go out without Addams, and all this time I was with this asshole who assumed the role of his dad.

Addams was suspecting something but every time, he concluded he would leave the time I needed to handle my mother died.

Sometimes he got angry, and the moment later he came down, sometimes he shouted at me and the moment later, he apologized.

He couldn't suspect I was flirting with his papa, and his dad was as delighted as I had ever seen anybody on earth. As if he took pleasure in hurting his child.

This week has been the worst we ever face, as things were going to the worst with the son, the dad was trying to comfort me and he thought he was the one manipulating me.

Every time we were together, he tried without any success to kiss me and try to have me in his bed. Who did he think I was?

I always told him I couldn't since I hadn't put a break with Addams, I spent most of my days with him and he started believing in the sincerity of my words, it was everything I wanted.

He trusted me when I told him everything I wanted was to always be with him and that the only thing that stopped me was my mother's presence.

Petterson was the one encouraging him and it helped me because it seemed that Mr. Wilson had great consideration in everything this man proposed.

The instant I feared came, the moment I had to face Addams and put an end to the suspense in which he was lost.

The moment came to tell him the reason for every suspected behavior I showed, why I was so aloof.

As I arranged with Mr. Wilson who wanted to witness the moment as proof of the sincerity Of my love toward him, this assumptive love I had for him. I had no other choice than to break up with Addams in front of his father.

"I have a meeting today with your dad, and I want you to be there, we have something to clear" I opened my mouth to utter those words to Addams who was lying on the mattress looking at me.

"What is it about?" He questioned, with a glance that expressed how tired he was of my behavior.

"You will understand everything there" I added.

Since the first moment, Mr.Wilson dared touch me, I didn't leave the opportunity again for Addams to touch me too.

I thought I was no more worthy to be touched by his delicate and pure hands but he couldn't understand.

He decided to leave me alone until the moment I would calm down and came back to discuss with him as a couple should do.

Though what he wasn't aware of, was that it would never happen again, the path I had chosen didn't accept a coming back, and what I was chosen to do would be unforgivable even for him and all the love he had for me.

He was my soulmate and the first man to ever touch me, but, we wouldn't have a future together.

"When have you fixed the meeting with my dad?" he asked

"It isn't important, just understand we just have to be gathered today" I responded

I saw him exhaling air, a sigh, he was angry he didn't like the tone I used to talk to him.

"Sorry..!" I apologized

"It is important and I need your presence" I added, going to take my bath.

I was afraid of how Addams would behave when I would tell him, I felt nothing for him, that his dad was the one I wanted

The scene at the bar could be repeated, and I didn't want something bad to happen, not to the man I loved.

During the little moment I spent with his dad, I noticed a grudge he had toward his son. Petterson was the one initiating everything, I always thought about it but I couldn't find the motivation he could have to incite Mr.Wilson against his son.

I was under the spread of water, and I suddenly felt Addams presence behind me throwing me out of my moment thinking.

He wrapped his hands around my waist, pressing those lips I didn't deserve on my neck, I deserve nothing, not his kindness, nor the affection he showed.

"Why are you like that with me Luna? You don't have to carry it alone" he told, passing his hand through my body, caressing it, as only he knew how to.

I closed my eyes led by the lust his touches bestowed, I missed these cuddles, I missed the soft palms of his hand on me.

He kissed me from my jaw to my neck, telling me how he missed that moment when we were intimate.

I retained my tears, I couldn't be weak, I couldn't, not now, not after everything I went over.

I gathered all the courage I could find inside my gut "Stop it please, I ain't in any mood to be touched please" I said with my heart sliced, broken.

He didn't force something and went out of the hall, getting ready for the meeting with his dad.

I put a hand on my mouth to not let the sob be heard.
'I should be intrepid, there is no coming back ' I spoke for myself, with a little lament inside my voice.