WHITNEY

He kissed me, passionately, driven by desire, I struggled to respond and simulated to feel the same passion he felt at the moment.

After an instant of kissing, my head was on his shoulder and he was kissing my neck, going up and down on it.

I almost let a tear roll down my cheeks. I was thinking of Addams, of my Addams, I thought of the way he used to touch me.

Of the softness of his lips on me and the way he knew how to use his tongue to make me moan and cry out his name.

I missed him. I loved him, and I was ashamed of what I was doing, ashamed of leaving another man to touch me.

As his hands were going down from my ass to my thighs, I felt how he carried me on his arm inching to the mattress, which made my countenance face him again.

I immediately regained this face simulating the pleasure he thought he made me feel.

"How do you find it?" he asked with a kiss on my lips.

"I adore" I responded going with my lips on his neck.

He shivered as I softly bit his neck.

The only way I found to appease the disgust I felt was to remember that everything I made was for my mom, for my parents.

It was the only thing that retained me for not collapse.

He walked with me on his arm and laid me on the bed. I looked at him and at this moment I just wanted to kill him right there, to try to kill him in this vulnerable state he was in.

But I remembered it was a punishment too easy for him to endure. Killing him would be a bargain for everything he did.

He tore my gown off, leaving my bra out, my chest was shaking, and the air was hard to find, I was shocked, I couldn't believe I was the one doing it.

That I was the one going to fuck up with the man I hated, with the murderer of my mama Mrs.Lucas and the one who killed my parents.

Hell no, I couldn't. My heart was racing faster as all these thoughts passed over my mind.

You aren't this kind of girl, the she-angel on my shoulder whispered into my ear.

What should I do then?
I felt his tongue on my nipples, he was sucking them, playing with them as if they belonged to him.

All of this was for Addams and if he couldn't have it nobody else would have it.

I blocked his hand as he was trying to find a way to my pussy.

"Wait a while please" I uttered.

"What is going on again?" He begged, irritated by the situation.

"I can't right now" I expressed coming out of his possession.

With a sigh and a grasp on me, he replied "What is the problem again?" he tried to force a kiss.

"Do you want to rape me now?" With an effort to come off his grip again and a raise of my voice, I blurted.

"Addams would have never done such a thing" I didn't realize when I let this statement escape my lips.

He stopped abruptly and looked at me "Do you always love him?" he growled

He growled inching toward me, with a gloomy atmosphere surrounding him.

I was scared, he could have done everything to me at the moment, however, I stayed as calm as I could.

"Stop pretending things or trying to misunderstand what I am saying" I spoke, looking into his eyes.

"I am just saying Addams would never force me to have sex with him"

"Nothing more"

"I have already explained I was with him because of my mom, I wanted to make her feel happy"

"I had never loved him thus stop with this ineptness" I reformulated.

"Can you, therefore, explain to me what is going on?
Why can't you make me feel this pleasure?" he interrogated lowering the tone.

"I am just afraid" I stated

"Afraid?" he repeated

"Yes, do you think it is easy to handle? Being fatherless, with a huge fortune and I dared compliment myself with also a beautiful face."

"Do you think it is easy?"

"I am the target of almost everybody. Every social climber will look to me, and most of them could love me because of my wealth"

"It is something I am afraid of"

"Being used and abandoned after"

"But I told you how much I loved you" he interrupted me.

"I know and I love you too, but what I need isn't words, I need some proof, some physical proof"

"Understand me please" I succeed to make a tear drop down my jaws.

"Since my youth, I have been used by every dude with who I dared express what I felt"
It was a lie, the only man I had ever loved was Addams, but every trick was useful to escape from this situation.

"I don't want it to happen again" I continued

"Just show me, I can have entire faith in you and all my being will belong to you" I took him for a hug, tightening him on my breast.

He was silent, looking at me with understanding, all this anger have being appease.

He loved me, that was the mistake he made. I would use it to my advantage.
"You are right, you know nothing about me. Sorry darling, I can feel the way you feel" He agreed. Oh my gosh, heaven was with me.

He took a deep inhale of my scent, resting on my hug, his face on my boobs.

After a moment, his lips mumbled
"What do you think of discovering the other business I have?" He demanded

"I want to share with you everything I am, all my being."

I shrugged, hiding the enthusiasm his words provoked "It would be fine honey" with a kiss planted on his forehead.

"Thus, now, you will start working with me"

"I don't care about how wealthy you are, or how much you have inherited"

"What I need is to be with you, I love you more than anything else and I will prove it to you"
Wow, I hadn't expected this reaction so early.

"Thank you, honey. I love you too."

"We will start working together to conquer much more than we have now, my office and my businesses all are yours"

Always in my hug, and my head on his shoulder, my eyes were widely opened.
Every step I made took me closer to his defeat.

And I had to hurry things, I didn't know how long I would succeed to make him understand he had to retain his impulse of having sex with me.

I couldn't fancy feeling him inside of me. Just the thought was awful.
Addams was no more with me, though I had to honor him.