WHITNEY

I broke Addams, his heart, his soul, his entire being, and whatever could maintain him alive.

I retained my tears with an unexpected strength coming from nowhere, seeing Addams fighting with his dad, shooting Petterson, and the way the others present in the hall treated him, all of this because of me.
I was a monster.

I didn't deserve him, If there was any other way to take my revenge without hurting him, I would have followed this path as fast as my sense would alert me.

I didn't have another choice, I was so sorry, I would never see the smile on his face again, this smile I always cherished.

This face I had loved was now the one I made frown, these hazel eyes that always look at me with love and all the best wishes of the earth were now the stare that looked at me with anger, disgust, and regret.

The thing that tormented me the most was that I couldn't be at his side, I couldn't appease him, I couldn't.

I was obliged to be to his dad's side, this fucking asshole, I was now obliged to be to the side of the man I hate instead of caring about Addams and tightening him into my arm and confessing my whole feeling toward him.

Tightening him, pressing him on me, and passing my hand through this curled hair to tell him how I loved him and how much I missed those moments spent at his side.

"Please go and take a rest, you are exhausted," I said, helping Armand to go to his compartment after the previous scene, he needed to repose himself.

"How can he dare hit me, this guy had no notion about respect" he responded.

"I am his dad" added he.

"He was just irritated, the way he received the news wasn't easy to handle" I immediately replied.

I couldn't bear the way he was talking about Addams, as if he was the wicked one, everything that was happening was because of him and he dared put it on Addams.

We entered his room his bedroom, this room which would be the place where I would spend my nights. I made him lay on this mattress which was the one on which I would struggle to find slumber.

I would never find appeasement on this mattress, never I would succeed to close my eyes knowing I am wrapped in this man's arms.

I helped him to lay himself on the bed, after the hit Addams gave him, he was no more in a good physical disposition.

"Thank you," He said, lying on the bed, and he took me in his arm, wanting to make me lay on his side.

"You proved the sincerity of every assertion you have uttered," He said pressing his lips on mine, he wanted to kiss me, but I didn't kiss him back, I couldn't my heart didn't allow me to.

Those lips belonged just to Addams.
Damn, but after what I did he would never forgive me.

My heart didn't deserve love, it seemed nature was against me, for the first time I started taking pleasure in what life offered me it ended as fast as it began.

My heart was swollen as I thought of this man's lips on mine, trying to match them, and he put his hand around my waist and tightened me to be on top of him.

He immediately whirled on the bed putting my back on the mattress, he was looking at me with a peek filled with lust and burning desire as if he had waited for it since we met for the first time.

He kissed my neck, coming down to my breast, with a hand that started unbuttoning my shirt willing to show out my bra.

He kissed my breast but before he could do something more, I stopped him with my hand on my breast which started buttoning it again.

I stopped him instinctively, I hadn't yet found the excuse I would give him, my mind was with me.

He sighed at my action and I try to remove him from the top of me

"What is the problem? You love me as I do and you have already broken with Addams. You are now mine, let us feast on what happened now, everything had already been settled" he pronounced, unaware of every dagger his words hidden, of every hit hidden behind everything he pronounced.

I couldn't take the risk to evoke any skepticism about myself, not now, not after everything I sacrificed to be there, to be this close to him.

I drew a smile on my lips, pulling into the bottom of my heart every anger I felt, I kissed his neck and whispered into his ear as glamorous as my voice could allow me.

"We have our whole time toward us, we are now together, and my mother is no more there to force me to be with someone I don't appreciate" My heart was bleeding as I uttered every word.

"I am now yours, my entire being, what I belong to you"

"Thus there is no hurry, for now, you have to rest and I will take care of you," I said laying him on the bed in the most delicate manner I could offer my being to.

He lay on the bed, pressing a kiss on my cheek before closing his eyes, for a slumber.

I inched to the exit and closed the door behind me, I climbed down the stair as fast as my legs could allow me.

I traversed the living room and headed outside, I walked into the yard looking for a deserted place, I wanted to be alone, just me with the silence.

I found a place, I stood there, my stare directed to the sky, tears didn't drop down my cheeks, they ran down as if water was poured on my jaw.

'SORRY..!'

'Sorry for everything my love, sorry for the pain Addams, sorry for the hurt, and everything I make you feel.'I cried out, with my stuttered voice, it was the only thing I could say apologies, I had just to apologize.

'He will pay, he will pay for the tears he made fall on your precious cheeks.' I sternly expressed