Chapter 16

CHAPTER 16

JADE

I've been living in this house like an outcast for a few weeks now, I don't talk to anyone, the rare times I talk to someone is with Angel, or with the housekeepers
Gianni leaves the house very early in the morning and arrives very late at night when I'm already sleeping, plus it's not in great shape lately, I don't feel well, I feel like I'm depressed, this is probably what plays on my health...
So I invited Mila to spend the day with me, after that it will be much better...

Mila: What are you doing lying in the dark?

Me: Is that the color of my life right now?
She opens the windows to let in the daylight, and comes to sit next to me

Mila: Are you sure you're not pregnant?

Me shocked: but it's impossible, stop talking nonsense, plus I don't have any pregnancy symptoms thank God

Mila: you have denied this idea so much, normal that you don't have symptoms even if you did, when you called me I went to get pregnancy tests

Me: but it's absurd, it's really absurd it's impossible that I'm pregnant

Mila: So come by and take the test so we can be clear

Me: ok I will do these tests….
I take the tests and I head to the bathroom but I had a big lump in my stomach, I'm so scared that his doubts are true, I pray with all my might not , my life is so complicated lately I don't need any other sources of stress, oh my God...
I finish the three tests and I joined her in the bedroom, I sit next to her, I bit all my nails, the seconds are as long as the hours, I feel like a person who has passed an exam and waiting for the results, I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest

Me voice trembling: but it's not over yet?

Jade: For someone who's convinced they're not pregnant, you're really stressing out

Me: and you're stressing me out even more
I pick up the three tests, and the three results are the same, I'm seized with a violent nausea, I run to the bathroom to relieve myself, I can't believe what's going on, it's not is not possible, there is surely an error
I sit on the floor in the bathroom, I don't know if I should cry or be happy, a child is a miracle and a blessing in everyone's life, but on the one hand, he has I had to get pregnant with the wrong person, what the hell is going on here?

Mila knocking on the door: how are you in there? I can enter ?

Me: yes come on in

Mila closing the door behind her: Are you okay?

Me: how can it be ok tell me? I don't even know what made me sleep with him that day, I really don't know what made me do that

Mila: stop putting yourself in this state if you did what you did it's because you love him, stop hiding your face let your feelings run free, revenge will not bring you any good, and today that you're pregnant with him you should drop that thought, have you ever paid attention to the way he looks at you? This man he loves you, and let go, do it for Angel and your baby, give them a stable home

Me: Are you asking me to forget my sister and all they did to her?
Mila: Unfortunately, your sister is no longer here, and she didn't make all those sacrifices to make you unhappy the rest of your life, she would have wanted you to be happy, plus it's not Gianni who left your sister pregnant with him, you can't punish him for something he didn't do, it's unfair

Me: Life isn't fair, someone's gonna have to pay for what happened, he helped his dad so he's as guilty as he is

Mila: I hope you change your mind, and don't put those kids in such an unhealthy environment...
She helps me up and I take a shower, I get into bed...


GIANNI

Tonight I decided to go home instead, despite all the work I have, I feel the need to go home, I miss this little witch so I take my things and I go home, I spend at the nursery to see Angel where I meet the nanny who tells me that she hasn't met the madwoman all day, I wonder what's wrong
I go to look for her in the bedroom to see if she was there, she was lying curled up on herself and sound asleep, she is so beautiful and calm, if only she could be so when she is awake, if only...
I put my things down, I'm going to take a shower before I wake up for dinner, but when I open the drawer of the cupboard near the bed, I was very surprised to see several pregnancy tests, all positive, I sit in the armchair ready for the bed waiting for her to wake up, I think that a discussion is necessary
After half an hour later the beauty in the sleeping wood wakes up, I wonder what she could have done to sleep so much, when she opens her eyes her eyes were all swollen with a puffy face, it looks like 'She cried

I'm alright ?

Jade: Why won't it be okay?

Me: the face you have tells me absolutely the opposite, it looks like you cried

Jade: give me a reason not to cry, stop with all these questions please….

Me giving her the thigh tests: maybe this could make you happy

I see from her look that she panics, she picks up the pregnancy tests that I put and gets out of bed

Jade: I don't see how that will make me happy

Me: I'll be more clear with you, are you pregnant?

Jade: No I'm not...

Me getting mad: If you're not pregnant who are these pregnancy tests then don't get on my nerves I'm warning you

Jade screaming they ain't mine I told ya

Me trying to control myself: whose are they then?

Jade walking towards the exit: You let go of my sneakers, do you understand? They are in Mila
She goes out and leaves me standing there which makes me really angry, When I go out she was already taking the stairs, I follow her too

Me screaming: If they're not yours I hope you don't mind me taking you to see the doctor first thing in the morning

She turns around to say something but everything happens so fast that until I realize she was already on the floor, lying there, I run to join her at the end of the stairs, I try to wake her up in vain

Me in total panic: jade, jade, please wake up...

Jade in a barely audible voice: my baby, my baby……
Tears bead her face, I'm so angry with myself, I really don't know why I followed her up the stairs, I'm the adult here, and I should have let her go and confronted her with another time, why did I follow her at this exact moment
I pick up a phone and call the ambulance, I try to talk to her while waiting for the ambulance to arrive, I hope nothing will happen to the baby or I will never be able to forgive myself

Me whispering in his ears: please hold on, nothing will happen to him, nothing must happen to him, please forgive me, forgive me….