Chapter 27

CHAPTER 27

JADE

I told her that I had signed the divorce papers, but so far I haven't so I have to take my courage in both hands and sign them, this story is already over and I'm here. alone not, accept it even if I find it difficult to accept the truth, I must move on at some point or another
I take the papers out of the bag, which I sign as quickly as if it burned my hands, I have no desire to read what they wrote on it, now he can do what he wants with his life , the most surprising thing is that he himself hasn't signed it yet, I don't know what stopped him from doing so but I don't at all want to know
I put everything in my bag and I go to get ready, I'm going to go to the hospital before going to work today, I'm really in a hurry to meet my baby for the first time, I'm so happy and in a hurry, I I feel like I've been waiting for this moment for ages it's really weird, I'm not hungry, I try to take some fruit juice but I can't, all I want is is going to the hospital
I put down the glass, I take my things and I set off after making sure that I have closed the door properly behind me, I take a taxi to the hospital, for someone who doesn't really like hospitals I surprise myself
Looks like I was a little early so I sit in the waiting room waiting to be seen, a few minutes later a nurse approaches me

Nurse: Hello ma'am

Me: Hello!

Nurse: Looks like you're a little early for your appointment, but the doctor is going to see you

Me a smile on my face: thank you very much

She accompanies me to the door and leaves me, I knock then I enter the room, she receives me with a warm smile before asking me to sit down
I take a seat in front of her and I stare at her, I'm a little anxious and in a hurry I have a lot of questions to ask her but I don't want her to think I'm crazy so I'll take my troubles patiently

Dr. RODRIGUEZ: We're going to take some blood tests for you, I'm guessing you're nauseous

Me: no no, I don't have morning sickness at all, I just have weird cravings

Doctor: yes some women do, every woman has different pregnancies, is this your first?

Me: yes I'm really lucky not to have morning sickness, it's my second pregnancy, but I had already had a miscarriage

Doctor: What was it?

Me: by the way, it's due to a fall on the stairs so I'm a little stressed about this new pregnancy

Doctor: It's normal for you to be scared, all women who have ever had a miscarriage always go through it but everything will be fine

Me: I really hope everything goes well

Doctor with gentleness: don't worry, I will accompany you until this little bitch comes into the world, do you want to see him?

Me all excited: Can I?

Doctor: yes we can do the first ultrasound, you will hear heartbeats, at this stage you will only see a small weight, it is very tiny

Me: yes I want to see it

I sit down I open the buttons of my pants, I take off my insides and I go to bed, she applies a gel on my stomach, I feel a feeling of freshness on my stomach when she spreads the gel, she passes the machine I can't hear anything, I was supposed to hear my baby's heartbeat but nothing, it really worries me, puts me on my elbow
Me voice shaking: Is there a problem?

Doctor: no none, sometimes they decide to hide

She runs all over my lower abdomen but nothing, I start to read worry on her face, my God have I lost another baby, what's wrong with me? I pray to all the saints with all my strength to be able to hear it at least once but nothing, but just when I was starting in despair I hear a noise ringing so loudly in my mind, no I'm not dreaming, it's there my baby, I hear it, tears of relief escape me, I don't even have the words to describe the emotion I feel, my state of mind at the moment I won't be able to find the right words to describe them

The smiling doctor: Ah, here he is at last

She shows him to me on the screen, he's so small it looks like a bean grain, that's it I'm going to be a mom for the first time, I'm so happy, what's happening right now, a miracle s happened, I have my own little miracle, how beautiful
When we finish, she gives me some practical advice, I don't know anything about it so it will be very useful to me, she tells me to call her at any time when the need arises , I will follow her to the words, she will very often receive my phone calls
When I finish I take my bag and head for the exit, now I can go to work with peace of mind, I feel like I'm going to have a great day
I was looking for my phone in the bag when I heard it, must believe that I spoke too quickly

Gianni: what are you doing here?

Me surprised: so you follow me now or what?

Gianni: as if I had nothing to do with my day

Me: what are you doing here then?

Gianni: Am I allowed to go where I want?

Me: it's the same for me, so I don't have an explanation for you

He does not answer me anymore, and passes me, I call him and I hand him the signed papers, he questions me with his eyes as if he did not know what it was about

Me: signed divorce papers

He looked at me for a long time, and left without leaving me a single word, I watch him go without looking back at me once, I feel my heart tighten, even if I make everyone believe world that it doesn't affect me and I'm playing tough in front of him I'm really sick at the moment, I would really like him to take me in his arms and tell me that everything will be fine, but at the same time I find it hard to forget what happened, I don't want to beg for his love, I would so much have liked him to tell me so many things but no, pride and ego were right us or either him he never loved me like he claimed
It's the end of a chapter, even if I really want to cry I force myself not to shed a single tear for him, even if it hurts I have to move on, I hope to be able to heal from this love, I don't know what I will say to my child when he asks me questions later, but even if it's selfish on my part, I don't have the strength at all to stay close to his father in this moment is beyond my strength
I know that when you're a mom you have to think first of all about the good between your child, but I don't have the psychological strength yet to be ready for his dad, I hope to be able to overcome all that one day...

Gianni

I just met this crazy girl at the hospital, she had to play the cheeky little girl while I was worried about her, Boff, I really don't know what pushed me into the arms of a little girl, they are all like that, I have only to blame myself for falling in love with an immature little girl, God only knows what she came to do there. hospital it's his problem I don't give a fuck
I'm so frustrated that I decide to go back to work, I'll come back later, now I'm not in the mood at all, she wants war, she'll get it, I'm leaving, signed the papers, I'm going to do everything that the divorce is pronounced as soon as possible, isn't it she wants freedom she will have it, I go back to settle in my car and my driver brings me back to the company
When I arrive I bring out the papers which I sign in my turn, I'm sure this little witch hasn't read otherwise I don't think she would have signed it so soon, I'm going to make her life a real hell, she will understand that you should never try to play smart with Gianni DE LUCA, I was sure she was not going to read it
I have registered that she will not be able to get married before the next 5 years, she must not have a boyfriend if she still intends to approach Angel, she will have to visit him only in my presence, all the activities they do together will be with me, we'll see how she can continue to have fun with this guy
I was putting the papers in the envelope when the intercom rings

Me: halo

My assistance: hello sir, there is a Lady from Mila's name who wants to see you, she does not have an appointment but she told me that if I announce it you will receive her

I wonder what she is doing here, it's a little weird, I guess she comes to plead the cause of her friend

Me: let her in

I arrange the papers that I put in the envelope, and I sit well in my armchair, waiting for her, she comes in, puts down her bag and settles down

Mila with a face that does not reassure me at all: hello!