Chapter 36

CHAPTER 36

JADE

We pick up rose at her house and we set off for the hospital, she shows us the way I end up realizing that it was the hospital where Angel was born, when we arrive rose rushes into the hall of the hospital and soft, we park the car before going down, when we arrive at the entrance there is a force that prevents me from crossing the door, I remain static looking at the door

Gianni: how's my heart?

Me correcting myself: yes it's fine

We enter the hospital and go to the maternity ward where we find rose in front of a door

Me: Have you ever seen it?

Rose: yes but there is only one person who is allowed to come in so I preferred to leave them both

Me: come and sit then

She settles in, I prefer to stay standing here, I feel like I'm reliving that dark day, that day when I lost my one and only sister, there's so much noise next to me, I see the nursing staff running in all directions with patients, I turn around I see the wall where Gianni and I had our first altercation after the death of my sister
I hear more and more the noise coming from very far away, I feel like I'm in a daze, as if my soul was leaving my body my whole body starts to tremble, at one point I felt like a hand to rest on my shoulder and like someone talking to me from afar, the first instinct I had was to violently remove this hand

Me screaming all my pain: don't touch me

Gianni: but my heart what is wrong?

Me crying and my body trembling: stay away from me I said

My head is spinning and I have the impression that the ground is disappearing under my feet then it's the black hole, when I wake up I was lying in a room, I wonder what I am lay in this bed
Gianni approaching me: finally you woke up, are you ok?
Me: yes but what am I doing lying in this bed, and Mila gave birth?
Gianni: one question at a time, you passed out I think it's due to stress and no Mila hasn't given birth yet she's still in labor, it looks like you're somewhere else
Me sighing: no it's fine
Gianni: look me in the eyes, I start knowing you for a while, I know when it's not going well, and from the way you spoke to me before you passed out I know there is one thing who does not go
Me looking sad and embarrassed: this place brings back so many bad memories in me, a great pain that I thought I had already gotten used to but no, I feel like I'm reliving this horrible day, my pain is also greater than the day she left me
Gianni: I can't pretend to understand how you feel, I knew how close you were to your sister, how much you loved her, but I can assure you that I will do everything I can to make your pain less, you have to be strong for Angel, this baby who is coming and for me
You are our rock and if you let yourself be broken we all fall I know I've never really apologized but I so wish you knew how sorry I am for the way I treated you I feel so badly for having participated in making her even sadder than she was even if it was not what I wanted, I am so sorry for having been this noise with you and for having caused you so much pain, I should have behaved differently, I'm so angry with myself
Me cutting it off: I don't want you to feel guilty, I know that deep down you're not a bad person, besides it's not you who promised her my and wonder by disappearing and leaving her pregnant, he I just need a little time to be able to grieve, sorry for being rude to you
Gianni smiling: as long as it can relieve you I am ready to be the scapegoat my heart, know that I love you and am ready to do anything to make you happy
He kisses me on the forehead before laying Angel down next to me, I don't know why but I feel so guilty for being happy, and for being fine, I feel like I've given up on my life. little sister falling in love with him and giving up on this revenge I promised to do, I'm so confused I don't know what to do anymore

MILA
I feel like I've been here for long hours, the pain is getting worse as time goes by and I can't stop screaming my pain right now, I'm doing back and forth in the room to see if my pain will decrease but in vain
Me screaming in pain: ooooooohhhh my God it really hurts like hell, massage my back please
Adrian: like this? It's better
Me shouting: yes, yes, continue, don't stop
Its pulling me down and I have the impression that the baby wants to come out, I really want to push
Me screaming: the baby wants to come out, I want to push
Adrien in panic: what? Want to push?
Me screaming: are you going to call me a doctor or not?
He leaves to call a doctor, but I couldn't hold myself back I'm already pushing, when the doctor arrives he asks me to press my leg against my chest and asks me to push, after a series of pushes for a few seconds I hear my baby's cries, I felt so free and accompanied by a wave of happiness that invaded me
Doctor: congratulations to you, it's a girl, would you like to cut the cord
He hesitated a bit but I nodded and he did, we cleaned the little one and brought her to us when I took her in my arms I got a wave of shivers, she was so perfect, we were on a little cloud, this feeling is so beautiful that you have to experience it to understand it, I am responsible for this little being
Adrien: what do you want to call it?
I was about to answer when I hear screams coming from outside
Hilanne: where is she? Where is she ? How can she come and give birth to my baby without me knowing about it?
That was all it took, even on such a day he managed to stir up trouble and try to extinguish this magic, Adrien wanted to get out when I held him back, this little asshole won't be able to destroy this moment
Me turn to the doctor: I don't want this man in my room please
When the doctor comes out, I turn to Adrien to answer the question he asked me
Me turning to him: I want her to be called Darnell like my dad
Adrian: it's beautiful, welcome among us Darnell
Hilanne shouting outside: you can't prevent me from seeing my child, you can't, you don't have the right, he's my child, and it's up to me to be by his side, you don't you are not at all ready not at all...