Chapter 18

CHAPTER 18

GIANNI
We've been home for a few days, until now I feel she's a little distant, she remains closed in on herself, I don't want to rush her either, I really don't know how to behave with her. right now, I would like to give her her space, at the same time I would like to be able to support her
I decide to bring her breakfast in bed, since she doesn't eat or get out of bed either, put the tray down

Me kissing her neck: sweetheart, it's beautiful outside, you're having lunch and we're going for a walk

Jade: I don't feel like it, plus I'm not hungry

Me: you've been on a hunger strike for a while, if it continues I'll have to take you back to the hospital

Jade: try a little...

I push the tray, I lift her and I head for the exit, she will eat willingly or by force

Me: as you wish, you return immediately to the hospital

Jade shouting: no, please drop me off I'm going to eat

Me stopping in front of the door: if you don't want me to take you there try to motivate me to keep you with me at home

I plunge my eyes into hers, she seems so vulnerable and so beautiful at the same time, I will do everything to take away this sadness that I see deep in her eyes, she hangs her arms around my neck, I feel that she is not I can't decide despite the desire I see in her eyes right now, so I decide to go for it, I take her lips between mine, she lets herself go and responds to my kiss, I take her lips one by one , she clings tighter to me and runs her hands through my hair, I want to own her so much but I don't want to rush her, I back up and put her back in the bed, it looks like Madame is not satisfied since her arms are still hanging around my neck, which makes me smile

Jade: Why are you stopping?

Me: you have to feed yourself...

Jade: feed me then

Me: well let me get up then

Jade: You know what I mean, please don't stop.

Me: you don't have enough strength for her at the moment, when you have a little more energy, I'll make love to you as many times as you want, when you want and where you want my heart

Jade: so do it now
She kisses me for the first time on her own, I don't have to pray, I'll take her to 7th heaven whenever she wants

Sofia

I was in the kitchen this morning, I saw Gianni come to prepare a tray for this pimbeche, he and I have been dating for years, we lived under the same you but he never let me sleep in his room until dawn, he always sent me back to my room when he finished using me, I never had breakfast in bed or these little touches from him, he preferred to give me his card credit to make all the purchases I wanted
This peasant girl comes out of nowhere and he only has eyes for her, I won't get paid until I see these two hate each other

Me: I heard what happened to your honey, is she okay?
Gianni: yes

Me: Looks like she was pregnant, are you sure he was yours?

Gianni leaping on me: Dare to repeat a truck like that again and I'll cut out your tongue so I don't catch you repeating that kind of thing about him again

He comes out and lets me crash in the kitchen, I promise to do everything to get these two apart...
I was so mad that my hunger disappeared, I go to my room to get my phone I have to take care of this story right away

Me: halo

Moussa: hello boss

Me: Moussa, are you in the country?

Moussa: no boss, I went to visit the family, but if you need me, I'll come right back

Me: yes I need you for a job, come back soon

Moussa: okay I'm taking the first flight

Me: okay...

That crazy Gianni is going to regret having taken me for a nobody, he's going to beg me to come back with him, and that peasant girl, she's going to cry blood for believing herself to be above me, they're all going to to regret

JADE
Since I lost my baby I decided to change my mentality to get revenge, I want to stop carrying all this weight on my shoulders, I want to be this happy, I want Angel to be able to grow up in a holy environment, that 'he can be happier than we have been my sister and I, I want to be as happy in my life, I want to give myself a chance and if it is with Gianni so be it, I have surrendered realizing over time that he's a very bad person on the right but he's not a bad person and hating him was getting harder and harder for me, i can't blame him for all the unhappiness in my life, c It's not her fault that life has been so hard for me
He's been reaching out to me for a while, now I'm willing to take that hand and see what the future holds for us together
My heart starts beating for this man I hated all this time, I can't figure out how it happened, I'm not going to say he's the love of my life either, but I know that I am ready to open my heart to him, I so want to love and feel this love that I miss so much, I may regret it, I have a lot of doubts but I am ready to start
I never imagined that I could have felt so bad for losing our baby, a baby that was inconceivable for me to have with him, a baby that I had just known existed, I did not know not that I could have so much love for a being that I have ever known or had just learned of the existence
I continue to cry the loss of my baby, I know that I will not be able to forget it nor that this pain that I feel inside me can disappear now, but I am sure of one thing is that I want to overcome everything that, I want to have a family, I want to have other children, I want to have a husband who loves me, I want to be happy and I feel like I could do that with him, because when he look at me I feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, when he possesses me I have the impression that nothing exists around me, when he caresses me I have the impression of being a work of art 'art
I've never known such a feeling before, no one has hurt me so much or loved me like this man does, love visited me when I least expected it, he surprised me , he got involved and made me forget this feeling of hatred that I could carry
This man in whose arms I'm lying today gives me the strength to be able to love again, he took all the weight I was carrying and makes me feel alive again, is it an hour to give myself to him, is it a mistake to love him I don't know, but it's a risk that I want to take, I know that I can leave feathers but I don't want to lose these feelings that he's getting me right now, for nothing in the world
As they say, deciding to love someone means taking the risk of suffering and well today I am finally ready to take this risk.
I look this man in the eyes and all I see is benevolence and love, I intend to take full advantage of it before this dream ends, I cling to him and sleep in his arms... ..