Chapter 26

CHAPTER 26

JADE

I leave my aunt's house with a heavier heart than I was before arriving, I know that she's right, that she warned me and that if I had listened to her we wouldn't be here or I'm currently, but I wanted to try my luck and I lost it doesn't matter, I'm just going to do everything to move forward despite everything and go beyond all this...
I go home in a taxi, even if I go back to work it will be useless, I won't be able to get back to work, when I arrive, the first instinct I have is to go to the bathroom do the tests I took at the pharmacy
I admit that I was very stressed about this story, if he was able to call me unfaithful I don't even dare to imagine what he will think if it turns out to be true that I was pregnant, it would break my heart if he thought he was from someone else, since I haven't known a man since we got married, there's no point in making plans on the comet I know, but the stress pushes me to think about all that, my ideas can't be clear, the minutes are as long as the hours, I feel that time is frozen, which has the gift of increase my stress even more
I connect and I put on the music to see if it can go but no, I get up and I take the tests, I took 4 to be on the results, and all 4 showed the same results, it's final , i'm pregnant, i'm going to start by believing that this guy never misses his target, i don't understand how come i'm still pregnant in such a short period of time
I feel like I always got pregnant at the wrong time, I know it's really inappropriate to talk like that but I didn't expect to have a baby under these circumstances, I expected it to be in happier times, the arrival of a baby is always a source of joy, and to consider it as the divine blessing but at the moment I can't take full advantage of this joy
This news gives me hope, the hope of not ending my life alone, the hope of a less gloomy future than what was expected of me being alone, it will allow me to continue to fight every day. that God will do so that this little being can grow and flourish in the best conditions with or without a father, despite everything that will happen I will do everything to have this one, I refuse, I forbid myself to lose another baby
I take my phone to tell him the news to Gianni, but I can't, my throat is knotted, I hang up on the first ring, my heart was beating wildly, I was so afraid of his reaction and what 'he was going to think that I abort this idea, I prefer to keep this news for myself even if it's selfish, I prefer to do it, I don't want to have my heart more in pieces than it is I already have, if he takes this news badly or insinuates that it is not from him I will not be able to bear it, I do not have this strength in me yet
When my phone starts ringing, my heart starts beating even more, I was, as they say, paralyzed, I don't know what I was going to say if I answered this call, I was watching her ring the bell Thinking until the call cuts off, I think it's better that way
I'm crying all alone without really understanding why, without being able to get my hands on what was making me cry, I hate myself so much right now, behaving like a kid, I would have liked so much to be impassive not to flinch in the face of this situation but I can't do it

GIANNI

I'm at work as usual, I try to concentrate as much as possible on work, even if it seems a bit complicated for me, despite everything that happened I still miss this little one, I would like hated her so much with all my strength but I can't, despite all the anger I feel I can't hate her
I sometimes resent myself for continuing to feel this love for her despite what she did to me, despite the fact that she stabbed me in the heart, it rarely happens that I am wrong in business, but in love I'm like a little child, I don't know how to deal with it, I think that if my mother had lived longer she would have taught me to manage better in love but alas, I gave it my all to this girl, but she left me with a bitter taste, that I should have focused on my work instead of trying to invest myself in a relationship
I try by all means to get in touch with her, it's stronger than me, I can't help myself but it's difficult to find a valid reason for contacting her, I thought about it anyway I found nothing, I wanted so much to hear her voice that the only excuse I found was to send her the divorce papers, I knew relevant that she was no longer living with her aunt but I still sent her to find an excuse to get in touch with her, I expected her to try to convince me to forget her but she accepted so quickly that we would have said that it was was a relief for her to break free from me
When I see her call today I had hope that she changed her mind, I know it's really stupid of me but part of me still wants to be with her, I'm calling her back too early to know the reason for her call, but when she answered it sounded like she had been crying

Me worried: did you cry? What's wrong?

Jade ironically: why should I cry? I have no reason to

Me disappointed: ok, you called me

Jade striking a pose before answering: yes yes, I wanted to inform you that the papers were already signed and that you could have them as soon as possible

Wow, I didn't really expect that, I didn't expect her to break this news to me, and the ease with which she says it sends shivers down my spine, who is this woman ? I really realize that I'm really a jerk for continuing to think about her, while she's enjoying her life right now with someone else, how could I be so dumb?

Me: send the papers as soon as you can, we will be freed from this burden very soon and everyone can resume the short course of their lives

Jade: yes you are right

Me: you should send them straight to my lawyers, I'll sort it out with them

Jade: Don't worry, you won't have to stand my presence anymore, you will soon be freed

Me: that's all I want from you, out of those I have to do, goodbye!

I hang up on him without waiting for his answer, I really want to type in something, how could I let this portion of woman come to make so much mess in my life?
How could I look in the mirror after allowing such a person into my life? Love is not for everyone, I will never tell a woman with the sweetness and sensitivity that my mother had, no woman can come close to her and I really fucked up thinking that I had found this woman
I prefer to go for a run to let off steam, I put away the files I was working on and I go home, I'm going to finish them there

Mila

Today jade was nowhere to be found, she left without telling me, it was her assistant who told me that she had already left, I think what I told her could upset me, I'm sorry so much to be at the base of all its
When I get home the first thing I do is go see her, her door was open so I walk in, she was lying there with puffy eyes, I know someone who cried all day

Me: what's wrong? That's what I told you this morning?

Jade: you were right, I'm pregnant

Me gently: When my fiancé left me overnight because I was pregnant, I thought my world was going to fall apart, I thought I couldn't get up again but I was wrong, there's no it's hard to be a single mother, we are superheroes my darling, we will have to play the role of father and mother but the reward is extraordinary these little beings will love us all our lives, but you do not need to pass by that, you have a husband who loves you more than anything and who will be ready to let everything go to start a family with you

Jade: I believed his but for a moment, he sent me the divorce papers

Me: does he know you're having a child with him?

Jade: I couldn't tell her that, I tried but I couldn't I told her I had signed the papers and was going to send them

Me: but why did you do that, don't you think he has a right to know?

Jade: I'm really scared he thinks this child isn't his, it might break my heart, I'm so scared, plus he was so liberated to hear that I had signed the papers, he did not even try to fix things, he is determined to end everything

Me: I think you're mixing things up, I'm not defending him but I can understand his reaction, you know as well as I do that men are beings with a very high level of ego, and the seeing these images of you with another man was a shock, I find that his reaction is a bit excessive but try to put yourself in his place

Jade: I would have given him the benefit of the doubt, I would have trusted him because he is my husband, and in our marriage vows I promised to be with him through all odds, and that the duty of spouses is to support and love each other

Me: you speak with the heart of a woman, we are often ready to face anything for the people we love but this is not the case with men, their ego pushes them to make decisions that are not very objective, but you shouldn't play his game, you should be more mature and try to work things out

Jade: As long as I'm willing to do anything for him he should be able to do the same for me, a relationship is a two-way street but not a one-way street

Me: stop being so stubborn jade

Jade: forget it, the landlord called me today to give me the keys, I think this week I will move into my apartment

Me: you know very well that you can stay here as long as you want, there's no rush

Jade smiling: I know my darling, you have already made enough babies, it takes up space, we have to create our own little cocoon for him and me

Me: You're right, but I'm going to miss you a lot you know?

Jade: I'm going to miss you a lot too but we'll see each other everyday you know? You will endure me for a very long time

Me laughing: that's all I want...