Chapter 13

"Simon, do you notice anything about Jezel these days?" I asked Simon and we are in the Gazebo. We were in a different section but he saw me and invited me here. He even looks like a bad trip.

"Nothing. She didn't want me from the beginning. I’m screwed Rox. " He shook his head and drank his mineral water. Jezel left for a while so I had time to talk to Simon.

"Maybe she's just making sure you don't have a woman anymore Simon.Jez hasn't had a boyfriend yet, so it's weird for her. " I was dazzled by the sunlight in front of us. It was very hot in the field but at night it was also cold.

"No. Maybe she wants someone else Rox. I know the woman's movements . Jezel is easy to read."
I don't know but when I saw how he looked at Sav. There seems to be a gap in our closeness.. She has been like this since the beginning of her vacation.

"W-Who is it? You think?" I ask.

His forehead furrowed. "I asked her when what qualities she wanted in a man she said it wasn't me. It hurts so much to hear that Rox! She added that she like as matured and wants success in life. I know about her! Annoying! " Shit!

There's something heavy inside my chest. Please don't. I don't want to be paranoid but for the first time I saw her smile different on Sav compared before that he is just didn't matter to her. And she knows the state of Sav and me! I like my uncle! Fuck!


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"Are you okay Rox?" I snap back when Jez call me.

"Oh! Here you are."

She smiled and stepped aside from me.
"What are you thinking?" she asked. I looked her in the eyes. I made sure as before that what she was showing was pure truth. She smiled at me.

"Oi! What are you thinking?" She laughed.

I tried to smile and shake my head.. "About Sav." I said. I feel her stilled and looked away. There, I got you.

"Why?” I looked at her carefully but she tried to distract herself with her notebook while our classmates here in the classroom had their own world.

"I realized I didn't want to lose him." I said emphatically and stared at her. "I love him and he loves me too remember the time we went to Nana Sena's province? He confessed that he loves me so much. We know it's wrong but we love each other."

She stopped looking at her notes and looked back at me. I can't read her anymore. Her difficulty of comprehending. It's weird when you're being betrayed because even her personality becomes invisible.

"Don't you think it's fine?" Mixed chisel ,she asked. I laughed mockingly. I'm nervous not because of nervousness but because of anger. I already know that she likes Savier too! Fuck it!

"Of course it's fine. If it's wrong in people's eyes , we can make our own world and our laws. He will fight for us. Why? You seem bitter ? Don't make a habit of it because it hurts. " I laughed as hard as before so that she would think it was a joke. But I know not.

She blinked and laughed "That's ..Uhmm you’re kidding!"

I shook and waved my index finger. "Oh, no. You really know me Jez. You're the only one who knows about this huh. When it spreads. You're really my only suspect and no one else."

She nodded and pouted. "Of course. Your secret will be safe with me. Don't worry. "

I patted her head. "Good girl. You're really my bestfriend." The last words is full of sarcasm.

When our teacher came in ,we fell silent. Jezel did not leave my side. Our teacher Ma'am Gozar announced about that there’s a visitor from Germany so we have to nominate our Ms. And Mr. St. Dominic . So this January that will be done.

"So, any one who would suggest Ms. Campus 2018?"

My classmate's raise his hand. "Roxette Dela Rama Ma'am!" They immediately shouted and whistled and the women applauded. I just smile and look at Jezel. She was just focused on the front and serious face.

"That's good! That's also what I would say. Any one?" Ma'am said but there is no more ..no one raised their hand. I smiled sweetly! Gosh! I love pageants! The gowns! The jewelries!

"Ma'am" I stopped imagining and looked at Jezel. I am so shocked.

"J-Jezel? " Jezel raised her hand.

"Are you serious Jezel?" It seems unbelievable what our Ma'am said. I saw her grip tight on her ballpen. What's the matter. What's with her ?!

"Yes ma'am." No one spoke to us. We were all quiet. I bit my lip.

"Okay, so no more? 'Who's going to vote for Roxette ?!" Ma'am said and almost everyone raised their hands.

"Okay, so all hands are on Roxette so It means Roxette is our nominee as Ms. Campus 2018 in the fourth year batch!" Ma’am said cheerfully.
Jezel ran out in tears so I also went out and chased her.
She entered the girls comfort room so I followed.

"Jez!" I approached her and looked at her teary face.

"Is it wrong that I just want my dream to come true? Since the first year, you've always been the one of crowds favorite Rox! In Miss Intramurals! In Miss P.E! In Miss sports wear! Also in Miss Campus ?!"

I bit my lips. I looked at her crying in front of me. I don’t know what I want to prioritize over how I feel. I feel sorry but I want to be angry. Did she just say that in the course of time? Since then she has been my supporter to everything!

"Jez! What are you saying?"

She wiped away her tears and held my arm. "Can you say no? I like to be the campus 2018!”

My forehead creased. This is not so effin’ good. "I can't Jez. Our classmates voted me!When did you stop supporting me from what I want? This is not so you anymore Jez!"

She fails to let go of me. "Why are you like this? Jez?" I said almost in a whisper.She has been my friend for a long time but why did she suddenly change.


"I'm sorry Rox." She cried and hugged me. "Forgive me."

I hugged her back. "Hold on. If you have a problem. Say it."

"No, I'm just….sorry." She cried. I don’t know why she double meaning sorry to me that she seems so guilty.