Chapter 21

I don't want to be happy if after all of this is suffering. I didn't expect this one.. But what I did not expect is just too soon. It’s hard to fight especially if you’re on the wrong side and you’re up against the right.

A week ago. I locked myself inside my room. I didn't meet nor talk Caleb's family at that time. I felt so numb that time. I can't forget Savier face. I want to get lost and get mad. I was embarrassed, angry and hurt. My Eyes widened while staring at the ceiling. I already looked like a white lady because I wearing a white nightgown. I haven't been well for a few days.

Will Caleb be able to tell dad? He said my secret is safe! But then, it was all useless. Dad already know about us. But why is that ?! The door opened slowly, dad was carrying a tray of food. "You need to eat, hija."

I haven't talked to him for days even to Aunt Anna. I heard that Marrie had arrived the other day. I averted my eyes and got up. My tears rolled down again like a pool. The painful feeling came back. I could feel my chest throbbing with pain. So much.

"P-papa." I sobbed. He looked at me sadly. He sat slowly beside me. His hand stroked my hair and wiped away my tears.

"I am doing this for your sake. You know that." He said.

I bit the trembling lip and bowed. "Then don't do this to me." I whispered tremblingly. I can't speak out loud. "I love Savier papa. I love you so much-"

"Goodness Roxette! Do you know what you're saying?" he seems hard to say it. I looked my fathers face. He look so problematically. "You can't love each other! You're my child! He's your uncle! Roxette! I gave everything as your father, didn't I? Why is this? Where did I go wrong? I know you're having a hard time! Do you also know I'm having a harder time? I am trying my best so that others don't find out !I’m doing it for you. ” His voice trembled before he bent down and wiped his face.

"I-I-I don't know what to do, hija. If your mother is here, I hope it won't be like this." In the end I realized he was crying. My dad's crying for the freaking first time. Now I realize what's the consequences of our sinful love story. We hurt the people around us. If I hadn't been tempted now, Jezel and I would still be friends. I am busy in my school and having a relationships with random boys like before. If I could only turn back the time. If I could only pull back the arms clock. If I could only do a spell in my freakin’ heart. Coz’ maybe now Melody and Savier are married. Maybe, now I don’t hurt my family.Maybe now ... I'm happy. Am I happy?

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I cried and hugged him. I felt so comfortable. If another father maybe now I have heard too much insult. But my dad remained silent. Although I want to blame him for what he did to Savier. I am so sick to ask if what happened to him.

"H-How's Savier? P-Papa you don't need to hurt him like that!"

“I know Savier hija !If he wants you he will fight! That was his lesson. He knows better than you. He can think better than you! I felt so unrespect from what he did. If he respects me he'll think that's wrong! That's why he wanted to keep an eye on you since you was little because he's obsessed with you. That's why he doesn't seem to have any plans to marry Melody because of you. " He told me frustratedly. He wiped away the tears and looked at me seriously.

"D-Did you two." His eyes glazed over as he looked at me. I looked down guiltily.
"Damn it !" He shouted madly and tweaked his own hair. Like he knows already.

"S-Sorry .... sorry." I didn't do anything and just groaned in my palm. I missed him so much. My heart missed Savier. My mind been occupied thinking of him.My body longing for him. My whole system is betraying myself so what can I do?

Dad held my hands covering my face. "You're the only one I have with." His voice trembled.
"I do everything for this family, for you. " He bowed before looking at me again." Our company were failing. I made a mistake. " My eyes widened. Our company has been slaying for almost a decade and now .... why? I thought he was fixing it.

"I lost to Casino hija." Dad told me. I saw him with fear in the eyes. " I sold our lands and ships. I even copied Savier's signature. I felt sorry for his property. Hija, I will be imprisoned if I don't pay for it. I was addicted to gambling. I owe a lot ... not a million ... but more than a billions. " Now, he was crying so much. "I - I dont know what to do anymore. But family Santiago willing to help us." He looked up at me.

"I thought their company was going to sink?" I asked.

He shooked his head. "Business world is full of wise people, hija.You have to trick and treat to get what you want. That's how it is. " Now I understand. My system is shaded of so much emotions. I feel sorry for my father's problem that I just found out about. I'm angry at what he did. But I know whatever I do I can do nothing.

"Does Savier know this p-papa?" I almost groaned with frustrations. I am so stress with problems now.

Dad shook his head. "I got his name involved so he might be jailed too. We're both going to jail. It's not just what I owe him. Mondragon loves to play dirty.I don't know what I'm going to do anymore. " I just looked up. I am so tired to cry but I couldn't stop crying from what I found out.

So I am the only one that can help them. Marrying Caleb is the solution. Can I avoid Savier? Where is he now? Shit! I dont know anymore. I just want to sleep all day to forget this damn shit!

I blew deeply.
"Let me think papa." Papa's face cleared at what I said.

Two months have passed and the vacation is over. I was in the car while Caleb and Marrie were next to me. We enrolled at Montemayor University. We are in our first year of college. Caleb always visited the house. I didn't treat him so well. I also notice Marrie’s quietness. She didn't annoy me like before. It's also good that she took a vacation.

Caleb opened the car door. I did not took a look of him. In the passed months I felt so lifeless. I am silent the whole time. I never really went back to where I used to be. Every night when I am alone ... I ended up crying on my bed. I do not have cellphone. I also don't get out without Caleb. I also have body guards. This is so much of bulshits!

"Come with me." He tried to reach for my hand but I rolled my eyes at him.

"Don't touch me!"
He took a deep breath and annoyingly nod. "I'll pick you up later." he said before leaving.

I saw how Marrie stared at Caleb. "Your soon to be fucker is annoying. Tss." She said before I was stopped from walking. " You want my help?" she said to me suddenly. "I'll help you." She whispered before turning to my body guards one after another.

"W-What ?!" I was shock from she says.

"I saw Savier outside. Oh! You want him don’t you? I'll help you on one condition." She smirked like a bitch witch.

“What condition?"

She caressed my elbow before whispering.
"Don't tell Caleb. Give me his number. That's all ! You want to get rid of him right? "

I liked her plan but I thought about the consequences. Papa and Savier will go in prison. I shook my head. "N-No fucking-"

"Yes fucking way!" she said vigorously to me and pushed me away. "Leave before they will see you! Sav is there! He knows what to do ! Grab this chance or else you will regret this. I know what your secret. How many times have I caught you but I remained quiet . So go away. ” I never thought she would do this!

I ran out of the gate. I'm afraid my bodyguards will catch me. I’m already bumping into the incoming students. I tried to search Savier at sea of students outside the school. I run and run. I was looking for his car but nothing. A few minutes passed in finding but nothing really. Fuck shit. My tears fell immediately. I am too late. Why didn't I see him earlier? I know he can't get close to me because of my bodyguards.

My heart racing so bad and my tears pooled. My vision blurred in despair. This chance maybe never meant for me. Feeling weak I decided to go back inside of school. I heard one of my body guards shouted my name. They haven't really seen me but I haven't talked to Sav yet. I saw how Marrie clung to the neck of that body guard just to stop them. I smiled bitterly.

I walked back weakly and wiped my tears.
I thought it's too late but then someone grabbed my hand. A hug wrapped around me. I sobbed on purpose and hugged him very tightly.

"S-Savier." I cried in my arms as if complaining. '' Sav .. ''

"Sshhh." I felt him lift me up. He didn't look at the people and buried my face in Sav's chest. I hugged him so tightly. He kissed my hair and I heard him open his car.

"We're leaving. We're going to avoid them all. I miss you so much." he whispered in my ear before he slid me inside the car. I still don't want to let go of him when I hug him even when I'm sitting down.

He laughs. "We'll elope .. This is all I can do. I won't bring you back to them. We won't come back .." he said softly before closing the car door . He leaned over me because I didn’t want to untie the hug around his neck. He caressed my jaw before kissing me full of heat. I could feel the rush of his eagerness.

"Let's live simply. I'll leave everything I have here. You're just enough Roxette. You're my treasure." I cried even more but was cut off when he kissed me again.