Chapter 19

I can't breath properly. My muscles are shaking. Seeing that is how Sav look Melody? I feet like someone took away my world.
I know there is no permanent in the world. Friends who betrayed you, yourself in this world are not permanent too. But Sav? He is the one I want to stay in my world. I want to cage him in my world. I want to build our own world so that no one will judge us. What if my own world is someone else's world?
I gathered some air just to ease the pain. I locked my door. I want to be alone. I want to think. If only we could do a miracle once, we could both. But ofcourse in our world that is wrong. I silently stared at the stars in the sky. The moon was alone there but remained beautiful and glowing.

"You know moon, you look like Savier." I talked to the moon as if that could answer me. I smiled bitterly. "No matter how I admire and look up to you, I could still never reach you. I can't touch you like I want to. I can't reach you because that's impossible. We are impossible. "

Another bullets of tears came out. I wiped that off. Then someone hugged me from the back. I close my eyes to the heat of his body. I felt like I was suddenly lonely. I felt afraid that in an instant I might never feel such comfort in his arms again.

"Roxette." He whispered on my ear. His warmth breath made me shivered. I hugged myself and held on to his sinewy arm.

"S-She's back.." I said painfully. "How about me?"

His hug tightened and he cursed softly. "Nothing will change let me handle this." I took a deep breath and looked back at the cloudy sky. The moon has been covered.

"I can't afford to see you with her. I am jealous. I'm hurt." I told him bluntly. I have no time to pretend that I am okay. Much better he knew.

"Shit! I didn't know about this." he buried his face in my neck.

"What are we gonna do now?" in a small voice I asked.

"It's still the same. I'll bring you. You can also come to the condo if you want. I'll work in my condo, with you. I'll bring my work home."

"But your fiancé- ''

"She's not my fiancé anymore Rox." he cut me off.

"That's not what I know! Then make them know that!"

"Of course I will! As long as the problem comes stay by my side." I know that part ofcourse. I know there is a big problem here. Now my head hurts because of all this mess.

I nodded slowly. "I locked my door why did you enter?"
"How could I not want to come in if I knew you were hurting?" The way he says those words amazed me. I really own him that much huh?
I confronted him. I was just more amazed at the this man in front of me. His dark and handsome face really look so intimidating. The seriousness of his face added to his appeal. His height and massive body really fits him.

"We will fight, right?" I touched his jaw just to feel his stubbles.

His face lit up and he grinned a little but bit his lip.
"We will." He steps forward. I was leaning against the porch railing.

"I love you Sav. I love you so much." I closed my eyes to stop my tears.

I heard him cursed.
"Bullshit! Me too, baby. I love you too. Fuck." I could hear him swearing in delight. Who doesn't because I just said I Love You to him so that he is so emotional.

I clunged my arms on his neck and squatted to reach his lips. I kissed him softly but like before. He kissed me back torridly. He gripped tight on my hair so my lip lifted. He kissed me more at different angles.

A few weeks passed until it became a months . I celebrated at home a family dinner for my graduation. I will celebrate my debut in a few days. My classmates were happy so they agreed to have a drink.

"Bye Rox ! See you later. " Kaori told me that I was getting close as a friend.

"I'll text you later if I am allowed to go. It's on Twilite, isn't it?" I asked. They nodded and said goodbye to me before leaving. The whole month I ignored Jezel's presence. There are times I see him texting Sav simply .

"Hi!" She texted that to Savier but Sav did not reply to that bitch. I want him to change the number but I don’t want to be clingy. He's old and he knows what's wrong and right.

Also in the past month. Sav's time was divided. I will admit that I got mad but I am trying to get matured. Just to fit in his world. He split his time with me and Melody. I hope my patience will not last… not until today.

"Hello Sav?" I called Sav.

"Yes, baby?" His voice is tired.

"You're not at dinner…It’s my graduation today. Maybe you forgot. " I said. I made sure he could hear that in my voice that I’m sad.

"Shit!" I heard him cursed softly. "I'm sorry.You know, Melody-"

I groaned. "It's always Melody Sav! Come on! I miss you! We haven't seen each other for a week!"

"Baby, older brother Henry knows how busy I am."

My blood boiled. I am so done being so understanding and pathetic girlfriend. "Fine.You really have no time for me." I say weakly. "Why would I even push myself on you with a fiancé?"

"What are you up to, Rox?" his voice raised a bit.

"How many months have you been unable to tell Melody that you don’t love her? Is it so hard to say that you don't love her?"

"Rox! I'm looking for the right time-"

"Fuck that time!" I said artfully. "You said you just made me go crazy! When that Melody came back I was gone !I'm like wind to you! All my life I have not shared in time! All my life I get what I want! You can't give it to me. Better yet… "

"What's better ?! Huh?" His voice thundered on the other line. I almost chocked.

"We'd better take a break! Fuck you!" with no doubt I threw the cellphone on the bed. I'm so pissed!

I decided to go out. I changed myself because I love Sav. But he's too much! I don't deserve being an option! I'm too beautiful to be an option. Sometimes when Melody is here at home with Sav, I avoid her. I can’t stand that woman holding Sav. I can’t even get mad at that woman! It seems painful because you always need someone to accompany you!
I know Sav is also careful but it still hurts for me.

I said goodbye to aunt Anne and dad who were leaving. I never saw Marrie again because she was on vacation in Canada. That's more okay.


There’s a Lots of people inside the Twilite bar. I saw more of my schoolmates. Well they are celebrating too!

"Rox! Look at Caleb oh! He's been looking at you for a while." Karina pointed to Caleb. I saw him looking at me but immediately averted his eyes.

I took a deep breath. "Just wait for me to go there . "

"Woah ! Are you going to make the first move? "Kaori teased. Our batchmates at the table shouted.

I smirked and smiled cutely. "First move my ass! Caleb is my friend!" I said and turned away from them. I am wearing a red tube dress. Caleb glared at me. I heard his friend whistle as I sat next to him.

"What are you doing here?" he said coldly before drinking the drink on the table.

I sighed heavily. "Thanks for not telling anyone. You're a friend Caleb." We also didn't been good for a few months.

He lazily shook his head. "Your secret is safe Rox. Look ..." He pointed upstairs to the second floor of this bar.

"Your fucking boyfriend is here." Damn! I can barely look at the above. I left my cellphone on the bed because I knew Sav was going to text me! I wasn't wrong!

I took a deep breath and faced Caleb. "Let's dance?"

He smirked. "Have a bad plan, huh?" he grinned. Shit! Caleb is handsome and appealing but Savier is more handsome and appealing! And most of all Savier have a big bulge! I shook my head. What the hell am I thinking!? Shit.

I smiled at Caleb. "You really know me huh?"

He glared at me before standing up and holding out his hand. "Can I have this fucking dance? My friend?" he asked mockingly. I grinned and accepted his hand. We join the dance rock music on the dance floor. Caleb was just holding my waist and watching that I might be touched by other dancers.

"Your boyfriend Roxette is really going to kill me later."

"I don't have a care on him!"

"LQ?" Instead of answering, I just grinded to his body.

"Shit!" Caleb was suddenly shocked when someone punched him. Eventually he grinned as his lips were covered in blood.

"Sav what ?!" I said. I wasn't wrong! Sav made a tug on my wrist and pulled my waist to cling to him. Shit! Many looked at us. They looks surprised. Sav looked at me sharply and wanted to punch Caleb.

"Sav!" I shouted loudly and pulled him by the arm. Shit! He is so strong!
"What did you say ?!" He shouts at me. I looked at the people who were staring at us in astonishment. My schoolmates know that Savier is my uncle. So maybe they're wondering or maybe they think I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend so Sav will got mad at Caleb?
"S-Sav not here!" I hissed. He doesn't seem to care about those who see us. He pressed me even closer to his body and pressed his lips to my ear. Everyone was staring at us. My heart was pounding too much.

"Take back what you said earlier because if you don't, I’ll kiss you here Rox." He threaten me. He even bit my ear. What the fuck Sav! You flirt! I have no choice I know he really will!

'' We are not breaking up! ''he whispered again. I nodded immediately.

"Sav! Come on! They'll doubt us!" I hissed back and hid my face in his chest.

"Where are you going home then?" Bullshit! It's like we're having a moment here in the middle of the dance floor!

I closed my eyes. "Fine! In your unit! Come on! We're making a scene here!"he kissed my hair so I simply avoided it.

"Good girl." Sav! I'll punch you later Sav! Ugh!