Chapter 31

After what he said, he remained silent. No one's dare to speak. Even me, I can’t process what I had just say. I know that by the time we get together, the two of us will be enlightened. I used to risk, I risk more now. Over time, I am no longer attracted to any man. Savier's memories were glued in my mind. Like he put a dark spell inside my heart that he just for me and no one else.

"I'll be on your basement in three A.M." His husky voice attracting my ears. Damn it! That's just his voice! How much more if we are together? Gosh! I don't know anymore .. I might lose consciousness.

I cleared my throat and shifted. "T-That early?"

"Better early. We'll talk a lot. It's been fucking four years." My throat went dry when he cursed like this. Not surprisingly but I'm not used to hearing that. It was obvious on his face that he was a badboy, so his swearing was not surprising.

His body grew bigger, his brown skin color did not change. We ended our conversation without a word to say. We were content with the silence.

Early in the morning, at two o'clock, I took a bath with lukewarm water. Wearing a sleeveless top and with a denim jacket.

My black pants were also tight fitting which I paired with white sneakers. Wrapped up because of the cold. I pulled my little luggage into my walk in closet. That luggage of mine is always ready. I just pull it and leave. I always prepare like that, especially back in Italy. Especially I did so many photo shoots, so every time I finish doing laundry, I arrange the clothes that will be put in the luggage.
My insides swirling like a train. I don’t know if it’s an effect of the cold or because of Savier?

"I can do it!" I cheered up myself before stepping out from the lift. The cold in the basement immediately hit my face. Despite the dark surroundings I spotted Savier immediately. Leaning on his glimmering Aston Martin car while puffing a cigarette. My forehead furrowed and I remembered then that he did smoke. Every step of my shoe could be heard in every corner of the basement because of the silence.

“L-Lets go?” I couldn’t look at him. I could feel him looking at me but I didn't hesitate to look at him. I immediately stood at the door of his car. I tried to open the door but it was locked. Stupid! until I felt the heat of his body on my back. I feel his chest touched my back and he himself opened it before it sounded.

"You're shaking." He commented. I bit my lip and shook my head.

"Uh, it’s just cold” I said briefly and immediately went inside because when I couldn't sit down I was sure I had fallen to the floor. I heard him chuckled before he closed the door. It took a long time to go to Batangas to board to the said private yacht to Boracay.I think the weather is fine because of the beautiful clouds and lots of stars in the sky.

He was driving quietly. He asked if I am hungry but I said no. But when he asked if I had already urinated, I nodded. We stop at a gasoline station with a grocery store and public CR we have no choice because I'm already peeing.

"I'll buy some food." He says. I nodded and went into the female's cr and peed. Good thing no one else is inside. I retouched a bit .
When I stepped out, I bumped into a man.

"Oops! Sorry!" I'm sorry.

"Oh, Roxette? Is that you?" I looked up because of its voice.

"Oh my god! Clifford!" I screamed loudly and hugged him. He hugged me too.

"Damn! You didn't tell me bella ! It's a small world! I am visiting a friend. " He pointed to the second floor which looked like an office.

"You know." His eyebrows went up and down and I just rolled my eyes heavenwards.

"I get it! What ever Cliff!" in the midst of laughter there’s a tight hand gripped my waist.

"Let's go, Roxette." Savier's cold tone stifled my laughter. I smiled on Clifford who was amazed of Savier. His mouth turned into O.

"We have to go, Cliff. And ... see you soon." I say goodbye to him. . His silent era inside the car makes me worried. He didn't offer me anything so I voluntarily took the food he bought.

The past that happened came back to my mind. "I saw you last time with Jezel. How's she?" my gaze is outside looking at the trees passing by. I think we are near to Batangas.

"She's fine." The pain flashed through my heart. I couldn't even speak. Even his simple answer was heard as if billions of needles had been inserted into my chest.
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Time passed, the moon was replaced by the sun. I see the orange sun as if it just came out of the cave. I am amazingly staring at it when someone cages me. I leaned against the railings of the yacht. My gaze landed on his veined hand. I could feel the heat of his chest on my back. I am wearing a backless bohemian dress. My curly hair was violently blown by the wind.

I felt his rough hand touch my back. I shivered as his breath landed in my ear. "You tattooed your birthmark?"

He asked me.

My forehead furrowed but nodded later. "Yeah."

My birthmark on my back is tattooed with a rose. That was my remark as Roxette in modeling. I could feel his nod.

"You really wear bikinis In photoshoots?" he added.
I just nodded and looked at the sun that was already in the sky.
"How are you then? After four years, Roxette?" His hand already snaked on my waist. I could feel his grip on me tighten and his face buried deeper in my neck.

Mix emotions exploded like a bomb in my system. This is what I thought. My heart beating inside my chest wildly.
“It's hard .." I said softly. I bit my trembling lips remembering those days and years. "It's especially hard since I lost a child."

His breathing turned ragged then he cursed softly. "We lost a child, Roxette." he corrects me. Emphasizing every words. I gasped and close my eyes. I could feel the sticky air from the sea. The air relieves my nervousness and I feel relieved. It's like the wind pushes me to go on. Spill the beans! Play the fire! I am here to catch!

"I-I don't know that—"
I tried to look at him but he pushed my face back using his head. He buried his face in my neck again. He planted warm kisses. “--Those people around me lied . You guys fed me with lies."
My voice growls. I tried to look at him again but my nose just hit his nose. Our lips were so close.

I avoided again. "You're not Dela Rama. I'm not the real daughter of the mother raised me. I'm not your niece, S-Savier! " My tears fall like a pool. My voice is full of blame.

"But you still pushed me away, huh?"

His lips touch my skin with every word he says. "Because you were afraid that someone might shoot me? Kill me? My ass, Roxette ! You think I haven't prepared everything? I asked for help from our clan. Even though I knew I was going to ask for help, I didn't use it because I wanted to fight you in my own way. "

"I am thinking about your safety!" I fired back. "You didn't even tell me you were adopted! Why ?!"

"Because I don't want to make a mistake Roxette. Because if I ever wanted to make a mistake, that was the mistake that I loved you even in the eyes of others."

"Y-You already have a girlfriend Sav.Why are you doing this? "

"She's here, in my arms." His answer was calm. My cheeks warmed at what he said.

"Liar!" I hissed madly. I didn't even realize that I was leaning on him. "I saw you with Jezel! What's that? Of all fucking girls why Jezel ?!"

"What has Jezel got to do with this?" His calm voice was the opposite of my voice that was about to explode. In annoyance I pushed him and faced him.

"Then why are you with me?" I sobbed. Tears blurred the eyes. He resisted every blow I gave. " you rather bring her here!"

"Damn, Roxette! So you're here right ?!" Where he says I stopped and drew strength to slap him for his words.

"Bullshit! Why did I come with you! You're with your Jezel! She's the one you're impregnate with!"

"She’s really pregnant!" he left again which shocked me. I was depressed and just cried.

"Get off me, please! Take me home!"

"Why are you like this ?! Fuck, Roxette!" Anger welled up in my chest. I saw that his chest and arm were already red from my beating.



His forehead furrowed. Eventually he grinned and ended up laughing. He pulled me up and hugged me. "Damn, baby. I never thought any woman to be a mother of my children but only you.”

I pushed him away.

"Jezel is pregnant with Simon!" he laughs again. "How can I forget the woman I love, chose to go with someone else, hm? You know how painful it is to think that you have someone else with you? In one damn roof?"

I clung to his arm because I seemed to be overwhelmed by what I found out. I thought he was the father. I thought Jezel was his girlfriend ?! Damn!

"Marrie is pregnant with Caleb, Savier." I took a deep breath. "It's still you until now." I touched his jaw and remembered all his efforts in the province. How he had gone hungry in finishing the pipe load. How much he endured the nicks I cooked. How much he endured in washing our clothes that I should have done.

"No one can take you out of my heart. I'm sorry if I rushed into my decision then. I'm just thinking about you and dad's well-being. S-Sorry, I married Caleb. I'm sorry, because it would have been you.”

He pulled my nape and plunged me into his chest. "We're going to replace four years of loneliness with a lifetime, Roxette. I'm not going to let you lose me now. Not anymore."

Tired of the trip made me sleep in our villa. In phase one we rented a villa. We were eating at one of the seafoods resto here . There are night gigs here and fire dance every night.

Sav was not satisfied with our distance. He came even closer to me with almost no space for me to move.

"Eat more, Roxette. You're so thin. I don't like you being a model." he said proudly and kissed me on my shoulder. He's so very clingy! Good thing I used to be like him.

"I need a job, so I can provide myself." I replied to him.

"I can provide for us. Just marry me." he whispered sensually in my ears.

I grinned. "Sorry but I am still married. Gosh !I might be famous in media here. Everyone knows I'm Santiago but I am with you." . But the truth is, who cares? Not everyone knows about the real story of my life. Judge as long as they want. I do not care about them so they are not important, Savier is important .. He looked at me darkly telling me to shut up my precious mouth.


"Did he touch you?" He whispered. I shook and bowed. I played with the end of the straw.

"Good, I will be the only one. Can I come in your room later?"

I swallowed the bile in my throat. I think I'm blushing a lot. I could not answer.

"Damn Roxette answer me. I want you naked on my bed tonight." I gasped when he kissed me torridly. Not minding the people inside the resto. I am speechless so I just nodded! Damn! Two points for Savier!

"I think I can ruin the bed later." he grinned and bit his lower lip. I closed my eyes shyly and hid my face in his chest.

"Shut up Sav!" I hissed.
"Oh no, you. You will shut up tonight and don't you dare to shout."He even laugh. He smiled and laughed this day as if it was his happy day.