Chapter 42 Answers

Lucas trying to calm me, making me cry harder. ***"It's okay let it out beautiful"*** his words trying to reassure me while the water runs down  on us both, with Lucas just kneeling down holding me knowing there's nothing that he could say but holding me letting me know he wasnt going anywhere. This man's knew exactly what to do and  when we were made for eachother for sure, he knew I just needed him. The love shared between our bond calmed me down eventually, ***"come Amelia lets get you to bed. I'll hold you as long as you need me to, I'm not going anywhere"*** his words like music to my ears, I needed him to hold me, I needed him to just love me, I just needed my mate.

Laying in bed Lucas just holding me, and playing with my damp hair, ***"Amelia I'm glad you've calmed down now, It hurts to see you crying even if I know you needed to let it all out, it's been a rough time recently so it's only natural for you to respond in such a way" "thank you for being here Lucas and most of understanding, I really don't know how I've lived without you"*** he's everything and more ***"I wouldn't have it any other way, my Luna"***

***"Lucas now that I've calmed abit I think I'm ready to read the note left for me, but baby can you stay with me, I don't want to be alone right now" "of course my darling, I would only leave you if you asked me to"*** thank goddess for that I dont think I could do this alone. I reach into my bedside cabinet and pull out the aged envelope. I just stare at it a little while telling myself I can do this, Tara and Lucas both in silence. The only thing I could hear was the tearing of the envelope as I open it up. I take in a deep breath and let it out again, come on Amelia you got this telling myself.

*Dear Amelia,
                      Seen as your reading this we are guessing you found Jordan and wanted to find out more about yourself. We're glad you did, you are remarkable in every way, we didn't think it was possible for us to make such a beautiful baby. We hope your eyes have stayed as golden as they were when you were born, we have never seen such pure eyes in our existence. But we hope you are as strong as we believe you to be.*

*We are sorry if we made you feel abandoned and unloved, we did this for you to be able to live a normal life without someone dictating what you can and can't do, which is what would have happened if they found out about you and the prophecy you wouldn't have had a life at all. We made a deal with Jordan to ensure you were never found out about, protected and to ensure a normal life in return he removed our abilities and took them for himself, we knew this would probably result in our death but it didn't matter as long as our baby was safe. He managed to harvest your abilities too and put them into an essence which was put into a vial for you, we trust that Jordan has given you that too, we understand you are probably worried about drinking it, but it will ensure you are protected and safe throughout your life.*

*When you meet your mate which we very much hope you do, worship them, make them happy, make sure your happy most of all accept them wholly for who they are, we're sure the goddess would have paired you with an exceptional mate. We understand that you may have a hard time taking all this in but know we loved you dearly we gave up everything for you to live. May your love be pure and you life be full of joy and happiness, We love you very much little one and don't ever forgot that.*

*We are sorry we can't be with you to support you through the good and the bad but we will always be in your heart, don't you ever forget that little one.*

*Lots of love
Mom (Gloria) & Dad (Steven) Goldsmith
xxxx*

My parents truly loved me and wanted to give me a better life than I would have has with them, it must have been hard for them to give me up, I can't imagine having to hand over my pup to anyone. The vial is my own abilities how am I left with one, perhaps he didn't get them all. I need to decide whether or not to drink it, it's no wonder why Jordan said drink it before Lucas marks me maybe we will share some or all of my abilities. My eyes weeping again while lucas again just holds me. I finally got some answers that I actually wanted from them. It's taken some weight off my shoulders that's for sure, maybe I can actually close that life away and start living the one I've been given.

My eyes puffy and red from crying so much tonight, I'm exhausted but I atleast I'm no longer confused, I just hope I can work out my decisions soon. ***"Amelia you seem far more relaxed now, I hope you got what you were looking for my Luna" "Actually I think I did, the vial is my abilities they were extracted when I was a baby, to protect me from being found out by others and to live a normal life."*** feeling relieved I actually knew what it was now ***"I still don't feel so sure about the vial but I'm here for you no matter what" "thank you Lucas I have decided I will drink the contents in the vial but I would like to be at Mark's office just incase something happens" "okay beautiful I'm glad you want to take caution though it's making me nervous, I can't lose you Amelia"*** I see the intensity of hhis fear ***"I can't be without you either Lucas, thank you for supporting me, I need to fulfill my destiny and accept all that I am ment to be so with that I've concluded my decision" "Your the strongest person I know Amelia if anyone can do this you can, I believe in you my Luna".***