Chapter 91 Where is he?

Only making me more upset and of course I forgive him, he's showing he's vulnerable. It's even more upsetting because he wouldn't usually write anything like this. He's been gone a long time now if I send him energy and protection hopefully it will be enough to bring him home. I couldn't live without him either. Hopefully if he hears my voice it will send him into focus, **I love you baby, end this once and for all, I'm sending you energy and healing as we speak, I can't live without you either.** What's taking so long to link back maybe something is going horribly wrong or he's hurt after a few moments which felt like forever before hearing back. **Thank you beautiful, things going to plan at present I love you.** Thank god for that that's a slight relief he's okay and claims everything is going to plan. Allowing me to relax a little.

I place on some random boring TV show to see if it would atleast allow me to relax or have a giggle at the stupidity while I wait for Lucas to get back. After a while I find myself falling asleep again. Dreaming of the future with Lucas and our princess only giving me comfort and warmth before the dream comes to a close. Craig wanders in to give me some food that's been sent up from the kitchen. ***"Thank you" "your welcome"***

I bring the tray closer and lift the cover off to find it's a lovely cooked beeakfast. Thank heavens it wasn't anything pastry based or I think I would have thrown up. I munch away at my breakfast still no sign of Lucas perhaps things are taking a little longer than they thought saying that, it's still very early.

I'm just stuck here worrying over thinking and stressing over Lucas coming home. Everyone trying to tell me to relax and calm down is only making matters worse. It's making me start to think there's something they aren't telling me.

Seen as I have nothing to do I head for another bath, I think my stress and anxiety levels are causing more braxton hicks again I need to relax. **Mark my braxton hicks are getting a little stronger again, I'm not sure if that's normal or whether you want a check things over. Morning Amelia I would like to see you yes I'll come to you later on I can't pin point a time but I'll be with you at some point. Thanks Mark. No worries Amelia I will see you shortly.** 

After a while of waiting for Mark, he finally turns up. ***"Sorry for keeping you waiting had some trouble at the hospital." "that's fine, I'm just unsure if I'm going until labour of some sort it's just the pains and that you know" "yes, your having contractions but nothing too serious it's going to be slow I think, I will give you some medications now to help you with everything and relax and hopefully help you to sleep a while" "Thank you so what should I expect?" " the pains will become more intense and closer together the further into labour you go but I will be with you by then or if your struggling I'm more than happy to transport you to the hospital but I think it would be far more relaxing for you here." "I don't want Lucas to miss it, Amelia he will be here, don't worry about that for now try and get some sleep and I'll come by shortly to see how your doing" "Thank you Mark" "no need to thank me Amelia, I'm here if you need anything just link me"*** Mark exits and briefs Craig as of what is needed.

Meanwhile I'm still stuck here waiting for Lucas, surely he can't miss all this, **Lucas I need you to come home, I can't do this alone,** As I lay trying to get in a comfortable position which seems near enough impossible, I feel myself drifting off to sleep slowly sinking into a dream of Lucas, our pup and me all playing in the backyard laughing and giggling as we run around together as a family.

I wake from my dream suddenly realising my contractions are close and far more intense, with  no sign of Lucas anywhere ***"Craig!!!Get Mark Now I don't think she's going to be long"*** yelling at the top of my lungs while I try to breathe through the contractions and move around rocking my hips to try  ease the pain. She's coming and he's not home. ***"Where the hell is Lucas?"*** I scream.