Chapter 61 Taking a break

As I arrive at Nikki's I notice she set up the sofa bed, she's a star, I replay my memory as I don't think I can go over it again, a new thing I learnt to do over the last week. Nikki doesn't know how to react, I could see she was angry. ***"Your welcome here as long as you need" "it's only for tonight, I'll be going back to Nina and Rich in the morning, I need to think" "Amelia you can't, there's too many threats and no protection there for you plus this pack wouldn't be running if it wasn't for you", "I'm gonna link Mateo and give him all the updates and ask him to cover for the time being" "please Amelia you will be putting yourself in danger"*** Nikki pleads with me, I know I'm aware I'll be in danger but I'd rather that than be treated like I don't belong, I can't go through that again. ***"Please Nikki you gotta understand, it's not the first time I've felt the way I do now, I can't go through it again, I need to do it for me and my sanity"*** she just bows her head in defeat. ***"okay but I want you to link me every morning, afternoon and evening to know your okay"*** I just agree to get her of my back, ***"it's getting late can I just get some rest I hope you don't mind." "Go ahead Amelia I need to finish a few bits then I'll be doing the same"*** I settle myself down and link Mateo with everything, luckily he was fine with it, but also doesn't understand my need to leave. I just try to push all my thoughts aside and slowly feel my eyes heavy.

I'd been at Nina and Rich's two days now and updating Nikki and Mateo on my safety multiple times a day plus the links off Mateo regarding pack stuff, it was nice to be away but also hard being away from Lucas, not that I heard off him at all. I pull the letter out of my bag and realise I should really read it now I have some time.

*Dear Amelia,
                    My passing must be hard on alot of people, as well as yourself, I could feel every ounce of love you put into Lucas, me and Brandon, most importantly the pack. You are stronger and braver than you think, you will make an amazing Luna you have been through so much but yet you still hold your head up high don't ever let anyone put you down.

*I thought of as a daughter all this time, it may not have been a very long time but it felt like eternity, I couldn't be happier to have Lucas marry and mate such an extraordinary woman by his side, please tell your pups about me. I am writing this letter because there are many threats against you but I think you may need to add another, Brandon. You carried out my wishes and he will be angry for that, also if he kills the prophecy he will ingest your abilities if it's done through a bite. I knew more about you than I let on and I can only apologise for that but it was for your protection. Brandon will attempt to take your life, he was always aware of you and the prophecy and what it would intail, he got excited and wanted to gain trust. I tried my best to stop all this happening and change his mind but with me gone I have no opportunity to do that.
In order to prevent this someone will need to end this. The only person capable would be Lucas, I hate to admit it but its the only way is by taking his life.

*Please my loving daughter this is going to be a difficult time and I'm sure Lucas will be trying to wrap his head around everything. I wish you all the best my little girl. I love you with all my heart don't you ever let anyone tell you different.

*Ma xxx

I began sobbing half way through, thats why everyone said not to trust Brandon thank goddess I'm away from the pack, looks like I'm not even safe in my own pack. I don't know how much more of this I can take, my heart broken, my body aching and begging for Lucas, even when he's shown no sign of giving a crap, I need to get out of here, I need to focus on me. I decided to head into the town library for abit to just get out and try and get some me time. I always felt like someone was watching me, they probably had security on me at all times. A reminder of the meeting came up we are supposed to leave tomorrow. I won't be going so I know I should get some peace from Mateo. I pick up a novel to just read while I'm here, I head to the back corner of the library it's always quiet and no one really comes back here.

I start getting into the book and forgetting everything for a little while until I see nothing, everything black, I get dragged from the library, I hear someone screaming Amelia, and a car or van door opening and slamming shut.