Chapter 20

I was no longer able to work properly because of what I found out and what I witnessed. I also don"t think the two of them have a relationship. Fiona is known as a famous model and the daughter of a wealthy businessman. I even remember Lucifer being linked to Fiona back then. I don't know but my heart hurts a lot. I accept that Lucifer won't love me anymore, but what I can't accept is why did he go to that woman? Does he like Fiona? He loves her?
"Let's go home Lara ..." Jason said when it was finally time to go home.
"All right ... I'll ride again ah?" I joked and laughed.
"All right! You'll walk a bit far if you don't ride my motorbike." He said that my grin grew.
"Thank you so much Jason! Let me get my bag first, ah?" He nodded and said he would go outside first and that's where he would wait for me.
"You're really beautiful Lara! Jason is really ready to take you. Of course, you're a crush ..." I laughed at what Jasmine said and shook my head.
"He can just pass by my house so I'll just go with him." I spoke and took the bag. Jasmine and I went out together and because Jason's motor was parked in the front, Jasmine immediately shut it down.
"Hey Jason! Take care of that Lara you crush!" Jasmine's joke that Jason blushed.
"You're really knocking me down Jasmine!" Turan is Jason.
"All right! I'll pick you up too. Be careful!" Jasmine waved and approached to fetch it.
"Let's go?" Jason asked as I immediately nodded.
"Sige, tara–"
"Lara." I was about to board when suddenly someone mentioned my name. I immediately turned around and my eyes widened when I saw Lucifer.
"L-Lucifer?" I stuttered.
"Lara, let's go–" "She won't go with you." I was suddenly uneasy at what Lucifer had said.
"Lara? Who is she? Do you know her?" Jason asked. I was ready to shake when Lucifer came in front of me.
"Yes. Now, leave and stay away from her." Lucifer shouted hard and suddenly pulled me away.
"Lara!" Jason shouted but I just shook my head.
"It's okay! All right!" It didn't do anything and just left.
"B-Release me!" I pulled my arm away from him. We both stopped in front of his car.
"On board." He commanded in a cold voice that frowned at my forehead.
"Why would I ride?" I will ask.
"I said, get on." I shuddered at what he said.
"I'm not going to ride with you–"
"Why? Where do you want to ride? Do you prefer to ride your man's old motor ?!" I was overwhelmed by the strength of his voice.
"W-What are you saying–"
"Aren't you really satisfied? I thought you already had a fiancé ?! Why are you still flirting with others?" This question was loud and my eyes widened.
"I don't have a fiancé–" "You're such a fcking liar, Lara–" I didn't even finish him when I gave him a hard slap.
"What's wrong with you ?! Why are you just showing up and pulling me and then insulting me ?!" I shout.
"Did you just fcking slap me–"
"Yes! Because you're so stupid! Why are you here ?!" I shouted again.
"I'm here to fcking send you home!" Aniya.
"Who told you to take me home? Go home and maybe your girlfriend is looking for you!" My tongue is irritated. I started to walk away but I just screamed when it suddenly lifted me like a newlywed.
"You're pregnant with my child and I just want to make sure that you're fine. Don't think that I'm doing this for you. I'm doing this for my child." His cold voice language that depressed me.
That hurts. I just kept quiet and didn't say another word. He made me sit down and closed the car door before he got in and started the car.
"Why isn't your fiancé picking you up? And where's your ring? I thought you're engaged." He broke into silence. I felt annoyed again by his questions so I sighed violently.
"How many times can I tell you that I don't have a fiancé? I'm not engaged! Where did you get that news? Fake news!" I was annoyed. "Your fiancé told me, so stop lying Lara." Its language is serious.
"Who? Is it Tristan ?! Could it be, Lucifer! With the two of us, you're the one lying." He smiled at what I said.
"You're the liar here, Lara. Also a fcking cheater." It emphasizes its two negative calls to me. I just shook and inevitably warmed my eyes. I think I'll cry ...
"I-If you just let me explain–"
"I don't fcking need explainations Lara. My eyes saw it. Stop lying. I don't love you anymore. You were just my experience. I realized that you're not really the right woman for me." Those words caused so much pain in my heart.
And who is the right woman for him? Is it Fiona?
"H-You don't know the truth–"
"I fcking know the truth, Lara. You're a fcking two-timer, a liar, a desperate womwn, a woman who wants to be fcked by that Tristan. Let me tell you the truth then ... I saw you both naked that time. Probably tired from a hot steamy s*x. And what's worst, Lara? You fcked my fcking bestfriend! "
Because of what Lucifer told me, everything that happened before came back.
"Congratulations!" That word is what you almost hear from everyone here.
"Congrats sa'tin!" Cried one of Lucifer's friends.
We were in a famous bar and celebrating because we had just graduated from college. Almost everyone here is Lucifer's classmates.
"Congratulations ..." I whispered to Lucifer as we sat down.
"Congratulations too my Velle." He said and kissed my forehead.
"Oh this is the very sweet magjowa again! Stop that and maybe we'll lick it! Just drink it!" Lucifer's friend shouted again and handed us a glass with only wine.
"Don't give up, you can't get drunk." Lucifer said I was the one being implied.
I was just pissed when his friends complained.
"It's too much KJ! It's only once! Let it go!" Tristan, Lucifer's bestfriend.
"I'm fine ... it's only once. All right!" I'm carving Lucifer. Even in his heart he was not willing, he just nodded and shouted at everyone.
"Drink this Lara!" Tristan handed me the wine I drank.
Everything went on. When someone reaches for my wine, I drink it while Lucifer is constantly rebuking me.
"It's just once ..." I said.
"I know but please ... you might have a headache tomorrow." I smiled at what he said and kissed him quickly.
"I love you." I whispered in his ear.
"I love you too ..." He replied.
"Hello everyone !!" A shrill voice looked up at me.
"Hi Fiona! Join us!" Aya sakaniya ni Tristan.
Fiona immediately sat down and when she caught my eye she smiled at me. I was shocked at what he did and couldn"t believe it. Fiona Meyer who bullied me smiled at me ?!
"Hi Lucifer! Congratulations!" She greeted my boyfriend but Lucifer just greeted her.
"My father said, I'll start with your company. Did you know?" Fiona asked.
"Yup, my parents told me." Lucifer answered.
I don't know but it's probably because I'm drunk ... I remember him trying to flirt with Lucifer. She's pushing herself on my boyfriend who doesn't like him at all. I felt annoyed.
"I'm CR first!" Turan ko.
"I'll join you–"
"Don't! I can do it!" I replied to Lucifer and left immediately.
As I walked, I couldn"t stop my dizziness. Shit! I think I drank more.
Fortunately, I found that CR. I went in and washed first. The door opened but I ignored it because I was busy washing. I noticed no one here except me and the intruder. I was about to finish what I was doing when suddenly someone violently pulled me and covered my nose and mouth with a handkerchief.
"Hmmppp!" I struggled but I couldn"t get away.
A man in a bonnet was holding me. I can't see his face.
"T-Tu – hmmppp!" I don't know but I seem to be depressed by the smell of the handkerchief. I feel sleepy. Nakakapanghina ...
I want to shout Lucifer"s name. I wanted to ask for help but I could do nothing.
I just realized that little by little I was being eaten up by drowsiness until I lost consciousness ....
My body is aching. My head hurts like it's being torn apart by extreme pain.
"Ugh .." I have a bad headache!
Where am I?
I opened my eyes and my hand hit my head.
What happened, why does my head hurt so much?
I remember what happened. Graduation ... party ... drink ...
My eyes widened as I remembered everything! I was in CR ... someone came in and suddenly pulled me away. I covered my nose until I lost consciousness ...
I get up and feel myself. Where am I?
I looked out the window and realized it was morning. I was about to get up when I noticed I was not wearing anything. I was naked under the blanket. But my eyes widened again as I turned to my side.
"A-What–" My heartbeat quickened and I was very nervous. I panicked.
Why am I with a man? Is this Lucifer? I can't see because he's leaning against me–
All I could think was Lucifer but no! Not Lucifer but Tristan! Lucifer's best friend!
"Ah sht!" He said when he woke up.
I can not believe! We are both naked! Did something happen to me ?! I was about to scream when the bedroom door suddenly opened.
At this moment it was as if I was going to die because the one who opened the door was Lucifer!
"L-Lucifer–"
"You fcking cheater!" He shouted.
"Lucifer, wait–" Tristan couldn't even lie down when Lucifer gave him a hard blow.
I folded the blanket over my body. Tristan stood up ... I thought he was also naked but he was wearing a boxer.
"Fck you! Fvck you !!" Lucifer yells and continues to beat Tristan.
"Lucifer that's enough !!" I shout. Tears came out of my eyes. I do not understand what I'm feeling. It's like I'm filthy.
Lucifer's angry and blazing eyes turned to me. Her face is very red. He clenched his fist and looked at me as if I was the worst he had ever seen.
"You fcking cheated on me, Lara. I didn't know you were flirting." He said and walked away directly.
I even called his name but it came out. I just sat weakly and cried. It's gone ... it's over.

Two years passed and I was only in pain. Since that day, everything has changed. I lost everything, especially the man I loved. Lucifer.
We didn't separate but when that happened, our relationship was definitely over. I blame myself. My fault.
I don't know how I got out of that place. I only know one thing, I"m crazy. I no longer have everything I worked for. Since then, Lucifer has been working for their company. Worst, even with Fiona. He no longer pays attention to me and still pays attention. He already ignores me. Whatever I beg. Even when I knelt down, he really didn't want to. I just cried and cried.
Even the job I was hoping for, I couldn"t get yet. Lucifer prevents everything. He didn"t let me continue with my dream. After a year, I found out Fiona left the company and became a model. The two are linked and mistaken for a relationship. Even though it hurt, I still insisted. I still begged him for two years. I hope he will come back and accept me.
But after two years, Tristan and I met. One of the ones that ruined my life.
"Lara please, let me talk to you. I just want to apologize for what I did before. I'm sorry." He said but I shook my head.
"Can you be sorry for everything I lost? Can you be sorry for Lucifer ?!" I shout. We are outside my house. It's afternoon and I'm getting ready to go to Lucifer's condo. I found out that he didn't come in today because he felt bad.
"Please Lara ... please hear me." He said begging.
I closed my eyes and sighed. To finish ... I nodded and opened the door of my apartment.
"Come in and we'll talk. I want this all over, Tristan."
It went in and sat down. "I'm not going to ask you what you want to eat or drink. I want it to end right away." I nodded and he nodded.
"I'm sorry Lara but trust me, nothing happened to us. I didn't touch you." Aniya.
"I know Tristan. I know nothing happened to us but why did that happen? Why are we both together? Are we naked–"
"I want to tell you something Lara. I know you'll be more angry with me but I hope you understand ..."
My eyes widened when I heard everything Tristan said. I can't believe even she will fall victim to love. I can"t accept that Tristan did that because he just loved.
"I'm very sorry, Lara. I hope you'll forgive me." He pleads for language.
I took a deep breath and nodded. "I forgive you Tristan. I hope now you've come to your senses and woke up to the reality that what you did was wrong. I hope you don't repeat it again." Her face brightened at what I said.
Tristan left at five o'clock. My plan now is to visit Lucifer at his condo. I know it will make me angry again but it's up to you. I want to make sure he"s okay.
I cooked for him. When I was ready I left the apartment and took a taxi to the condo.
When I arrived the guard let me in. It was good and allowed me to enter. While I was in the elevator I couldn"t help but be nervous. I don't know but I'm twice as nervous now.
I exited the elevator and headed to Lucifer"s unit. There is a password before you can enter. It's good that I know and he hasn't changed it yet. When the password was typed I knocked three times and entered.
"Lucifer?" I call.
"Lucifer?" I call again.
Suddenly I heard a loud break of what.
I frowned and headed to Lucifer's kitchen.
I found it sitting with its head bowed. Holding a bottle of wine and other bottles scattered. There are still cracks.
"Lucifer ..." I called. He raised his head and stared at me.
"Who are you?" He asked in a drunken voice.
"Lara. What are you doing? Why are you getting drunk–"
"Oh! So you're Lara?" He laughed.
"Lara ... Lara ... Lara. The woman who cheated on me. The one who fcked my bestfriend." He said and laughed again.
"Lucifer you're drunk–"
"I'm fcking drunk right now because of her! I fcking saw her again with my best friend! Maybe ... she fcked him ... again." My heart ached at what he said. You are wrong Lucifer. Nothing happened to us.
"L-You're drunk. I'll take you to your room." Fortunately, when I picked him up, he just let me go. I admit he was heavy but I still managed to get him to his room.
I slowly laid him down but as soon as he lay down he pulled me closer to him.
"Lucifer-" I wasn't finished yet when he suddenly kissed me.
"Hmp!" I was about to get up when he tightened his grip on me.
"If she's fcking another man, I should fck another woman too." He whispered to my surprise. Am I the one he is referring to?
"L-You're just drunk – ahh!" I was devastated when he violently inserted his finger into my womanhood.
"No more foreplay ..." He said and kissed me again.
Violent, reckless, eager the way he kissed me as if I was just a paid woman.
"L-Lucifer please ..."
"Why do you sound like her, huh?" He asked and pulled down my wearing pants.
Doesn't he face me? Doesn't he know my voice? Is he so drunk that I can't recognize him?
He also took off his pants causing his manhood to come out.
"Let's make this faster. I can't take it anymore ..."
I never dreamed of being like this for the first time ... the important thing is that the man I love came before me. Lucifer took my virginity. Even if I want to stay by his side tomorrow ... I don't want him to see me with tears in his eyes.
I know it was stupid of me to leave Lucifer's side after something happened to us. But I just did what had to be done. I'm sure when he comes to his senses it will make me angry. I don't want her to say hurtful things after she took my most cherished femininity from me.
I didn"t show up and touch him for a month and a half. I don't know but I just can't really face him. Tristan, on the other hand, visits me from time to time. Honestly, Tristan was really kind. I just can"t accept that he did that just because of a woman. He broke himself as well as his friendship with Lucifer.
"Lara, I'm at fault for you again." He yelled when I took a break from work.
"What?" I will ask.
"Lucifer and I met earlier. We got a little hot so I told him I'm your fiancé. I'm sorry, I'm just annoyed. He doesn't want to listen to the two of us. He doesn't want to believe." My eyes narrowed at what he said and I kicked him in the arm.
"That'll make me even angrier! You're really damned." I was also annoyed but he just scratched his head.
"I'm sorry. He also said that he doesn't have a pake. He also mentioned that you don't show up to him anymore. It's only been a month. Oh, why? You've given up?" He laughed so I stared.
"I'm ashamed." I'll just answer. Actually, Tristan knew that something had happened to Lucifer and me and he was the one before me. I'm not ashamed to tell him because he's my friend too.
"Show up. It's just like that but I really want to see you." My cheeks warmed at what he said.
"Don't see me then. That's mad at me." I said as he lost his smile.
"I'm sorry." I immediately shook my head when he apologized again.
"It's okay! Don't apologize. It's already happened, let's just move on and move on." I couldn"t help but hug him.
"You always hug me. You're not like this." He said so I laughed.
"Just buy me a santol don on the corner. Hurry up!" I commanded him to pity his lips.
"Again?!" I laughed even harder at its reaction.
"Yes, go ahead! Speed!"
"You were like that last week! You're always looking for Santol!" Aniya.
"Stop gossiping! Go away and buy me a saint! Speed!" I ordered again and stood up.
"I'm back at work, just give me my saint this afternoon." I have a good morning at work today. Next week I will start in the evening.
Tristan left and will definitely come back here later with the saints. I notice that I am always looking for a saint. I always seem to be hungry and craving. I also notice that I feel a bit unwell every morning. I feel nauseous and dizzy. It's good that Tristan is there to help me.
"Here are your saints madam!" Tristan was sarcastic and handed the saints to me.
"You really are the best! Thank you!" I almost screamed and hugged him again.
"What thank you? That adds to your debt to me!" I just laughed and walked ahead of him.
"Come on, I'll deliver you." He said so I nodded.
"All right, come on–" I stopped when I suddenly saw a very familiar car in the distance.
I'm sure I know who the owner is! That's Lucifer's car. I am sure. Wait, his office is far from the restaurant I work at if he eats here. What is he doing here?
Suddenly the car started and pulled away.
"What did you see?" Tristan asked.
"I saw Lucifer's car." My answer.
"Is that so?" It grinned and shook.
"That one must be jealous." He said frowning at me.
"Huh?"
"No! Come on, I'll take you home."
The next day, I almost cried over how I felt. I vomited a lot but only saliva came out. I'm dizzy too. It's like I just want to stretch all day. I lay down on the bed. Suddenly my cellphone rang, hinting that someone was calling. I looked at the caller and saw it was Mylene.
"Lara! How are you?" Question it.
"Here, it's not okay–"
"What? Why? What happened to you ?!" He shouted so I closed my eyes.
"I don't know but I'm sick and dizzy. I can't understand how my body feels right now. It's like I just want to sleep all day, in case I still have a job." I answered his question.
"What? Wait, it's a good thing I'm not on duty right now. I'll take you there. Just don't come in, I'll just pass by your restaurant and tell your manager that you can't work because you feel bad, okay? You're just there." It didn't answer me anymore and turned off the call.
I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep. It was good that Mylene knocked and entered.
"Are you still feeling bad?" He asked so I nodded.
"All right, I'll cook you some hot soup. But stand there first and try it." She said and laid down three pregnancy tests.
I was suddenly amazed at what she did, especially with the pregnancy tests.
"Why have a PT?" I asked why his eyes were rolling.
"It's a good thing you told me that something happened to you and Lucifer the demon! So that's it! I brought you pregnancy tests because you might be pregnant!" He said pitying my lips.
"What ?! I'm not pregnant!" Angil ko.
"So try that and we'll find out! Easy!" He said and made me stand up.
"You've already had an affair with your ex so I'm sure you're pregnant. Goodluck!" He smiled before I finally went to the bathroom.
"What? What's the result?" Mylene asked as I came out of the bathroom.
I shook my head and handed her three pregnancy tests.
"I don't know yet. You took the look." I spoke weakly so he reached for it immediately.
He looked at those things one by one and gradually his eyes widened.
"L-Lara ..." I was nervous when he mentioned my name.
I can't speak. I'm nervous.
"Lara ... y-you're pregnant." At what Mylene said, my world suddenly stopped.
Pregnant? Me?
When I got pregnant I was. I decided to tell this to Lucifer. Something happened to me. He was the only one ahead of me. He is the father of the one I am pregnant with. He needs to know this. Eventually, I decided to go to her office to say I was pregnant and he was the father.
To be continued...