Chapter 21

Lucifer picks me up almost every night. I can't understand him ... he's mad at me but he's here and he's always following me.
"H-You don't have to pick me up–"
"You're pregnant. It's my responsibility to make you safe, especially the baby. Also, it's not good for you to work at night so I suggest you should stop working."
I averted my eyes from him and bit my lip.
"I can't stop working."
"Let me provide you then. While you are pregnant, I will provide what you need. Just tell me what you want." He said and started driving.
I bit my lip again and walked past the houses we passed.
"It's OK-"
"Can you stop biting your lip?" None of my own looked at him.
"H-Ha?"
"Stop biting your lips, Lara. You're giving me a boner."
My cheeks blushed profusely at the last thing he said.
"S-Sorry ..."
"Tomorrow, I don't want to see you working again. Understood?" My eyes widened at what he said. He's just kidding, isn't he?
"Lucifer, you can't–"
"Whether you like it or not, you won't work again. Period." He said seriously with mixed tone of voice.
"I can't be without a job Lucifer. I have to buy things for myself. I don't want to depend on you if I can still work. I can still work, I'll be careful–"
"No buts, Lara." Its language is cold.
I just sighed and didn't say a word.
Honestly, I don"t want to really depend on him. I don"t want him to think I"m using our future child for my own benefit. And one more thing, I know he just said that for our son. He only knew as a child. He didn't want to hurt the baby. Because she wouldn't be like this to me if I wasn't pregnant – wait!
My eyes widened with realize.
"T-Do you accept that your child is the one I'm pregnant with?" None of my own question to him.
He raised an eyebrow at me. "You said that it's mine. You keep on saying that I'm the father of that child, then I assume it's really true. But, maybe I'm still not that father. Maybe it's your fiancé or I really am. " She shrugged.
"Maybe you brought us together so you don't know who the father really is. Anyways, we'll also know the truth when the child comes out." The corner of its lip rose.
"I'm not that kind of girl, Lucifer–"
"Really?" He grinned and shook his head.
My eyes warmed and I looked away from him.
When my tears flowed, I quickly wiped them away.
"By the way, mom is inviting you tomorrow. It's dad's birthday and she wants you to come." It broke into silence.
I immediately shook my head in sudden denial.
"H-Don't. It's embarrassing–"
"Good then ..." My chest pain increased at what he said.
"Fiona will be there and I'm sure she will be mad at you. She knows that you're pregnant."
Is there nothing more painful here? Because it seems like it's really the most painful.
"I'm s-sorry. Maybe me and the baby will be the cause of your fight. I'll ruin your relationship ..."
"Fiona and I are engaged, Lara. I hope that you won't be a hindrance to our relationship." My tears kept falling.
"L-Lucifer ... is there really no hope? Don't you really love me anymore?" Suddenly I asked him.
He stopped the car and looked at me intently.
"Lucifer, d-just because of a misconception. Just because you can't hear the truth, we're broken. We lost our relationship. Did I think ... I thought you loved me? That you can't afford to lose me in life Lucifer, our love lasted for a few years - "
"Stop!" He shouted.
"Just listen to me Lucifer. Listen to the truth. The truth! Nothing happened to Tristan and me. They just broke us up! They just separated us and married it all to–"
"I said stop, Lara!" I was stunned when it shouted again.
My face is now full of tears. Here I am begging him again.
"I don't love you anymore, Lara. I'm just here beside you because of the baby. Just the baby." I wiped my tears from my cheeks.
"One day, you will regret all this Lucifer. You will regret not listening to me. You will regret that you did not accept me again! Remember that Lucifer." The car door opened and he hurried out.
"Lara–" I slammed it shut and immediately entered my apartment.
While lying in bed I decided I was going to Lucifer"s daddy"s birthday tomorrow. I will make them look especially to Fiona that I am not weak. I can fight and I will fight my love for Lucifer. Even in the end, I knew I was going to lose.
"What's your name, ma'am?" The man at the entrance of the Villaflores' house asked.
"Lara Velle Silva." My answer. He looked at the list and when he saw my name among the guests, he immediately let me in.
I am wearing a yellow dress. I also applied a little make-up. It's a good thing my baby bump isn't as obvious as I'm wearing.
I was carrying a box as a gift to Tito Fernando. When I saw him, I immediately greeted him and gave him what I was carrying.
"Happy Birthday Tito!" I greeted and hugged.
"Thank you for coming, hija–"
"Lara, hija!" Tita Luci groaned and hugged me too.
"Hello Tita! I'm glad you invited me and you didn't forget me." I joke and laugh.
"Of course! We won't forget you hija. Come here ..." Tita pulled me towards a long table where their family was sitting. Lucifer and I looked at each other but I just avoided looking at him and sat down with them.
I saw Fiona look bad at me as she sat next to Lucifer.
Everyone was having a good time. I was just quietly eating when suddenly something came and my eyes widened.
"Tristan!" Tito calls Tristan.
"Happy Birthday Tito!" He said he gave a gift at the same time.
"Thank you son! Come here, join us. Sit beside Lara. I know that you know her." Turan ni Tito. Tristan turned his gaze to me and his smile widened.
Since no one was sitting in the chair next to me Tristan sat there.
"Hi! Glad to see you here!" He said I was smiling.
"Me too. How are you?" As people started talking again, it was as if Tristan and I had our own world.
"I'm fine. Sorry, I haven't visited you for a few weeks. I was busy. Anyways, how are you and the ..." He looked at my stomach.
"We're okay! No one will buy a saint for us." I guess we laughed together.
"Don't worry, I'll visit you one of these days. I'll bring you a sakong santol." He was joking.
"I expect that ah!" It also ate while we continued to talk. Arrived at the tree to silence everyone for Tito's family's birthday messages to him.
Tita spoke first which made everyone cry. She's so sweet and loving wife, indeed. Its children followed, and Lucifer was last. I almost stopped listening to Lucifer and whispered to Tristan. When it was over, everyone went back to talking and drinking. Tristan and I decided to go to the swimming pool where no one was.
I'm a little uncomfortable with the crowd. I couldn"t seem to breathe so Tristan brought me here to ventilate.
"Are you fine now?" He asked.
I nodded in response.
"Thank you Tristan."
We were silent for a moment when he suddenly asked.
"How does it make you feel to see the man you love with the others he loves?" Its question that stopped me.
"As usual, it hurts. You? How does it feel to see the one you love–"
"You know that I don't love her anymore. I moved on." He laughed that I just laughed too.
"Maybe you have someone else already? Yiee!" I poked the side of it.
"Lara, stop it!" He laughed.
"You're cute Tristan–"
"What are you two doing here?" We were both stunned by someone speaking behind us.
"L-Lucifer–"
"My parents are looking for you. You're just here and flirting. You really didn't even miss my daddy's birthday? You're flirting everywhere." Lucifer seriously accuses the two of us before turning around and leaving.
We went back to Tristan"s party after Lucifer left. Right now Tristan is talking to his acquaintances while I in turn decide to go to the bathroom.
It's inside the house or let's just say the bathroom is a mansion so I went in first. I searched for C.R. and luckily I found it right away. But even though I couldn't get in, someone suddenly ran into me.
"What are you doin 'here?" Fiona asked with a serious face.
"I'm just peeing–"
"I'm asking you why you're here at Tito's birthday party." I smirked at him.
"I'm invited so I'm here." I was about to pass him when he grabbed my arm.
"Fiona, hey!"
"I don't want to see you approach Lucifer, do you understand?" He said frowning at me.
"Stop me Fiona–"
"I know that you're pregnant." I was stunned by what it said and my eyes widened.
"And I also know that Lucifer is the father of that child." It released my arm.
"I am his fiancé. We're getting married. I don't want you to be a hindrance to our relationship, Lara! Stay away from him. I will give you what you want but not Lucifer. I can even give you money just to stay away from–" No. I finished it when I slapped him.
"I don't need your money, Fiona."
"Then what do you want ?! You want him? You want him to be the father of that boy who he didn't want? You turned him on Lara. You're really desperate–"
"Really Fiona? Who is more desperate than the two of us? Who ruined the relationship?" It was stunned and backed away.
"You thought I didn't know, Fiona? You thought I didn't know that you were the reason why Lucifer and I broke up?" I smiled bitterly.
"You're the one who ruined our relationship! You're the one who set me up! You're the one who's desperate for us Fiona! Because you, you can ruin our relationship to get Lucifer. Because you're insecure! Because you're desperate to get Lucifer ! " It's a good thing there's no one here in the bathroom so no one can hear us.
"H-How did you kno–"
"Tristan told me everything!" Fear registers on its face.
"And you really felt sorry for Tristan who did nothing but love you ?! Now you're wondering why I'm close to him? Because Tristan told me everything the truth. That he did it because you ordered him. And he You're so dead, he obeyed your orders. You're really not ashamed Fiona. You just wasted Tristan's love– "
"Enough!" He shouted.
"I don't want to fcking hear anything about him! I don't care about him! And yes, I'm the one who did why you broke up. And guess what? Effective. My plan was successful." It grinned.
"Lucifer doesn't love you anymore, Lara. He doesn't love you anymore. Even if you beg, kneel and cry, he won't come back to you. Because I am his fiancé now. Lucifer and I will get married soon. And you? You and your future child, I will make sure to suffer. " I felt very angry at what it said.
"You're not sure Fiona. We know, when Lucifer finds out the truth. You'll suffer. Come on, if he loves you why did I get pregnant?" I grinned angrily at him.
"Because you turned him on–"
"Exactly! You're not even married, he can fool you. If he really loves you, even if other women undress in front of him, if he really loves you, he won't tempt you. He won't fool you and he won't get pregnant– Ahhh!" I was overcome with pain when it suddenly pulled my hair and pulled it out.
"I swear, I'll fcking kill you–"
"B-Release me!" I shouted but it didn't stop me and still pulled me.
"I should've fcking kill you. You shouldn't be alive!" It pushed me against the wall loudly causing my hip to hurt.
Because I was so angry, I didn't even pay attention to the pain in my stomach and hips. I angrily rushed at him and pushed. It fell so I got on top of him and pulled his hair.
"Oh my God! Help! Let go of me btch!"
"You're the btch of the two of us you idiots!" I pulled it out but I just stopped when suddenly someone shouted behind me.
"Lara!"
"Fiona!"
Lucifer and Tristan shouted at the same time as they gasped as they ran closer to us.
"H-Help me Lucifer!" Fiona burst into tears as she hugged the two of us.
"What the fck did you do Lara ?!" Lucifer shouted at me.
"B-Babe, she pushed me. She pulled me. She even slapped me–"
"You're the first!" I shout.
"Lara, please calm down–"
"You are so fcking desperate Lara! Even Fiona can hurt you just because you're desperate–"
"You don't have the right to say that to Lara." Tristan cuts off Lucifer which in turn makes Lucifer angry. His eyes glazed over at me and clenched his fist.
"My parents shouldn't have invited you both here. You're just making a scandal here especially you Lara. You don't have the right to hurt Fiona–" I was suddenly very close to Tristan when I felt pain in my stomach.
"T-Tristan ..."
"Hey, are you okay?" Tristan asked and I was supported.
I looked at Lucifer and noticed that the anger suddenly disappeared from his face and was replaced by astonishment.
"T-Tristan, it hurts ..." I nodded and held my stomach. I also feel dizzy as if I will faint in a few seconds.
"What? What hurts?" Its a worried question.
"My t-stomach .... m-hurts–" Suddenly blood flowed to my thigh.
"Lara!" Lucifer and Tristan shout at the same time.
"T-Help–" I just realized that little by little my vision was fading. My whole body was weakening and I felt like I was going to faint. Eventually, my surroundings darkened and I lost consciousness.
"How is she?" I heard a voice when I woke up.
I never heard the voices again when they walked away.
I opened my eyes slowly until I saw the white ceiling. I frowned and wondered. Where am I? I finally opened my eyes and noticed that I was in a room. Something stuck in my hand. Am I in the hospital?
"Lara?" I turned to call me.
"Tristan ... w-what–" Suddenly I remembered what had happened. I bled ... lost consciousness.
"Tristan is my baby okay ?!" I asked him and was suddenly nervous and confused.
"Lara! Lara, calm down. You're fine. The baby's fine. You don't have to worry." I looked at my stomach and caressed it.
"Thank God ..." I burst into tears.
"Wait, I'll just call the doctor." He said and just a few minutes later he returned with a doctor.
"Good afternoon Miss Silva. How are you? Are you in pain?" The doctor asked so I shook my head in response.
"Nothing."
"That's good to hear. You've been unconscious for almost a few hours. I've heard you bled. Well, good news. The baby is still fighting. That's why, the baby's grip is weak. Maybe it's because you're stressed. Please, it affects the baby. I suggest you should be more careful. You're not the only one in your body. You two. Be healthy and avoid stress. " The doctor's sermon, which I nodded.
My baby's fit is weak. Fortunately, he fought back ... nothing bad happened to him. My baby ...
The doctor left but someone suddenly entered.
"What are you dong here ?!" Tristan asked angrily.
"I'm here to check her–"
"She doesn't need you here, Lucifer. Go away." Tristan's expulsion of Lucifer.
"That's my child! I have the fcking right to know if she and the baby is okay!" Lucifer also shouted back. I just closed my eyes and sighed.
"Me and the baby are okay. You have nothing to worry about. You can leave now." I closed my eyes and pretended I was going to rest.
After I found out that the baby was weak, I felt like I wanted to put myself first. I will focus on myself first and my baby. I notice that my attention is only on Lucifer. I was really desperate. Desperate to be loved again by Lucifer. But what if my love for her would ruin my baby and me?
What should I do? To continue to be desperate for Lucifer"s love even though I know it"s vague? Or put myself and my baby first?
I'm confused because ... I want to do the same thing.
"Tristan, what am I going to do?" I tearfully asked Tristan after I found out I no longer had a job. That I could no longer enter the place where I used to work.
"Lara, I can help you. Also, the doctor said that stress and heavy work are not allowed."
"What? I can't depend on you, Tristan. I have to work–"
"Just put your baby first. I'll take care of you." My chest clenched at what it said.
Tristan, why are you so mean to me?
"I'm not your responsibility, Tristan. You're not our responsibility. I don't know why you're doing this but thank you very much. Hopefully when the time comes, I'll reciprocate your kindness to me." He smiled and took my hand.
"I'm very willing to help you and the baby, Lara. Even if you don't repay me yet. To see you happy, that's enough for me." Tears came out of my eyes so he immediately wiped them away.
"Please, don't cry Lara. You're ugly because you're crying." He joked, causing me to smile.
"'Didn't you say Lucifer did it again? He's the reason you don't have a job? Maybe he made the right decision. Your stomach is a bit big and you're not allowed to work. You should just rest and take care of yourself. " I just sighed and gave up.
I haven't worked in almost two weeks. I never appeared to Lucifer again. For what else? I'm sure it will say bad things to me again and make me look desperate again.
"I have to go Lara. I still have a meeting. Just call me if there's an emergency, okay? I'll be back tomorrow. Bye!" Tristan said goodbye and left my apartment.
I rested deeply and looked around my apartment.
What am I going to do today? It's so boring!
Eventually, I decided to just watch television all day. Until late at night, I did nothing but eat, watch and lie down. Tristan didn't call. Maybe its too busy right now. But to my great surprise there was a series of knocks on the door of my apartment. Is that Tristan?
I walked to the door and without hesitation opened it. Because my eyes widened when I saw Lucifer standing opposite me and staring hard at me.
"L-Lucifer—"
"So you decided to avoid me again? Why? Are you tired? You don't want to? Have you given up?" This series of questions stopped me.
What is he doing here?
"W-Why are you here—"
"Why do you keep on hurting me, Lara ?!" My ear was touched by its cry.
"What's hurting you? Lucifer, you're the one hurting me over and over–"
"Do you think I'm not hurting too ?! Do you think it's easy for me to hurt you even if I don't want to ?!"
"What do you mean?" He took a deep breath and suddenly hugged me tightly.
"I can't take it anymore, Lara. I'm sorry." My heartbeat quickened at what he said. It was as if I suddenly felt pleasure in what he said. Is this real? Is it true that a Lucifer is here and asking for forgiveness?
I smelled it if it smelled like alcohol and I was right. He is drunk.
"Lucifer, you're just drunk–"
"Just drunk but not drunk." He said and pulled me inside. It closed the door and locked.
"Come home Lucifer. You're just drunk–"
"When I saw you bleeding, I felt remorse. I felt remorse for what I did to you. I was carried away by anger. I allowed myself to be consumed by anger." Its face became gentle.
"Lara, I was hurt too. I was hurt first. To see you with another man while naked is very–" I didn't finish it and slapped him.
"What's this, Lucifer? What's your plan now? I thought you didn't love me anymore and you wouldn't come back to me? What are you doing here? Are you still planning to hurt me even more? Haven't you? It's enough to almost lose my child ?! Isn't all my suffering enough ?! " My tears began to flow.
"Didn't I tell you, listen to me? To my explanations? But you didn't! You didn't listen! What is this? You'll have to wait for our son to disappear before you listen to me–" It converted me and suddenly kissed on the lips.
My eyes widened and stunned.
"I'm willing to listen now, Lara." He whispered and kissed me passionately again.
I don't know but instead of protesting I drifted into his kiss. I admit I missed him. I missed him kissing me with caution. But I still couldn't help but worry.
Is this really happening? Is it true that Lucifer is here and kissing me?
I totally thought it would listen to my explanations and reasons ... it didn't happen. His kiss descended on my neck as his hand descended on my waist.
"I miss you ..." he whispered.
I close my eyes and look up. Why does it feel delicious? My body heats up quickly. Maybe it's part of pregnancy. I quickly warm up and warm up.
"Looks like my baby likes what I'm doing to her ..." He grinned and lifted me up. As I was being lifted it carried me inside my room.
He laid me down and he was barely on top of me.
He took off the dress I was wearing and I just realized that I was naked under him.
"L-Lucifer—"
"Shh ..." He kissed both my breasts.
"Lucifer ..."
Its fingers traveled down my waist, to my thigh, all the way to my womanhood.
"Ah -Lucifer!" I was relieved when he caressed it.
I heard him laugh slightly and stop.
"Why did you stop? Look Lucifer if you do again what you did to me before leaving me like this, I will kill you!" I almost shouted at him and felt annoyed.
It laughed even harder and shook even more.
"I won't do that again, baby ..." He said and stroked me there again until he inserted a finger into my womanhood.
I clung so tightly to his arm and bit my lip so hard.
"Ohh .." I looked up and was even more exhausted when it added another finger.
It penetrated my femininity. I muttered and yelled at what he did until I realized that I had reached my climax.
I gasped then. But suddenly it took place.
My eyes widened as I looked at him.
"Don't worry, I'll be gentle. I won't hurt our baby inside your womb." He said and winked at me.
I just smiled at what he said and at his wink. I opened my thighs even more. When you really love, you will voluntarily open your thighs.
I laughed at the thought but slowly Lucifer's manhood entered me. My lips parted and let out a moan.
It began to swell. My moans continued.
"Oh Lucifer !! Ahh!" I clung so tightly to his back.
"I miss you so much, Lara." He said and continued to make me happy.
I closed my eyes and became even more exhausted.
A few more walks in and out, moans the two of us could only hear in our rooms and the solitude of our bodies.
My heart is so happy with what is happening today. It's like I don't want the night to end. All I want is for us to be like this for life. It's just the two of us. No problem, no hindrance, and no pain yet. But I know those are unlikely to happen.
When the two of us finished we were tired and lay down on the bed. I hugged him tightly as my eyes wanted to close and sleep.
"I love you ..." I whispered to him even though he was very sleepy.
It was not immediately answered. My expected answer that he loves me too I did not hear but he said something else.
"Lara, we both know that I will hurt you again ... I hope you will understand and forgive me."
To be continued...