Chapter 22

The next day, I woke up with Lucifer no longer beside me. I just sighed and stared at the emptiness.
That's it? After what happened to us last night, will he leave again?
I got up and got dressed, pretending he was just in the kitchen and cooking but I was wrong. There is no Lucifer in the kitchen. Even just one note for me he left nothing.
I leaned over and burst into tears. I can't understand him. The whole I thought we had a serious conversation last night didn"t happen. I sent in body heat.
My idiot really! And I really still believed what he told me! My fragility!
But, it can't be that way! He can't just leave after he uses my body!
I cooked something to eat and went back to the room. I'm going to take him to his office. I will face him and talk. This time I will no longer send in my frailty.
I took a taxi to the company. When I arrived I went straight in. The guard called me but I didn't look back and immediately took the elevator.
"Where's Lucifer?" I asked Lucifer's secretary.
"You again?" This will last.
I raised an eyebrow and stood up straight.
"Yes, why? You have a problem?"
It stared at me and went back to what he was doing.
"Sir is talking to someone inside who is a very important person to him so you can't come in." My fist clenched at what he said.
"I don't fcking need your permission. I'll come in if I want." I nodded and walked quickly toward the door of Lucifer's office.
"Just wait! It's forbidden!" The secretary shouted but my attention was distracted by the voice I heard inside.
"Lucifer, I'm pregnant!" I was stunned to hear.
"Don't come in–" I opened the door and Lucifer and Fiona were exposed to me. It was obvious on Fiona's face that she was happy and seemed excited.
Is what I heard correct? Is Fiona pregnant?
They both turned to me and I could clearly see Lucifer's eyes widen and the shock.
"L-Lara–"
"What are you doing here?!" Fiona shouted.
"Maam Fiona, I'm sorry. I stopped her but she's really struggling." Secretary's complaint.
Fiona's face lit up with anger as she looked at me.
"Get him out of here–"
"I'm not leaving." My bold answer.
"What did you say?"
"I'm not leaving, Fiona. The three of us are here again, why don't we talk?" Even in my heart it hurts to see the two of them together, maybe this is the day we need to go talk to end all this nonsense of mine.
"And what are we going to talk about? What do you want? Are you here again to beg Lucifer to come back? Lara, are you stupid? What do you not understand that he doesn't want you anymore?!-"
"If he doesn't want me anymore, why did he have sex with me last night ?!" Fiona's eyes widened at what I said and looked at Lucifer.
Lucifer also stared at him and turned to me dejectedly.
"Lara, I think you need to go home–"
"Is that so, Lucifer ?! After you expected me last night? After you claimed me over and over last night ?! Is that so? Will you leave me? Expect and make a fool of me again?" Tears came out of my eyes.
"Lara, you should go home. You're pregnant–"
"Oh, Lara! Do you know that I'm also pregnant?" Lucifer and I both looked at Fiona again.
"Fiona–"
"No, Lucifer! She needs to know! I'm pregnant and you're the father."
I wiped away my tears and laughed heartily.
"Are you really good Lucifer? Two women, you're pregnant?" I asked him with a laugh.
Her lips parted as if she wanted to say something but she couldn't.
"Sure, you're right Fiona." Fiona stared at me and fell silent.
"I'm stupid. Stupid and fragile. I became stupid in my love for Lucifer. I gave everything to him. My body, my personality and my heart. I'm hoping he'll come back to me. Because it's not really true. he saw 'right? " Fiona's eyes suddenly widened at me and I was about to approach when I gave her a fake smile.
"You're all to blame for this Fiona. You've sewn up everything. Nothing really happened to Tristan and me. You're the one who ordered Tristan to cover my nose in the bathroom and put me to sleep. You've sewn me up . You pretended something had happened to us. You called Lucifer on my cell phone to get him to where Tristan and I were– "
"That's not true! You're lying! Lucifer, she's lying! She's just insulting me–"
"Stop Fiona!" Lucifer shouted. We were all stunned by the strength of its cry.
"L-Lucifer ..." Fiona called to him in a low voice but Lucifer was already burning with anger.
Lucifer turned to me and walked quickly in my direction. I was suddenly confused and backed away but it caught my arm and pulled me out of the office.
"Lucifer! Lucifer, where are you going ?!" Fiona shouted but we were already inside the elevator.
"W-Where are you taking me–"
"We need to fcking talk now, Lara." He said in a cold voice and when the elevator opened he quickly pulled me towards his car.
"On board." I couldn't struggle anymore when he forced me to get in the car.
"L-Lucifer, I don't want to go with you!" I shouted when he suddenly pulled the car over.
"Where are you taking me ?!" I shouted again but he did not answer me.
"Get me down here right now Lucifer! Look if you plan to kill me with your speeding, remember I'm pregnant and you're not the only one you can kill!" I shouted so loudly that it stopped him.
It stopped the car and stared at me.
"You idiot! Don't touch me if you want to die–"
"I'm sorry." I was stunned by what it said.
He violently wiped his face and sighed.
"Fck !!" He cursed repeatedly and even punched the steering wheel.
"I'm coming down–"
"You won't come down, Lara. You're just here and we'll talk."
"What else are we going to talk about Lucifer? Aren't the things I said before enough?" He shook his head.
"That's not enough Lara–"
"P'wes for me that's enough Lucifer!"
He fell silent and averted his gaze. Suddenly his cellphone rang in his pocket so he took it but it was Fiona who was calling.
I smiled wryly and my eyes warmed.
"She's pregnant ..." I said in a low voice.
"And you're the father." I added and took a deep breath.
"We're not sure if I'm really the father–"
"Do you think she'll still lie to you Lucifer? She's obsessed with you! Do you think she'll let nothing happen to you especially now that you're engaged?" He just shook his head.
"We're not sure, Lara. Maybe she's not really pregnant and she just said that to make you angry–"
"What kind of thinking is that Lucifer? Are you really like that? When I was, you said you weren't the father! Now that Fiona is pregnant, you're not sure if you're the father? What kind of brain do you have Lucifer ?! " 'I can't believe what I'm saying.
"I know that I'm stupid Lara! Yes! I'm the most stupid man in the world! But do you think, I'm not hurt either?" I stared at him after he said that.
"Lucifer, you're a demon. You're the heartless man I know. Do you think I'll believe you're hurting too? You've already made us both pregnant, you're still hurting in that situation?" I will ask.
It smiled forcefully at me. "Being stupid, it doesn't hurt anymore?" He said and looked to the front.
"I'm hurting too." He said.
"Could you, Lucifer? Let's stop the drama." I'm serious.
"I don't want Lucifer anymore. I've given up."
"What do you mean?" He asked. I averted my eyes from him and turned my face to the front.
"I've realized my worth. I don't want to be a poor woman who repeatedly forces herself on the man I no longer love." Tears began to well up from my eyes.
"At first, I thought I could. I thought I could make you friends again. I thought I could get you again. I thought you would love me again. I thought we would go back to the past full of love. But, I was wrong. I endured for a few years even though it hurt me. I asked myself. Why did I waste my time with you if in the end I still lost? " I looked at him with teary eyes.
"If I continue to love you, how many more years will I be able to suffer from the disease? I'm already in so much pain, Lucifer. I'm already in so much pain. I've endured for several years because I love you. I've endured your coldness. I've endured being a demon of yours. because I thought I would be an angel who can change you. But I'm wrong. I've realized ... maybe I'll put myself and my child first. I don't want us to be an obstacle in your life. You ' re engaged. You're getting married to Fiona. You still have responsibilities because your fiancé is pregnant. " I wiped the tears from my face and smiled hard at him.
"I'm h-happy for you, Lucifer. Even if you're not my last, you'll always remember that you were my first. You're my greatest mistake and my greatest love. M-I love you Lucifer but if it's my love you will ruin me and our future child, maybe I should stop this. I don't want to be the hindrance of your success. Almost everyone knows that you are already engaged. we do that. " I reached out his hand.
"What are you saying Lara? No! You're not leaving! You're not leaving me–"
"I need to, Lucifer. I want you to fix yourself. Yes, I know you're just a human being who makes mistakes. But I don't want to add to your mistakes Lucifer. Do you know what to do right? To be a responsible father to the future Fiona's your daughter. " I tightened the grip on his hand.
"No, Lara! No, I won't let you leave me!"
I cried again and burst into tears.
"Lucifer! I can't understand you! I thought you didn't want me anymore ?! I thought you didn't love me anymore? Why are you like this now? Is it because of what happened last night? I know you just don't have that so please! Let's stop this– "I was not finished when he suddenly turned my neck and pressed my lips with a kiss.
I just closed my eyes and kept crying.
Why are you like this Lucifer? Why do I seem to want to retract what I said? I can no longer understand what is happening! I can't understand you anymore Lucifer! How do you really feel about me?
Its lip parted slightly.
"L-Lucifer ..."
"I'm sorry ... I'm sorry. Please forgive me, my Velle." It was as if suddenly a butterfly was flying inside my stomach when it mentioned the name he used to call me when we were together.
Am I hoping for Lucifer again?
"I-I don't understand you-" I sniffed.
"You will understand me soon. For now, I want you to trust me." I was shaken.
"And what? I'll wait again? I'll hope again?" I backed away from him.
"Lucifer, do you love me?" Suddenly I asked him.
He fell silent so I took a deep breath. What else can I expect? He does not love me. He doesn't love me anymore ...
"I'm coming down–"
"No, I'll take you–"
"Say I'm coming down!" I shouted at him.
"I don't want Lucifer anymore! I don't want you anymore! I've given up! I don't want to hope! You're tired of being loved ..." I whispered and got out of his car.
"Lara, please understand me ..."
"Never, ever, will I understand you Lucifer. I don't know what you mean but I don't want to. I've given up." I slammed the car door shut and turned around.
I guess this is the end of us? Wait, do we have any?
The eyes blurred as I crossed the road. All I could think was that I could get on well but there was a car speeding towards me.
"Lara !!!"
My eyes widened but it was too late for me to dodge. A car crashed into me causing me to fall.
It hurts. My body is numb. I can not move. I even saw the car not stop and just keep running.
"Lara !! Oh sht! Fck! Lara !!" Consecutive shouts of Lucifer's voice but it was all too late as I slowly closed my eyes.
I woke up as if no one was feeling. All parts of my body felt numb as I stared at the white ceiling. Where am I? I tried to move my hand.
"Lara? Lara, you're awake!" Mylene cried and hugged me.
"N-Where am I?" I will ask.
She let go of the hug. "A-What do you want? Do you want to drink water?" But he asked.
"M-Mylene ... w-where am I?" I asked again when he suddenly burst into tears.
"L-Lara, w-don't you n-remember?" When he asked that question, suddenly some scenes entered my mind. In the car ... Lucifer and I ... collided ...
"I-I'm in the hospital?" I asked so he nodded.
I immediately touched and felt my stomach.
"A-My b-baby?" I asked him again but he just averted his eyes.
"I-I'll just call your doctor, Lara–"
"M-Mylene's my b-baby ?!" I was trembling with fear.
He cried even more which made my chest tremble even more.
"W-What n-happened to my baby?" I stared at him again.
"L-Lara, I-I'm sorry ..." He approached me and held my hand.
"M-Mylene I can't understand you! My baby ?!" I shouted at him.
She just shook her head and cried even harder. He held my hand tightly.
It was there that I realized that what I was thinking was true.
"W-Is my b-baby gone?" My weak voice asked.
"I-I'm sorry Lara! I'm sorry!" He said so I kept crying.
"Y-Yong my son!" I shout.
"Lara, calm down–"
"How can I calm down when my son is gone ?! How, huh ?!" I shouted loudly.
Suddenly a doctor in uniform entered.
"Miss Lara–"
"D-Doc? T-Is that true ?! Is it true that my son is gone ?!" The doctor averted his eyes and nodded weakly which is why my world seemed to stop.
"N-No ... no! No! My child is still alive! Give me my child! My b-baby ..." I sobbed and hugged my friend tightly.
The door opened again and the two men entered. When I saw someone's face I went crazy.
"You!" I point to Lucifer.
"It's your fault! It's your fault why I lost my son! You !!" I'm losing. Tristan ran towards me to stop me but I really wanted to approach Lucifer. I want to punch him! I want to scratch him! I want to beat him!
"K-it's your fault!" I knelt on the floor and cried even more.
"My baby, w-it's gone ... w-my baby is dead ..." I said weakly and closed my eyes.
"My son ... my strength. The only thing I have is gone. He's gone ... he's gone ..."
Losing a child is like losing your life too. I felt like I also died even if I'm alive. Why is this happening in my life? I just love but why do I keep hurting?
I wept as I knelt at my son's grave.
"A-My son ..."
"Lara, you can handle all this too." Mylene hugged me on the back while comforting me.
"B-Why my child?" I didn"t ask myself that question.
"God has a reason–"
"Then, what is his reason ?!" I shouted.
I can't stop myself from asking him. Why? Why did he even take my son? What is his reason?
"Lara, we're here for you. Please be strong. You can also pass all these tests. We're just here to accompany you." I did not speak and just stared at my son's grave.
Then Lucifer and Fiona's faces flashed on my mind. I gritted my teeth.
"Are they happy now? Are they happy that I'm like this? I'm hurting too much? Are they happy that my a-child is gone?"
"Lara–"
"I'll pay them." I clenched my fist.
"I will make sure that the time will come when they will be the ones to be hurt. The day will also come when they will be the ones to suffer. I will take revenge for the pain they made me feel!" I shout.
"Lara, revenge is not the answer. You can only say that because you are angry and still hurting now. If you want to prove to them that they were wrong in what you did, then get up. Be strong and show them that you are not. You are the former Lara who will be hurt lightly. I know your child won't be happy seeing you like this. " I looked at Mylene.
"We can help you, Lara. If you want to get away from here, we'll help you. Please Lara, I hate seeing you like this! I'm hurt too as your friend!" He would cry so I hugged him.
"T-Thank you ..." I cried on his shoulder.
"Please be happy ... I want to see you smile again." He said so I nodded.
"G-I want to get away from here. G-I want to go somewhere far away from them. Far away from here. I want to start again. For myself and my son ..."
With the help of Tristan and Mylene, I was able to go to Italy. I decided to take a board exam. I want to continue my dreams. I want to be a nurse.
And thank God, I passed. I am now a registered nurse.
I wiped away my tears and looked up to heaven.
"Son, this is for you. Mama will continue to live for you. Watch over me there son, ah?" I whispered.
It was so easy that four years passed immediately. Four years passed immediately and I am very glad to say that I'm now living happily.
It's just too fast isn't it? No more pain. No more heartbreaks. My life is so peaceful now.
"Laraaaaa!" I smiled at Mylene's scream as she ran over to me.
"I miss you!" He said and hugged me tightly.
"I missed you too, Mylene."
"We finally met! After four years, we also met in person. We just got bored with a video call. Thanks to my sugar daddy and I flew here too." He laughed and at the same time we turned to Tristan who was also arriving.
"My handsome sugar daddy." It made us laugh. With the speed of time, I'm also happy that the two of them also stayed together. Yes, Mylene and Tristan is now in a relationship.
"Let's have dinner outside together." I think they both nodded.
"How's your being a nurse here? What, did you answer the one who was flirting with you? The length of your hair ah! He's actually the son of the owner of the hospital where you work!" He said and barely pulled my hair.
"Mylene! That's not in my plan yet." I replied that he grinned.
"Lara, you should have a boyfriend. Don't tell me, you have a plan to be an old maid?"
I shrugged. "It seems like that."
I laughed as Mylene pinched me on the side.
"What ?! What a waste of your beauty if that's your plan!"
"Love, don't force Lara. Maybe she also likes women so she doesn't want men–"
"Oh, shut up Tristan!" I turned and stared at him.
He always teases me like that. The truth is, I don't want to enter a relationship right now. I'm scared. I'm afraid of being hurt again because of that flash of love. I am content with the life I have now. I don't want any trouble in my life. I don't want a headache. Boys are only pain in the ass. Not at all, but I just really don't like it!
"Nevermind, when will you get married again?" I asked them.
"It's next month, Lara. It's close. You will be my maid of honor! That's why, we will get married in the Philippines. Are you okay?" Mylene was suddenly serious so I smiled.
Honestly, I don't want to go home to that place but I have no choice. It's my bestfriend's wedding. I won't miss it.
"Mylene, it's fine. I have moved on. I'm okay. I'm happy." I"m assuring him.
They were obviously happy with what they learned from me and we went back to talking again until we were finished and in the car. As Tristan was driving the car, I came across a figure of a man who was very familiar to me. It was with a woman. I don't know if it's really him but he really looks like him. I"m not sure but I think I just saw Lucifer Villaflores entered the restaurant that we just also entered earlier.
I blinked and averted my eyes. Maybe it's not really him. Why would he be stranded here in Italy? As far as I know they don't have a business here – I'm not sure about that either but, why am I even thinking about that demon ?!
A week later, Tristan and Mylene also returned to the Philippines to take care of their upcoming wedding. I went back to work as a nurse.
When I arrived at the hospital, no one talked to me because almost all of them were angry or disgusted with me. They were angry because our boss's son was flirting with me. Not for the beautician, but is it my fault if a Radicus Gallante likes me? The half Italian and Half Filipino who speaks Tagalog so fluently.
Speaking of Radicus, he approached me with a smile.
"Hi, gorgeous!" He said so I was immediately shaken.
"I have a job, Radicus ah! Don't disturb me." I turned and stared at him. It understands Tagalog because it grew up in the Philippines.
He laughed at what I said. "I'm here to visit dad and ... also you."
"Forgive me and go to your dad there!"
"Why are you so grumpy, Lara Velle? I'm just trying to be nice and friendly here–" It didn't end when the hospital entrance suddenly opened and an old man was rushed there. I ran to assist and help but as I was assisting I noticed the patient"s face.
Fernando Villaflores ...
"What happened to the patient ?!" The Doctor asked.
"Heart attack." My fellow nurses answered and immediately took the patient to the emergency room.
Tito Fernando had a heart attack?
I frowned and wondered. Why is he in Italy? Why is he here?
"W-Where's my husband ?!" I regained consciousness and looked at the woman running towards me.
I was suddenly unable to move as his eyes widened to see me.
"L-Lara?" It asked but what stopped my world the most was the man who followed behind it.
Lucifer Villaflores.