Chapter 53 We All Have Our Doubts

Chapter 53 We All Have Our Doubts
Khione
I was exhausted today. It has been nonstop for months and then last night with Colton’s mother we didn’t even get to celebrate and while I tended to Colton, Sutton was left alone like my other mates. I stood under the water in the shower remembering how simple life once was. I knew I would have two, or three, maybe four mates but nine freaking NINE mates I was overwhelmed, and then with all the titles I slid to the shower floor hugging my knees and trying to cry quietly. Because once I walked out my bedroom door, I had to put on my mask and get through the day be a Luna, a mother, a princess, a mate, a daughter, a friend, and a student. I sobbed when I heard a knock on the door, but I didn’t answer. The door opened and it was Jaxton and Tristan. One turned off the water, the other picked me up wrapping a towel around me carrying me out sitting me on his lap on my bed.
“I thought I blocked the links.”
“You did, but I know you too well enough to know when you’re hiding your emotions.”
Tristan said as he sat next to us, I sighed heavily
“There’s not enough time in the day.”
“You need to take care of yourself Khione.”
Jackson said drying my hair with another towel.
“I know.”
“You have to ask for help.”
“No way! I can’t be the next Queen for two different courts Luna and Supreme High Priestess and look weak.”
“It is not weak to ask for help. Think of it as delegating. We are your mates we can carry some of the weight.”
What Jaxton said made sense but my pride my wolf felt it made us look like easy prey.
“I feel like I’m a bad mate I had to abandon Sutton to help Colton, and it was her night too.”
“As sweet and gentle as Sutton is do you really think that’s how she feels? I’m sure she’s more understanding than that.”
Tristan had a point but
“She may not feel that way, but I still feel like I keep making mistakes and I want all my mates happy but there's one of me and nine of you. Maybe I should let some of you go so you can find one person for you.”
They both growled angrily
“That’s not fair how are you going to pick and choose?”
Tristan asked
“I don’t know like Jaxton already had someone and so did Colton so…”
Jaxton looked so hurt
“Just like that, you’d drop me?”
“No Jaxton I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just that you were already engaged and about to be married so you could be with Tina you had someone.”
“Fuck no. I don’t want her. Even if you did drop me. The more time that I spend away from her the more I feel like something was wrong with the whole situation, especially looking at you and Tristan. I remember growing up when I hated her, she always clung to me and forced her way into any and everything I was involved in. And for some strange reason during an overnight school trip, I just wanted her, and every time that feeling started to dwindle, we’d fight I’d break up with her, and somehow we were back together. Something wasn’t right with her and our relationship.”
I looked at him stunned
“Wait are you saying you think she was dosing you with potions that she used banned blood magic?”
He nods slowly
“Because I feel the same sick hateful emotions for her now as I did back when we were kids. And I don’t think the mate bond between you and me is the only cause, I’ve always hated her deep down. It feels like I was asleep in my own body and now I am finally awake and remember.”
“Wow. Do you really think she would go to such great lengths?”
“Yes, and it would explain why she wanted me to go back with her maybe what she needed was back home.”
“But there's no spell strong enough to break a mate bond that’s already been consummated and sealed.”
“Maybe she doesn’t know that.”
“Well, that’s scary that she is capable of so much. And she’s out there doing Goddess knows what with Becca.”
I sigh
“I’m sorry for what I just said, there’s no way I’d be able to pick and choose who to keep and who to let go. But I feel like you guys are getting the short end of the stick.”
“If we didn’t want you, we wouldn’t have marked you. We are all here, yes because the mate bond started this, but we are staying because of you Khione. You are so amazing, kind, funny, brave, stubborn, intelligent and I know this will make me sound like an asshole but a wild freak in the bed. You are amazing in all ways from head to toe inside and out you are the most amazing person I’ve ever met, and you only get better.”
Tristan nods in agreement and I laugh at him calling me a freak.
I cup his cheek with my right hand and kiss him
“Thank you.”
I lean over to Tristan and kiss him
“Both of you thank you. I was having a moment, and I needed this.”
“We are here for you, and we need you all of us.”
Tristan said before kissing me again. Jaxton laid back sitting me on his face as he slid his tongue inside of me. Tristan laid down in front of me leaning on his arm and sucking my clit between his lips. I threw my head back my legs shaking. My alphas pleasuring me with their tongues simultaneously made me forget my worries.
“Fuck I’m going to……”
My toes curled as my orgasm blew through me and they kept on. I looked down and the bliss on Tristan's face as he flattened his tongue and pressed it against my clit made me finish again. He looked up at me and bit down gently, satisfaction on his face when I came again screaming his name. He continued sucking my clit when Jaxton slipped out from under me kneeling behind me and sliding inside of me. Tristan didn’t let go as Jaxton fucked me slow and hard. Again and again, I fell over the edge. Tristan knelt in front of me as Jaxton grabbed the back of my thighs spreading me wide in front of Tristan. He pushed into my tight hole too. The pinch of both of them inside made the pleasure even better. Tristan pinched my left nipple and my clit as they both fucked me faster and faster. Every orgasm comes quicker and more intense than the last. We all cum together and I pass out from pure joy and pleasure.