Insecurities

It hurts to hear this.
Someone to question my integrity, even this bitch. But I keep my cool, don’t let her see how deeply her words wounded me. “My behavior is not up for discussion here. And you're not exactly the person to question that. May I remind you that you are a guest in Midnight Moon?” I give her undone.
Her eyes search my face, it's clear she wanted to hurt me as a distraction from my questions. "But never mind, you don't have to answer." My eyes are fixed on her. “Now tell me where you know Drina from. The Alpha King already knows that you two are no strangers to each other. Maybe you want to be honest about that now.”
Alcina sighs.
“I don't really know Drina. I first met her here. But I know who she is," she says ambiguously. I stare at her in silence. But she doesn't seem to intend to explain further. She raises her glass of wine to her lips again and takes a long sip. “Is there anything mysterious about it? Why are you so secretive about that? Who do you think she is?”
“Well, Beta, you'll have to wait for the answer, or she'll have to tell you herself,” she replies dryly. “But I promise you, if she doesn’t want to reveal anything to you, I will. When the time is right.” With that, she turns to her stomach on the lounger, signaling that the conversation is over.
Her rudeness irritates me beyond measure, but I decide not to do anything about it now.
My time will come, although I feel like revenge will carry out more by Enrick. I get up and walk to the entertainment room. My mind is heavy, I must go to a quiet place to overthink the past hours. The comment about my relationship with Erina has touched me more deeply than I dare to admit. My reputation and integrity are my highest asset, I want to keep them intact.
When I throw myself on a comfortable sofa in the corner of the room, I pull my sweater over my head. A feeling of helplessness comes over me. If the pack members think I'm into pups, I'm so done. “Moon Goddess, why? There are so many mature, sexy she-wolves in the pack, why did you have to mate me with a pup?” I whisper to myself desperately. I stretch out with my head on the armrest and one hand over my face. All my dreams of a voluptuous mate I would lust over every night are now lost.
Erina is just an immature pup, sex is out of the question for a long time.
I will have to remain celibate for at least thirteen years. And that won't go unnoticed by the pack, mainly if Erina stays in my apartment. But maybe I imagine it all. Perhaps it's not the mate bond I feel for the girl but just a strong impulse to protect her. My suspicion that she is Enrick's daughter may have boosted my Beta instincts quite a bit and I mistakenly take this feeling as the mate bond. Yes, I think this should be the case. Because just as Elder Antonius said, the mating between an adult and an underage she-wolf is rare and only in case something important is about to happen. But what could that be? There are no indications for this.
Maybe I should test my feelings.
I haven't had sex since Erina's arrival here because she constantly demands my attention and occupies my thoughts. Time to take that to the test. I pull out my phone from my back pocket. My regular bed partners in the pack now have to help me out of my slump. Hopefully, they didn't move on after not hearing from me for a long time.
Sacha comes on top of the special numbers I saved in my contact list.
I hit the send button at her number. She picks up at the last ring. “Beta! Long time no see. What's up?" I hear her soft voice. I swallow a few times. "Are you free tonight?" I ask meaningfully. “Beta, I was planning to visit the Alpha King tomorrow. I met my mate and wanted to introduce him to the Alpha King," she says gleefully. “Congratulations, Sacha. I'm really happy for you. Make contact with the Gamma in the morning and he will arrange everything for you”, I point to her and end the conversation.
I hesitate when I see Jasmine’s name next.
Actually, I had broken up with her when she eyed Clark too. I'm no good at sharing with my friends. But this is an exceptional situation, so I am trying my luck. At the second ring, she picks up. “Beta, fancy me now? Where are you?" she asks as if she had been waiting a long time for another roll in the hay with me. “Hmmm, wear your sexiest lingerie and come like a diva. I feel like wanting a woman, top to bottom”, I make my demands known. “I'm in the entertainment room in the packhouse”.
“No problem, Beta. I'll be there in no time. Keep everything warm for me,” she sounds seductive.
With my eyes closed, I stay on the sofa. A few minutes later, I feel soft hands graze my chest, tempting and warm. And when I open my eyes, I look straight between Jasmine’s full breasts. Breasts, big and round. I grab her ass tight. Yes, firm and mature buttocks. Her familiar scent invades my nostrils. I suppress the urge to throw up, she smells horrible. But I take it because this is what I want, a full-grown woman, not a pup.
Jasmine’s hands undo my belt and pull the zipper down.
Meanwhile, she pushes a nipple into my mouth. I pass my tongue over it and hear her gasp. The smell of her arousal fills the room, her soft moans stir up our lust. My hand moves between her thighs, slide the thong aside and I insert a finger into her pussy. She is soaking wet, her juice is flowing down my finger. “Hmmm, Beta. You still know how to please me,” she whines. Her hand finds my member. She pulls my pants down, I lift my hips to make it easy for her. Her head now drops while her tongue leaves a wet trail across my chest.
When her lips cling to my member and she begins to lick my tip eagerly, I lay numb. My member remains limp, the hot horniness that would rage through me like before is gone. My body remains cold no matter how hard Jasmine tries to bring me back to life.
“Jace!” someone suddenly screams at the door.
A shudder goes through me, I push Jasmine off me and sit up. My heart is beating like a maniac. Erina stands by the door, her eyes bloodshot. I am startled by the change in her face, there is definitely no pup standing here before me.
“Erina!” I whisper guiltily.
With a few steps she is in front of us, in her hand she has one of her shotguns. She keeps it pointed at Jasmine, who is anxiously trying to hide behind me. “Hey, what is this pup doing here? What does she want with a weapon?” asks Jasmine wildly.
“Away you! And don't let me see you around him again. Slut!” Erina hisses between her teeth. Jasmina doesn't take a chance and dashes out of the room.
When Erina and I are alone, she stares at me. “I told you to wait. And already you can't be trusted”, she bites at me. “I, Erina, reject the Midnight Moon Beta as my mate. You will not find any other mate after me.”
A shudder goes through me.
“No, sweetie. You can not do it. I'm so sorry," I say breathlessly. "Let's talk it out", I beg.
The pain in my chest is almost insufferable, but I still try to grab her. Erina takes a step back and I fall to the floor. And then she's gone...