Chapter 110: Pepper
He stays away for a week this time. He hasn't given me what I need. He's such a stubborn dragon. If it weren't for Acasia and Roxy, I would be as crazy as he accuses me of being. With each visit, his taunts become more hurtful. I alleviate his pain by offering my body. And he is in pain. I see it in his dull and listless eyes. He holds me tighter than he should and I don't complain. He needs me and deep in my heart I know that eventually he will accept that he loves me and allow his fear to drift away forever.
He steps into the room and I lift my arms beckoning. He slides into the bed and I wait for his kiss. Tonight, he keeps from my lips and travels my body with his gentle nips from his teeth and the languid slide of his tongue. I cry out when he breathes against my special place-the place that sheaths his cock. His tongue flicks out and I gasp his name.
"I can't stay away from you," he breathes against me before kissing me there. He presses two fingers inside of me. I buck my hips and wrap my fingers in his hair pressing him tightly to the part of me that craves more. His laugh ripples through me.
I love him so much. I love when he takes me in dragon form, but I may love this more.
My body explodes into fire and light. I writhe in it. When I float down from the high and open my eyes, he looks so pleased with himself. With a wicked grin, I catch him by surprise and flip us so he's on his back. His laughter cuts short when I draw his nipple between my teeth and swirl my tongue around the tip. He's sensitive here too. I suck and twirl the small points before moving lower.
His cock bulges. I glance up and gaze into eyes of pure silver and lick the head.
"Fuck," he groans.
Fuck is his favorite word and sex is his favorite activity. This time I lick from the base of his cock to the tip. He groans louder, which gives me courage to slide my lips around him. I think of all he does when it's him pleasuring me and I use his techniques. His muscles flex under my hands and his groan turns harsher. After a few minutes, he jerks away and pulls me astride him. He buries himself deep and within a very short time we explode.
Our elicit routine varies little. Tahr leads me out on the perch and we shift. Sex in dragon form is a craving I won't deny myself. It's different and somehow more fulfilling. It always leaves me exhausted and afterward I'm able to sleep without haunting, lonely dreams of my dragon.
Tahr flies by my side afterward and watches with forlorn eyes as I enter my room. And my heart breaks again.
***
The next morning, I'm restless. I've flown around the tower several times, eaten a larger than usual meal, and paced the floor of this room for an hour. I walk into Sarn's garment room and remove his clothing piece by piece and toss them on his bed. Using my teeth, I begin ripping them apart. Tahr has driven me completely insane because I can't stop. Some unnamed force is driving me to rip every last garment to shreds. When there is nothing but a mound of scraps before me, I begin braiding them and start a new pile. The mountain of woven cloth grows as my fingers mindlessly manipulate the material.
"Well, I have my answer," Acasia says from the window.
"What answer," I ask as I continue braiding. I was so caught up in my task that I didn't feel her cross into the realm.
"How long it will take for you and Tahr to create a child while acting so ridiculous," she smirks.
My fingers still and I look down at the pile of material. "Oh hell," I whisper. "A baby?"
Acasia's laugh is gleeful. "I hope this stops all the foolishness between the two of you. With the amount of times you have had sex in dragon form, it was only a matter of time." She looks out the window before turning back to me. "You need to return to him. He loves you. You just need to accept that he's too dumb to understand that he loves you back."
I burst into tears.
"There, there," Acasia says as she rubs my back. "Your place is with him. He needs to care for you while you are carrying his child."
"Two years," I cry.
"Well, truthfully, laying an egg is the worst of it," she replies dryly.
My voice is wobbly when I speak and I can't help the sobs that intersperse, "Did he... know... I might get pregnant?"
"Of course he knew. That's what happens when you mate as dragons."
My mind is playing tricks on me. I knew this too. Meagan told me. So why didn't I think of it when we mated in our dragon form?
Because he's so damned beautiful and my body and mind crave him constantly. I never stopped to think that we would make a baby. I cry harder.
Acasia's voice turns troubled. "Do you need me to fetch Tahr?"
I want him holding me and chasing away my fears while fulfilling my dreams. Dreams of love and happily ever after. "No. He doesn't love me. It won't matter that we're having a child. He'll just love the child."
Acasia wraps me in her arms. "The last thing I wanted was for Bastian to tell me that my hormones were acting up because of the pregnancy. I hope you can forgive me for saying it, but that is exactly what's happening with you. Of course Tahr loves you and he will love your child too. I will take you to him."
I allow her words to soothe me. There is nothing I want more than Tahr's love.
