Chapter 72: Sarn

Even with a bride I've never felt such a powerful connection of energy during my release. My violet light should have exploded and wrapped Sierra within its warmth. Like the last time, it remained elusive. I don't wish to feel this dejected sensation I've had both times we've made love. It brings all the reasons I'm here to the forefront.
Unleashing my dragon and soaring through the sky helps. I love the sound of Sierra's laughter. I fly us over the main collection of bear cabins and hear her shout greetings to the children and females who stop what they're doing and watch.
I've never relished having people see a bride riding me. It's always been a personal, somewhat intimate experience. I'm sure the humans at my castle have caught sight of me with a bride from time to time, though it's never acknowledged. The last thing a bride would do is wave to them. Sierra is different, and I'm delighted to see smiling faces on these children. One day, when all the dragons gain transcended mates, maybe we can share the joy with the village that supplies our brides. Quickly, I stop myself from this type of thought. I don't deserve a mate. My sins are unredeemable. If I thought I had even a small chance, the yearning for a mate would drive me crazier than I already am. Dragons don't forgive and I will never forgive myself.
"Take us over the lake, dragon. I would like to see it as the sun drops behind the trees."
"As you wish," I respond inside her mind.
She's fearless and holds tight as I head almost straight up and clear the tree line. I swoop between hills and glide on the wind.
"Remain steady," she says. "I wish to stand."
And she does. She walks my neck like it's a balance beam. I feel a very slight lag and know she has placed her hands out. She would make an incredible bride and a mate who I could carry through eternity. The cruelness of my life pushes its way inside me again.
"If I fall, would you catch me, dragon?" she yells.
Of course I would catch her. "No," I tell her as her joy encroaches on my sadness.
"We shall see," she shouts as she heads further along my body and begins walking over the spikes of my tail.
Crazy wolf and even crazier that she manages to stay on. I've reached the water and once I'm over the center where it's deepest, I dive almost straight down. My tail whips up and I send her into the water ahead of me with a loud splash. Once I pass where she went in, I skim my talons along the surface, which sends water spraying around me until I reach shore. I turn around and head back toward the sounds of her laughter. I pluck her from the water so she rests in my talons.
"No fair," she shouts. I release her and she splashes again.
This time when I head back to Sierra, I shift about twenty feet up and enter the water as human. I streamline straight to her kicking legs, lift her high, and toss her once more and watch as she flies up and then goes under.
"Enough, enough," she coughs while laughing when she comes up for air.
I swim over and bring her in close so she's settled against me as she catches her breath. "I love you, Sierra," I whisper against her wet hair.
Her arms tighten around me. "Oh, Sarn, I love you too."
Lightning doesn't strike and the earth doesn't open up and swallow us. She loves me even knowing my sins. I will steal every minute possible with her so she soothes away the pain as only she can do.
We swim to the bank and watch the sun go down over the trees and the mirror of the lake absorb the colors. When the last rays of light go dark, I begin kissing Sierra's throat and down lower until I stop at her breasts. I lay my head against her for a moment and listen to her heart beat. She will live forever and her heart will never stop. Longing travels through me-the longing to hold her throughout eternity. A dream that is far from reality, but I can't help it.
I finally pull away and run my hand over her soft flesh and hardened nipple. I taste one with a quick lick then watch the peak tighten further. Sierra's fingers sink into my hair as she draws me closer. I apply harder suction this time and she writhes beneath me.
"Love me, Sarn, please."
I worship her body with kisses and finally enter her in a long, slow stroke. We keep up this pace as our gazes meet in the dark, both having the gift of night vision. We share a connection until neither of us can fight the need of a faster and deeper joining.
I love her. I don't deserve her-my little wolf with the heart of the lion and the soul of an angel. I find peace in her arms and ecstasy in her warmth. She chases away my demons as her sighs and moans echo into the night.
I can't help silently bargaining with the Goddess. "Please, I will do anything..."
Sierra pulses around me and I can't hold back my orgasm. She's beautiful. She's sensual. She's fierce. She's perfect.
We hold hands as we walk back to the cabin. We aren't willing to stop the energy that binds us. She sleeps in my bed and we do more loving than actual sleeping. It is the most peaceful and whimsical night I've spent since leaving the dragon realm.
"What about your work at the nightclub?" I ask her the next morning after taking my fill of her body again. Her hair is in disarray, she smells like sex, and I've never seen her more alluring.
Her fingers skim over my abs. She's fascinated with them and proved it more than once during the night. "I'm not going back. Dmitri knows..." Her fingers stop moving and she gives me a look that says she doesn't want to finish the sentence.
"Go ahead," I tell her as I tap her chin with my fingertip.
She appears so worried, but she tells me anyway. "He has banned you from his club and every other club in the city."
This bothers me not at all and I offer a smile. "I deserve it. Don't fret. The craving for alcohol creeps up on me every so often and it's better I stay away."
"Is it bad?" She places peppered kisses over my chest where her fingers were before.
I tug a few strands of her hair. "With you here, it's not bad at all."
She peers from beneath her incredible lashes. I lift her up and bring her higher onto my chest so I can reach her lips. "I'll drink you instead."